TW: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS BODY SHAMING/FAT SHAMING.

//past//

❝ L O U I S ❞

"will you give him these cards too? daisy and phoebe gave me these last night."

louis smiled and took the cards from lottie. the two twins loved harry a lot. louis wasn't sure if he should give his gift to harry in school or not. at midnight, he even tried to call harry but the boy didn't pick up. so he messaged, but harry hasn't read it yet. it was odd because harry always replied to him back. maybe he went to sleep a little earlier than usual.

he was really relieved when he reached the school and didn't stumble upon any of his friends, otherwise they would have asked plenty of questions about the gift wrapped box and cards. he kept the gift and cards safely in his locker. class after class went by and louis could only think about his gift and harry. he wanted to wish the boy and make him feel special. tell him how he has finally chosen a flower for him.

a daffodil; for their new found friendship or maybe more. also, because daffodils symbolises narcissism and harry is a little narcissistic.

when the lunch time rolled off, louis couldn't control himself and messaged harry to meet him in the toilets. when he reached the toilet, he leaned against the wall and kept waiting for the boy. he kept checking if harry had checked his message or not, but he never did, harry never came. feeling sad and deeply hurt, louis kept the gifts back in his bag and traipsed his way back to the cafeteria. thankfully, his friends were huddled together at their designated table and waved him over.

"where were you?" gigi asked. "you didn't even reply to any of our texts. even in classes, you were lost. what happened?" louis felt like crying. however, he just shrugged her off half-heartedly. his friends must have guessed his bad mood and ended the discussion.

"i think h and the other arseholes are planning to do something." zayn grumbled, eyeing the group suspiciously. louis felt his heart skip a beat, not in a good way but, in fear. he couldn't even bring himself to look back and cuddled further into taylor.

"what happened, lou?" taylor cooed. but before he could answer, someone cleared their throat. everybody turned around except louis.

"hi, fatlinson!"

louis' breath caught in his throat. he couldn't believe his ears. maybe it's a joke. it has to some joke because harry would never do such thing anymore. but when he turned, he wasn't ready to face his worst fears. harry was standing there with his friend and his friends were laughing loudly. his eyes widened in realization. it was really harry. harry called him fatlinson.

"h-harry?" he dared to speak, slowly, standing up.

"shut up!" george snapped and glared at him. "what do you think, huh? harry's your friend now. and why were you calling him so late at night and now in the washrooms?"

louis looked around helplessly, feeling humiliated. what is going on? his heart was caught in his throat. he didn't understand what was happening. even harry was standing there with a stoic expression. "i-i...

"what?!" taylor gasped, pulling louis towards her. "fuck off! why would louis ever message this!"

"i don't know what you are saying, george." louis mumbled, still hoping harry would help him. he could feel his heart rabbiting in his chest.

"what is going on, h?" zayn scowled, asking the same question louis wanted to ask. he looked at the taller lad helplessly, however, harry was not even looking at him.

"what i am saying is that— harry here was given a dare; to befriend you and then break your teeny tiny heart." george sneered. "and look at you! you are so pathetic to believe it." he laughed. "i mean, go look at yourself first then maybe you'll see you don't deserve any friends. god, you are so disgusting to look at!"

"shut the fuck up!" niall whisper-yelled. "the fuck you are on about?!"

"oh, this fat fuck didn't tell you about his new 'friend' harry?" chris mocked. "how can you possibly think good looking people like harry will ever be friends with something so hideous like you!"

louis couldn't believe his ears, feeling a lump forming in his throat. yes, how could he possibly think harry wanted to be his friend? how stupid of him to think harry actually liked him? it's true, someone as pretty as harry could never fall for someone like him. he really confused harry's charade for his affection.

however, still with some hope within him, he looked at harry, wishing maybe harry was genuine all along and would defend him. and when harry smirked, louis broke down with a choked sob. how could he be this naive to trust someone as evil as harry. how come he never saw his intentions behind every thing he did for him. harry kept feeding him lies like sugar coated pills and louis believed him. he felt two arms around him and familiar coo; gigi.

a bitter feeling of betrayal and hatred towards the taller boy burned louis' heart. louis felt like a fool for ever believing harry. was everything a lie? how cruel someone could be to pretend to like someone, only to break their heart? how cruel was harry to pretend to be nice to him and his sisters? has he no shame? does he not have a heart? little broken sobs left his lips, as he clutched onto gigi for some comfort, for some support. and what was his mistake? just because he was fat.

"pathetic." george muttered. "your tears won't help you. maybe lose some weight and do us a favor. you are crushing your friend, fattie!" that seemed to catch louis' attention, as his grip against gigi loosened.

"s-sorry-

"no, louis, don't listen to him!" gigi mumbled sadly, feeling sorrowful for her friend. she pulled louis for another hug.

"he's clearly a freak!" george snorted.

"i'll fucking snap your neck if you dare to speak another word!" taylor hissed. she rubbed louis' back as he cried helplessly. "how can you do this to someone?" she scoffed in disgust.

"maybe you should call your friend an it, not harry." george smirked. "i'm so fucking elated harry did this. i was tired of seeing this fat freak strut around as if nothing was wrong with him. does he know he might die if he keeps eating? huh louis, do you know that?"

and maybe he should die. louis thought sadly.

harry's heart broke into pieces. he never spoke a single thing, letting his friends do the damage. but witnessing it was more hurtful. and as he saw louis break down in his' friend's arms, he knew it was a horrible mistake. he knew he could never find someone as amazing as louis. there was no one like louis. he should have never agreed to this. life would have been unrepentant, but it would have been a little less unrepentant with louis. every time george said something, he wanted to slap him. but the person whom he hated the most right now was himself. how could he really do this to someone?

"how pathetic of you to think harry would ever make friends with someone as ugly as you, pig!" ... "harry, say something!" chris sneered

"yes haz, speak up!"

harry gulped a little, he didn't want to say anything to louis. he felt george glaring at him with a knowing glint in his eyes. he had to, for himself. with a shaky breath, he spoke the next words, sabotaging everything he has ever build with louis. his louis.

"y-yes... i h-hate you, ugly louis." and when louis' head shot up to stare right in his eyes, with tearful his own eyes, disbelief and betrayal written all over his face, harry knew it was too late for this realization and he just wished louis could hear him.

i love you.

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❝ Professionally messing with my trust, How could I confuse that shit for love? ❞
— Selena Gomez

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I HOPE IT WAS GOOD?

15/05/2021

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🥀 : do y'all watch anime?
🍂 : i do! i love them.

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excuse my mistakes. i hope you liked the chapter x