You and Chigiri arrived back at your house just as the rain began tapping against the window. You blinked slowly, ears still ringing from the noise of the crowd. Your body felt heavy, and your head was pounding. lay in bed and forget about everything, but before you could take your first step in the direction of your room, you heard a thud and looked down to see Chigiri had fallen to his knees before you. "Chigiri-
"
"I'm so sorry, Y/n," he muttered. "I just want you to get better. I can't stand seeing you looking so depressed. I miss the old you, but whenever I try to help, it just seems to go wrong." You stood there frozen as you stared at him. After a moment, your body moved on its own, stepping forward to run your hand through his hair, tugging on it to make him look up at you. All rationality left your head as you spoke.
"Make me forget," you muttered, and Chigiri's eyes widened. He looked up at you. Your eyes were clouded and cold and tired. They held none of the light that was there when he first met you .In fact, you yourself looked nothing like how you once did, but rather a mere shell of the girl he used to know. But still...

"What do you mean, Y/n-"

He was cut off when you smashed your lips against his, your heart aching at the feeling. None of this was right, yet you didn't want to stop. This was enough of a distraction, from Isagi, from your absent grandfather, from your mother's condition, and from this life, you refused to stop and instead pushed him onto the floor and straddled him. The heavyness in your mind was still prominent, but instead of the ache that Isagi's absence left, your chest burned with the guilt of using him, but the latter was still better. Chigiri didn't seem like he was against it anyway. The kisses and bites he was leaving along your neck were enough to tell you that. 

You shifted, feeling a bulge forming in his pants where you were sitting. He hissed, feeling you grind against it.
"Y/n-"
"You said you wanted to help me, right?" Your cold eyes were on his again, nearly burning holes in his own. "This is how you can help." Any seconds thoughts Chigiri was feeling like his in an instant, and only joy remained. Now he could play it out like he'd done in his dreams so many times He gripped your hips, pushing you down on his clothed cock and forcing you to grind against it.
"I'll help you in any way I can," he moaned. "Use me however you like." You hummed, but letting his take control was boring you, and allowed you to cast your focus elsewhere. , you slapped his hands away and moved dowed, pulling his jeans down to reveal his cock that was already leaking and pulsing. How long had he been waiting for this ? You wondered, but like all others, you pushed that thought aside, and swirled your tongue around his tip. Chigiri's eyes widened as he threw his head back against the wood floors.
"YY/n," he stuttered, resisting the urge to grab your hair. "You shouldn't...a-ah!" He could only whine pathetically as you slowly took him into your mouth. was so long, and you were painfully reminded that this was your first time doing something like this, but still, you persisted.
"Don't force yourself," Chigiri grunted. You were sloppy, pulling your head up and licking the tip before turning to take him all again, getting further and further each time. But the fact that it was you, your mouth around him, engulfing him and making him feel as though he was on fire made him more sensitive than h head had ever been. His thighs shook as you took him again, this time near the base. 
"P-please...Y/n," He whimpered. "Don't wanna cum yet...Hold on..." He didn't want it to be over yet, but the moment he felt your cheeks hollow and the tip of his cock hit the back of your throat he was done. His back arched, tears filling his eyes as he moaned pathetically. You pulled away, and Chigiri looked down to see you holding your hand below your mouth to catch the cum - his cum that spilled from your lips. You looked at the redhead just in time to see the last bit of sanity left him. His eyes filled with a crazed hunger as he gripped the back of your head, pulled you into a desperate kiss, and not caring about tasting his own cum as he pulled you on top of him again. With shaky hands, he pulled your shorts and panties off, rubbing his cock against your folds. He swallowed the moan you released,as he pushed himself inside. You were the first to pull away, throwing your head back as his length filled you up. 
"Ch-Chigiri," you moaned out, wasting no time as you began to ride him, and the overstimulation already setting in as you set your desperate pace, placing your hands on his chest as you raised up and slammed yourself onto him over and over again. Your hands on him, your sex clenching his cock was all he ever wished for. There was only one thing missing. "
Cum..." he whined. "Cum...cum for me, please...I have to feel it, please, Y/n, use me and cum." You stared down at him, teary eyes staring up at you with nothing but love and adoration like you held the world in your arms. Just like how Isagi looked at you. 
"Shut up," you grown, gripping his hair, and pushing him to lay back. "Stop looking at me like that!" You shouted, but despite your words, your hands, gripping his hair and pulling it was all it took to push him over the edge once more, and his thick cum spilling inside you pushed you over the edge as well, your pussy gripping him like a vice as you came on him, but Chigiri could only let out a breathless cry as you never missed a step. You ignored his cries, the aching of your legs, and the tears that spilled from your own eyes as your continued to bounce on him, your mixed fluids leaking from you and onto his lower stomach. "Y/n!" Chigiri
was overwhelmed. If you kept this up he was convinced he'd die. But your grip tightened on his hair, as you forced him to meet your gaze, just as blank as cold as it had been.
"You said you wanted to help me," you grow. "So shut up and do it." You released him, and Chigir laid back, biting his lip so hard he could taste blood as he felt another orgasm wash over him, but you continued.

It's okay. He thought. If this would be what killed him, he'd die a happy death.

***

By the time you finished, all you could do was collapse on top of Chigiri's twitching sweating form. He lay there for a moment, looking down at you to see that you were out cold. He sighed, feeling more happiness than he had in his entire life. He forced himself to move, gritting his teeth as he slid his cock out of you, and you whimpered as his and your cum dripped down your thighs. 
"Does this mean I can keep you now?" He muttered as he struggled to carry you on his own shaky legs. He set you down on the couch before going to run a bath for you, and you just barely regained consciousness to hear his footsteps getting faint, as well as a strange voice.

"Hm, I don't like this very much..." No matter how hard you tried, you couldn't bring yourself to open your eyes. The voice that came from all around you sounded so strange to your ears, but also so familiar. Despite your panic, you felt your consciousness fading.

"Looks like we're gonna have to change some things."