"hyung, are you sure you'll be alright here?"

sunoo bit his lower lip as he puts the groceries that he bought on top of heeseung's kitchen counter.

heeseung's previous condominium was great, especially since he's under the same building as sunghoon. it puts sunoo at ease that he has a friend to call on. but now that heeseung decided to move to another apartment, he can't help but worry.

he liked that apartment, so i don't know why he suddenly moved out. did something happen?

he wanted to contact sunghoon and ask, but he's sure that he won't get anything decent on that guy.

"of course, i'll be fine here." heeseung walked behind him and patted his head. "and i told you not to bring me groceries, i'm not a kid sunoo."

"but you're alone here," sunoo stated while pouting a bit. "don't you think the old one's better? at least you're near sunghoon."

"sunghoon's not staying at his penthouse that often so it's not a big deal."

"but this place is far from your office."

"it's one bus away, i'll be okay."

sunoo sighed. heeseung is such a stubborn person. "just get a car already, or borrow mine. riki has his car anyways."

"sun, i'm good. really. don't stress yourself," heeseung smiled at him before going back to the living room. sunoo followed, tailing behind the older.

"fine! i won't nag you anymore. but be honest with me," the younger plops on the couch that heeseung just bought. "something happened, right? i want to know. as your best friend, i demand the right to know."

heeseung scratched the back of his neck. i don't really want to talk about it, but sunoo never pried like this so i might as well just tell him.

"didn't sunghoon tell you?"

sunoo crossed his arms. "don't mention him, we're still not in good terms. but how is it that you tell him things, but you never say anything to me?"

he shrugged. "it's not like i have a choice. he was easier to reach, just floors away from each other."

it was easier for me to see jay too. but that was difficult for me to handle.

"and that's why i told you the old apartment's better! but you never listen anyway." he rolled his eyes and then looked at heeseung again. "so are you going to tell me or not? don't try to change the topic."

heeseung let out an exasperated sigh.

"i didn't want to see him."

for a moment, sunoo caught a glimpse of sadness passing through his eyes. so it was really about jay.

"why? i thought... you'd still want to pursue him after all these years." he asked softly.

the older shakes his head. "i still want that, sun. but if his heart doesn't want me, what more can i do? i'll just have to continue living my life alone."

it's jake that he wants. when i fell for him, he was in love with his best friend. three years and it's still him. how can i compete with that?

sunoo listened, his eyebrows slowly knitting in confusion. jay's heart doesn't want heeseung? is that really the case? he cleared his throat.

"uh, jay likes someone else?"

heeseung nodded. "he's always been in love with jake. can't change that fact."

this time, sunoo's mouth opened a bit as if he wanted to say something— but he decided to shut up.

oh good heavens, he doesn't know a thing.

his tattletale of a boyfriend just told him two days ago, that jake decided to just remain best friends with jay. riki had to emphasize that it was jake who made the decision.

and right now, heeseung doesn't have any idea what happened because he was busy with the new apartment.

sunoo closed his eyes for a bit, suddenly feeling dizzy. well, i'm fucked.

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[ #1 on blocklist ]

sunoo:
i don't want to talk to you rn
but i have no choice
i need to let this out

#1 on blocklist:
omg
you're in love with me all these years?! 😳
what about nishimura?!!!!!
you're cheating on him?!!!!!!!!!

sunoo:
what the fuck
i forgot how annoying you are
want me to block you again?

#1 on blocklist:
go ahead
but before u forget
who needs who again? ☺️

sunoo:
fine
i'll let you be a dick this time
now listen to me

#1 on blocklist:
👂🏻👁️👄👁️👂🏻
go on milady

sunoo:
i just learned that heeseung doesn't know that jay and jake are over now
and he's planning to move on

#1 on blocklist:
uhuh
what's the big news?
i already know that

sunoo:
???? good for you????
anyways that's not the point
the question here is
should i tell heeseung about jay?
SHOULD I
BECAUSE I CAN'T LET THIS BE THE END FOR THEM

#1 on blocklist:
why
i mean
not that i'm against the idea
but if it's fate, it's fate
yano?
let them figure things out themselves

sunoo:
really
park sunghoon
the same person that always meddle with people's lives
now believes in fate? 💀
i call bullshit

#1 on blocklist:
LMFAOOOO
i guess i'm just looking at a different perspective 🤷🏻‍♂️

sunoo:
or you just want to let them suffer more right?
is it that entertaining for you that you don't want it to end?

#1 on blocklist:
oof
u hit the bullseye
yo but honestly tho
i want jay to make the move
bc if you tell heeseung, he'd def have his hopes high
then before u know it, he'll show up in front of jay like a lost pup

sunoo:
well
you do have a point
heeseung's got a soft spot for jay

#1 on blocklist:
yeah
like how he does with you before lolol

sunoo:
pls stfu

#1 on blocklist:
embrace your past, sunoo 🙏🏻
you two were head over heels for each other before 😌
can't believe how time flies

[ you blocked this person. ]

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hoon 📰 @parkwrites tweeted.

getting blocked by @sunscript ? def not the first time 🤪

793 likes | 26 retweets

replies:

@suncript i fucking hate you
↪@parkwrites tell me something i don't know 😗
@chenleave he blocked me a lot of times during college too :(
↪@parkwrites yeah? u probably deserve that
@nishi_rk haha he wasn't the one that blocked you, i did 😊
↪@parkwrites aw really? what i said must've hurt a lot then 🥰

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jay walked back and forth as he held his phone tightly. he grunted, tapping the screen before turning it off again.

"do you mind sitting for a moment, jay? stop walking around like you got hemorrhoids or something."

he gives jimin a glare but proceeds to follow her demand, sitting on the bean bag chair on the side of her bed.

he decided to visit jimin at her parents' house because he missed meiji, and he also brought the toys that sunghoon bought for the kid.

"what the freaking hell are those?" jimin looked at him with disbelief as he put the two huge boxes inside their living room.

"sunghoon's gifts to meiji."

"i don't remember him being my son's godfather, but thanks i guess." she checks the box. "meiji isn't here today though, he's shopping with mom and dad."

what a bummer.

since meiji is not around, the two just decided to watch a movie together. and then halfway through the film, jay just blurted out what happened. he also talked about his present dilemma to jimin.

"just text him, what the hell. you always love to complicate things."

"but what if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore?"

jimin groaned, pulling her hair. "then you stop! remember jay, you're the one who pushed heeseung away. it's your turn to chase him."

she's right. jay doesn't really have the right to expect something from heeseung, when he didn't clear things up in the first place. even with jake, he was the one who decided to end things just because i can't do it.

why have i become so indecisive?

"stop over analyzing every single move that you have to do. you love him, right? go do some crazy shit for him out there. isn't that what love is all about?"

jay smiled. "yes, i do love him."

jimin pretends to vomit. "eww, i didn't want to hear that you fucker."

he laughed at her remark before opening his phone and started to type a message.

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[ heeseung ]

jay:
hi
just in case you deleted my number, it's me jay
i know it's been long overdue
but can we meet?
i need to talk to you please
i want to see you, heeseung

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heeseung's phone vibrated while he was busy cleaning up the pantry. is this sunoo again?

he removed his gloves and reached for the phone on top of the counter. it was an unregistered number, but heeseung's heart did a double take when he stared at the number.

the sequence is familiar. in fact, it's achingly familiar.

he deleted his number a week ago because he was determined to forget anything related to him. so why is he... why did he message me?

he slowly tapped on the screen, revealing the text that he sent him.

it took him a couple of minutes to process the whole message. it's not like it's hard to decipher, but it's just unexpected.

heeseung breathes out shakily as if he's getting nervous for the first time. he sat on the island counter, his other hand gripping on his phone while he brushed his hair up.

he wants to see me.

fuck.

he tried so hard to move on and build a wall between them, but one message— one fucking message, and the walls that i built went crumbling into dust.

i'm screwed. i don't have any idea how i've fallen this deep towards him.

jay is really going to be the death of him.

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[ +83963700 ]

+83963700:
hi
just in case you deleted my number, it's me jay
i know it's been long overdue
but can we meet?
i need to talk to you please
i want to see you, heeseung

heeseung:
i'm a bit busy but i'll text you when i'm free
i wanted to talk to you too
so let's meet soon, jay
see you

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/bites my keyboard/ aight i can really see the end now 🥹 my heejayke babies did so well in this story, proud of them 😌 (i was the one who made them suffer)