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❝ my furry little problem ❞
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𝓔𝓿𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮'𝓼 𝓟𝓞𝓥
THURSDAY, APRIL 20th 1978

I hear someone clear their throat and I look up from the parchment I'm doodling on to see Remus stood on the opposite side of the table, staring at me with tired eyes.

I can tell just from the dark circles around his eyes and his sluggish posture that the Lupin boy hasn't been sleeping properly, causing my heart to pang in guilt.

"What are you doing here, Lupin?" Evan snarls with a murderous expression on his face.

"I suggest you piss off before I rip you to shreds" Mallory threatens.

"I know that I'm the biggest wanker on earth right now and I can't possibly make up for what I've done with just an apology, but I am so fucking sorry and I want to fix this, okay? You deserve an explanation, cub" Remus speaks up, not even sparing a glance at my fuming friends around the table.

"What, so you can flip out and leave her upset again?" Pandora frowns, not having it in her to glare at the boy.

"That'll never happen again" Remus assures them "It was a huge mistake"

"That's a fucking understatement" Regulus scoffs.

"Have you bloody apologised yet?" Sirius snaps, appearing next to the Lupin boy.

"I'm trying to" Remus snaps, pushing his friend in annoyance.

"Fucking wanker" Sirius mutters, elbowing the lycanthrope.

Sirius' gaze falls on me and he frowns sympathetically, practically throwing himself onto the table to grab my hands.

"I am so sorry that Moony is a stupid bellend" He tells me sincerely, squeezing my hands with a small smile.

"He told you, didn't he?" I finally speak up.

"Told me what?" The eldest Black brother acts clueless.

"Don't act daft, Sirius. I know he told you" I smile softly.

"He told me" Sirius admits with a nod "If it makes you feel any better, I'm really happy for you and I can't wait to meet the little bugger"

"That makes me feel a lot better. Thank you" I reply, my smile never faltering.

"You're welcome" He chirps, planting a kiss on my forehead and standing up straight before slapping Remus upside the head "Fix this or I'll turn you into a rug"

Remus rubs the back of his head with a scowl as he watches his best friend saunter off and I giggle quietly to myself, causing the brunette to perk up and turn to me hopefully.

"I never thought I'd say this, but Sirius is growing on me" Mallory admits.

"I think he's quite funny" Pandora adds with an amused smile.

"Can we talk?" Remus questions, ignoring the Slytherins.

I pause for a moment and turn to Regulus who is sat next to me with an unsure expression.

"Tu n'as pas besoin de ma permission, princesse" He smiles warmly.
(you don't need my permission, princess)

I smile happily and peck his cheek before bouncing out off my seat, rounding the table until i'm stood in front of Remus.

He smiles down at me happily until I reel back my hand and slap him. Although it's not too harshly, he still looks down at me in shock and my friends snigger.

"Now I'm ready to talk" I declare.

"I deserve that" He nods.

He holds out his hand to me and I hesitate before taking it, letting him whisk me off to talk.

We make a silent decision to sit down in the quiet corner of the library which holds the bean bag we first kissed on and Remus gestures for me to sit down so I plop myself down onto the seat. The brunette sits on the floor in front of me, laying his arms over his propped up knees and placing his chin down on his arms as he stares at me with a guilty expression.

"I miss you" He breathes out.

"It's been over a week" I frown deeply "You haven't even looked at me"

"Trust me when I tell you that this has been one of the hardest weeks of my life" He stresses.

"You haven't been sleeping, have you?" I question him.

"Not really" He shrugs tiredly "I sleep better when you're with me"

"Yeah, I get that" I mumble, knowing i've not been sleeping great myself.

There is a few beats of silence in which I pull my knees up to my chest and lay my chin on them, staring at Remus who looks like he's holding back tears.

"I was completely out of order for saying the things that I did and for the way that I acted. I realise now that I could've spoken to you about my feelings rather than freak out on you and I don't think I could feel more guilty about that even if I tried to" He starts and I listen intently.

"Are you ready to talk about how you feel now?" I ask him curiously and he nods.

"I am" He confirms.

"Then tell me, Rem, because I just want to work this out" I plead.

"I know, cub. I know" He sighs, reaching out and taking a hold of my hand in his larger one.

"Talk to me" I murmur, squeezing his hand gently.

"I'm scared" He admits.

"You think I'm not?" I counter.

"I'm not scared of having a baby with you, or even having to raise it on the sidelines in secret" Remus explains "I'm scared that this baby is going to end up just like me"

"Just like you?" I frown in confusion.

"Y'know, my furry little problem..." He drawls off and my eyes widen, causing him to smile weakly "You never even considered that, did you?"

"No, I didn't" I admit guiltily.

"I know how hard it is to grow up with a condition like this and the thought of me passing it down to our baby fucking terrifies me, cub" He states with teary eyes.

"Remus, it might not be genetic. There's no way that we can know for sure that you'll pass it on to the baby" I point out, trying my best to soothe his fears.

"But what if it does?" His bottom lip trembles.

"Then we'll do everything in our power to give them the help that they need" I declare and he looks up at me in adoration.

"I'm sorry for making you cry. I hate seeing you cry" He croaks out "I promise you that I'm going to be here for you and our baby every step of the way"

Before the boy can say another word, I launch myself into his arms and he hugs me tightly, burying his face in my neck as he sheds tears.

"I love you, cub" He sniffles.

"I love you, Moons" I smile warmly at him as he lifts his head to look at me.

His eyes drop to my stomach and he gently places his palm against it through my shirt, smiling a lopsided grin.

"We're going to be parents" He says in awe, as if the information is finally settling into his mind.

"That, we are" I grin widely.