"oh my god, we should start doing that like, on wednesdays we wear pink thing from mean girls." nene said, with raised brows and a smile.

"i don't have anything pink in my closet though." kim shrugged.

"i do. i just don't wear them." i spoke up.

"you kinda remind me of cady." nene stated.

"really?" i asked, raising a brow.

"yeah," nene nodded her head.

cal glanced around awkwardly before speaking up, "i've never watched mean girls."

"of course you haven't," nene said, rolling her eyes.

"what's that supposed to mean?" cal asked, furrowing his brows.

nene rolled her eyes again, "anyways, are you going to the dance?" nene asked with a smirk, looking at andre now.

"maybe. why?" andre raised a brow at her.

"well, i was just wondering if you wanted to go together.. i think you're cute." nene purred, leaning over the table slightly to touch andre's hand.

i spoke up a bit awkwardly.
"uh, yeah. i think you're cute too-" nene's eyes instantly darted to me.
"l-like, in the sense that- if i was nene i'd, uhm, like, go out with you.. i-i don't mean that i like, want to—" i stopped talking. god, why do i always do this. i always fuck up a perfectly good conversation.

i was met with a glare from both andre and nene, although andre's was just more of a blank stare, still intimidating though.

i got a nervous feeling in my stomach. not only was it sinking, it was doing fucking front flips.

maybe i'm overthinking this but maybe i just destroyed my whole relationship with nene.

but, i can just talk this out with her. it's fine.

communication is key.

god this is so embarrassing and awkward.

"your face is awfully red." cal chuckled.

ohh thank god someone said something

"what?" i mumbled, glancing at cal.

"uhm, i mean, sorry. yeah." i leaned back in my chair, slumping down.

i wish i could just melt into a puddle and die. this is so embarrassing.

i saw nene give me another glare from the corner of my eye, and i shrunk down more.

i zoned out i guess, watching as everyone else talked and laughed.

they seemed to come back from the situation quickly, but i don't think i'm doing too well.

shit, even cal is laughing. i'm such a fucking loser.

"i'm going to the bathroom." the words leave my mouth before i can even process it, and my legs are already moving. i'm standing up from my chair and walking to the girl's restroom out in the hallway before i even know it.

i guess this is just an instinctive reaction or something.

i shut the door behind me, and look at myself in the wide ass mirror.

"what is wrong with me?"

"nothing."

i guess kim followed me, and i didn't hear her. i looked at her through the mirror.

"you didn't mean it, right? like, yo-"

"no. i was just trying to be funny, but it came out wrong. i was- like—.."

"nene makes it look so easy. she's always so confident." kim spoke, standing beside me now.

"it runs in her family." i said, splashing some cold water on my face.

"yeah, have you seen her mom? i heard she was a model back in japan for sometime."

i raised my eyebrows.

"really?"

kim just shrugged, "i think. yeah."

"oh." i nodded my head and stayed silent for a while, just staring at kim.

not to be corny or anything but kim is a really good friend, like, freakishly good. if i was a lesbian, i'd totally date her, heck, i'd marry her and raise my children with her.

"you're staring again."

"right. sorry." i look down at the sink, and she takes a step closer.

"you okay?"

"what? yeah, duh. i just— i know it's stupid, it wasn't even that big of a deal, it's just-.. you know how nene gets so serious about those things.. boys and stuff.." i shrugged.

"yeah, no, i understand. i talked to her a few days ago, like, afterschool, the day after those guys came. all those things she said about andre sounded.. serious. like she wasn't playing or joking around, she was being for real."

i grimaced slightly, "really? you think so? you aren't just.. saying that?"

"no, i'm serious. like, look-"

kim pulled her phone out from her pocket, unlocking it and pulling up some messages from nene.

"here."

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a/n) sorry if there r any typos and also ik this is a shorter chapter but im not rlly feeling good today :(