Shawn
I put on something nicer before I walked out to the living room. "Are you ready?" Casey asked happily. "No, not really" I shrugged and put on my shoes. "Oh, Common Shawn. It will be fun" she hooked her arms around mine "Yeah, but I can't stop thinking of Harper"

-At the restaurant-

I was totally zoomed out. I didn't pay attention to what my friends were talking about. It was just a constant murmur around me.

Why did Harper leave me? What went wrong? Was I the problem? Was I the reason why she left?

I stared at my hamburger that now probably was cold since I have been staring at it for a good 15 minutes.

"Hey man, aren't you going to eat?" Connor asked and hit his hand slightly on my back. "No, I'm not hungry" I mumbled. "But you need to eat. You need to have something in your stomach. You will feel so much better after you have eaten a little bit"

"But I'm not hungry! I don't want to eat this burger" I raised my voice a little and pushed the silver plate with the burger on, away from me. "I know how you feel. But it doesn't make the thing better if you don't eat" Brian said and pushed the plate back to me. "And it doesn't make the thing better if I eat. It's not like she will come back to me if I eat this burger"

"That's true, but you need to eat something"

"Yeah, but I said that I'm not hungry!" I stood up so the chair was pulled against the floor, which made a creaky sound, causing a few people to look at our direction. "Thanks for the burger man" I said with a low voice before I walked out of the restaurant.

I left them and they still sat there. But that's what I want. I don't want them to be involved in this. This is between me and Harper. I called them over just to take away the weight from my heart, not to get them involved in this mess.
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I listened to some music and cleaned the apartment a little bit when I suddenly heard a knock on the door. I turned down the volume of the music, to go and open.

"Casey? What are you doing here?" "I think that I forgot my keys" she said and ducked under my arm that held the door open. She walked to the living room and took the shiny keys that laid on top of the coffee table. "Aha, here they are" she showed me the keys between her fingers and smiled big.

"Good that you found them" I smiled weakly at her and walked to the kitchen, and I could hear her footsteps behind me.

"Do you want anything to drink?" I asked with my back facing her and looked in the refrigerator. "I take water" she said and jumped up on the counter.

I took a water bottle to her and a beer to me. "Here" I gave her the water "Shawn" She raised one eyebrow and looked at the beer bottle in my hand. "There is nothing I can do Casey. She left me and she will never come back"

"Hey, look at me" I looked to the side, ignoring that she wants me to look at her. "Hey" she said more firm and grabbed my cheek, and turned my head so we were facing each other. My eyes were filled with tears, so my vision was blurry.

"I know" she shook her head and corrected herself "We both know, that she is strong. She will fight and she will remember someday. Trust me, if I know her right, she won't let you down"

Harper
I sat there with my parents at the table and they just talked to each other. They didn't even pay attention to me. To be honest, I want Shawn to be here. But I made my choice, I'm gonna live with my parents for a little while since Shawn put go much pressure on me.

Maybe this is a good start. That my parents aren't paying too much attention to me. Maybe I need to forget everything in my past and start from zero?

"So hun, have you had any contact with Philip?" my mum asked with a big smile on her lips. Hoping that I would say the answer she hoping for. "No mum, I haven't. It was years ago"

"Well, then it's a good thing that I invited him for dinner today" she smiled and took away my plate and walked to the kitchen.

"You did what?" I asked and followed her to the kitchen. "You need to start from the beginning hun" she smiled at me and tugged hair behind my ear and slide her cold hand against my cheek to my chin. "Sutch a beautiful girl as you deserve a gentleman as him" she smiled at me and started with the dishes.

- later that night-

I stood in front of the mirror in my old bedroom and I heard mum's, dad's and Philips's voice downstairs. I looked at myself in the mirror, and you could still see the bruises in my face. 

It knocked on my door and in the moment I looked at the door Philip peaked in his head. "Hi" she smiles and took a step into my bedroom. "So it's here you are hiding" he smirked and walked up to me. "Hi" I smiled at him and took a pair of earrings.

"You look beautiful" he looked at me from top to toe. Admiring my body in my green shirt and cream-colored skirt.

"Thanks" I smiled and I could feel the blood rush up to my cheeks. "Shall we?" he offered his big hand and I put my hand on my chest. Pretending to be flattered "Oh, such a gentleman" I giggled and took his hand and we walked downstairs.

During the whole dinner, I felt Philip's eyes one me. When I caught him looking at me, he winked at me and continued to listen to what my parents had to say.

I didn't think of Shawn one time during the whole dinner. Maybe I can manage this without him?

Shawn
"I don't know Casey" one tear rolled down my cheek and I could feel her small thumb wiping it away.

"Yes, you do Shawn. You just don't want to realize it. She will come back to you. Maybe not today or tomorrow. But someday"

"When she says something, she really mean it"

"She is in a confusing time right now Shawn. You have to let her breath a little. And in the end, everything will be fine. Everything will be back to normal again"

"I really hope so" I sighed and swallowed the lump in my throat. "I'm glad that you are my friend" I smiled at her and she smiled as well. "Of course Shawn. I love you"

Without even knowing it, I stood closer to her now. I could feel her hot breath hitting my face. Her dark brown eyes traveled from my eyes to my lips and then up to my eyes again.

Her hand that was on my cheek was now on the back of my neck. And then, our lips were touching. I gripped the edge of the counter and my other hand was cupping her cheek.

It didn't get any signals to my hand that said that this was wrong. That kissing one of mine and Harper's best friends, isn't a good idea.

Her small hand move to my chest and I got even closer to her. Our lips moved in sync and none is us pulled away. None of us were thinking that this was wrong. But then it hit me.

I pulled away quickly. "No! This is so wrong" I wiped off my lips with my thumb and I could feel my heart rising. "Shawn-" "No Casey. This shouldn't be happening. I am married to Harper and I love her. And nothing can change that. I-I don't know what's flew into me"

Tears formed in my eyes. And I suddenly got problems to breathe.

"Shawn I-" she started but I didn't let her continue. "Y-you should probably go" I looked at her and she looked broken. Like she was sad that the kiss didn't lead to something else.

She jumped down from the counter and walked to the hall. She didn't look at me, she didn't even say bye. She just closed the door behind her.

I slide down to the floor with my back against the refrigerator door. I rested my arm on top of my knee that was in front of me.

Why did I do that? Why did I even kiss her? I don't have feelings for Casey, and I never will.

All of this makes me a total mess. A drunk irresponsible failure. Maybe Harper won't let me down, but I for sure will let her down.

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