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Chapter 10: Nervous, but a good nervous

Lennon

'It's insulting to think that the murders are out there smiling while Megan rots. But Hey, everyone gets the comeuppance in the end'

I stared at the note with shaky hands for what felt like hours. Just staring, memorising the words. Danny had come to pick me and Harry up and bring us back to his place. We were all here, all 6 of us at Danny's in complete silence, we didn't know what to say. On top of the letters, there were also pictures of all of us. There was a picture of me and Harry. Me, holding cupcakes whilst Harry smiled down at me, which was taken earlier today, explaining how Danny knew I was there. It was hard to think an hour ago I was having such fun with Harry and now this was happening. There was a picture of Danny with his phone to his ear, laughing.

There was a picture of Kyle with some girl, looking at her whilst laughing. There was a picture of Shelby coming out w clothing store with a lot of bags laughing with her friends. There was even a picture of Issy for was smiling at a man on her doorway, although we couldn't see who it was.

All of the pictures showed us all being happy in some way. That was scary was how oblivious we were, we had no idea that we were being watched. I felt silently violated, we all did. I felt a shiver run up my body at the potential of this person being dangerous.

"We have to go to the police" Issy said, her eyes staring at the coffee table where all the pictures laid.

"We can't do that" Danny said, running his hands over his usually angelic and composed face which was now quivering with worry.

"And why not?! And who the fuck put you in charge anyway?!"Issy demanded, getting up from the chair.

"Hey. Come on calm down." Kyle said putting his hand on her shoulder trying to guide her back down onto the seat.

"Don't tell me to calm down! There's fucking someone stalking us and taking our pictures! This is not some type of joke!" She shouted.

"She's right" I said before I could even think about what i was saying. I felt Harry connect his eyes with give me a reassuring look.

"Yeh she is" he agreed.

"Haz. Come on the police would just twist it, we have no business going to them, besides we've done nothing wrong. We should just wait for this to blow over, its still probably nothing.Shelby softly said whilst looking at Harry. I let my eyes study them, I remember once in English, one of Nancy Litters friends Mona called Harry 'Haz' and he automatically got angry and corrected her. But he hadn't correct Shelby, maybe there was something between them? Would Harry correct me if I gave him a nick name? The thought of that happening made me sad.

"I'm sorry, is your ass jealous of the amount of shit that just came out of your mouth?" Issy said looking at her as if she was stupid.

"Me, Lennon and Harry want to go to the police that should be enough"

"Of course you and the prude would want that" she said rolling her eyes, and I felt my cheeks heat up and a wave of sadness dawn over me. I also noticed how she didn't mention Harry.

"Kyle? What do you think we should do?" I asked softly, realising that he was the only one who hadn't really voiced his opinion on what he should do. He sighed before answering.

"We don't know what this person, or people know. Now, I don't know about ALL of you guys but there is sure some shit I have that I don't want the police knowing about, I'm pretty sure that the same can be said for all of yous" he argued.

"Of course you would say something like that, your dodgy drugs all over your house is a little less important than this right now"

"Expect it's not though is it, Isabella? And this isn't just about me. I'm assuming that you don't want anyone finding out who you're fucking? That's why your panicking so much right?" I have never heard Kyle sound so serious before, and as I looked over at Issy flushed cheeks I don't think she had either.

"I'm not fucking anyone" Issy said, crossing her arms and her cheeks becoming more flustered. Kyle just scoffed.

My mind subconsciously went back to the day when I was trying to find her to give her a cupcake and heard noises of her and someone in the photo room. I blushed at the thought. Harry must of noticed because his straight expression turned into one of a smirk when he saw I was blushing, probably thinking it was because of the mention of sex. Well, maybe the thought of Harry looking at me while we were talking about that did make me feel a bit nervous. Perhaps it was because he was so experienced in things like that and I clearly wasn't.

"Look we have all done things that we probably of shouldn't but if we tell the police there first question won't be who it will be why. You know everyone is just looking for some type of scandal, think about how our parents would react" Danny said, his usual blue eyes looked worried and stressed and his blonde hair was extremely messy from all the times he had ran his hand through it. His beautiful face looked exhausted and pale. He looked so lost I just wanted to hug him, if not for his sake than for mine.

"Why don't we tell Megan's parents?" I blurted.

"Lennon we can't do that" Danny said softly. I felt my heart swell at the fact he had addressed me directly, especially because he seemed mad at the fact me and Harry were together before.

"Why not? Maybe they won't tell the police, but they could still help us, and besides what if this person who is doing this is the person who actually hurt Megan" I said. Shelby rolled her eyes before answering.

"Hey, bible basher. Open your eyes, do you have any idea how corrupt Megan's parents are? They won't give a shit about this, they will blame it all on us. Stop being so fucking naive all the-"

"Will you shut up? She's trying to help for fuck sake so stop being a bitch to her" Harry snapped at her. Shelby was clearly a little taken back, her eyes wide as she darted back and forth between us and the cheeks slightly reddening. I was a little taken back myself, but at the same time really flattered. I wanted to say thankyou to Harry but I didn't really feel like doing it now whilst everyone was in silence.

"Sorry" Shelby mumbled underneath her voice.

"It's okay" I said almost immediately.

"Come on guys, now is not the time to be fighting, we've got bigger things to deal with" Danny chimed in.

"Of course Megan is the reasson all of this has started" Issy said, sitting down.

"What if it is Megan doing it?" Kyle said.

"What do you mean?" Harry asked, putting his arm around the seat where I sat.

"I mean, come on think about it. This is the type of crazy shit that she would do. Plus, the girl is missing, no one has said she's dead"

"What? Megan would fake a disappearance so she could follow us around and take pictures" Danny said disbelievingly.

"Wouldn't put it past her" Harry mumbled.

"She would do anything to get want she wanted" Issy agreed.

Listening to the others speak about Megan, speak about how demanding she was made me think about the time I spent interacting with her before she went missing.

"Lennon, what took you so long?" Tiger asked me as I walked into the changing rooms.

"I offered to help Miss. Jones put away the equipment, there was a lot more than I thought" I said wiping the sweat from my head. Everyone was already changed and ready to go to break but I still needed to shower and get changed myself.

"Do you want me to wait for you?" she asked as everyone started to walk out.

"No, no it's fine, you carry on. I'll catch up with you later" I said, waving her off.

"Alright, see you later Len"

"Bye" I smiled. Everyone was gone now, so I started to sing to myself whilst I looked for my towel, where was it? I swear I hung it up here-

"Looking for this" I quickly tuned my head to see Megan standing there with my yellow towel in her hands, smirking.

"Oh my god! You scared me! I thought I was alone!" I laughed feeling embarrassed she had probably heard me sing.

"Sorry about that" she said, still smirking. I had been to a few tutoring lessons with Megan. Most of the time, she seemed eager to talk as appose to actually do work, and she was always smirking. Although Megan seemed like a really nice person, and she saved me from Jasper, there was something about her that made me feel a little uneasy.

"It's fine" I said, smiling.

"It fell on the floor and I saw the yellow towel and thought it must be yours, so I picked it up" she said, smiling.

"That's really sweet thankyou" I said smiling. And I felt the atmosphere go awkward. I was waiting for her to leave, so I could get changed but instead she just stood there kind of staring at me . I shifted my weight from foot to foot.

"Aren't you going to get a shower?" She said, her eyes looking me up and down. I felt my myself get nervous and I didn't know what to say. I was confused, but maybe this was her way of telling me that I smell? If that's the case I felt even more self consciousness.

"Erm, no I don't think I have the time" I said looking at my pretend watch. The truth was, I had plenty of time but I felt way too self conscious to do that whilst it was just me and Megan was here.

"Well that's what you get when you offer to help everybody" she said in a tutting tone. Her eyes were glossy and bright, and I felt more intimated then I have ever done in my life.

"Well, I'll try not too next time" I said looking through my bag trying to get my clothes.

"You know you're a really good teacher Lennon, but I feel like next time we should maybe study at my place you know? We'll get more done"

"Yeh course, why not" I said, smiling. To be honest it wasn't the worst idea and if she felt more comfortable there then it would be fine.

"Aren't you going to get dressed?" She smiled at me.

"Oh right yeh of course" Of course this was normal for her, I probably looked like a right weirdo being so against getting undressed.

I began taking my shorts and knee high socks off before turning around so I could take off my shirt. I felt Megan's eyes on my body the entire time. Maybe because she was on the cheerleading team she was used to analysing other girls bodies but I felt the hairs of the back of neck stand up as I felt her eyes on my skinny legs and pale skin. I felt nervous, and not in a good way.

"Lennon" she said in a quite voice, making me turn around.

She was right behind me. She was bitting her lip as she looked my body up and down and something within me told me it wasn't because she was trying to see if I had the body of a cheerleader. Her hands reached out to grab the Curcifix which was around my neck, before whispering-

'Beautiful" whilst licking her cherry lips. I felt my eyes go wide and felt myself panic as I realised she maybe wasn't referring to the necklace. She let her hands rest on my chest where my necklace stopped before running her hands down my pale arms, her blue eyes still on my barley covered breasts. I was beyond confused.

"Oh and Lennon there is a party coming up soon, you should come" I was still in shock with my mouth hanging open. It didn't sound like a question or a request it sounded more like a demand.

"See you around" she said before walking out without giving me a to respond, leaving me there frozen.

"Lennon!" I felt Harry's big hand on my shoulder shaking me softly and looking at me with what appears to be a worried gaze.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeh I fine. I just didn't catch what you said, what's going on" I said smiling.

"Danny was just saying that he is meeting with this guy tomorrow and I'm going to talk to Nancy" I noticed that the entire time he was talking Shelby was watching us intently, her eyes darting back and forth between us with a frown in her eyebrows although I had literally no idea why.

"I could really do with someone to help me though guys" Danny said, my eyes immediately softened, and I was just about to offer before someone beat me to it.

"I'll help" Shelby said, her eyes still on me. Actually, she looked as if she could murder me, and I was once again left confused.

However, my confusion soon became sadness when I looked at Danny's face and saw that he looked the happiest he had all day, his cheeks were blushing, and he now wore a massive smile on his face.

"Really? Yeh? That's great" he said stuttering. I adverted my gaze to the floor and my heart only started to beat even faster when I noticed that Harry was looking at me.

"Whipped" Kyle coughed under his breath. Danny said an angry glare at Kyle whilst Shelby just smirked at me.

"Righttttttt, well I'm off" Issy said, putting on her coat.

"Me too" Harry said.

"I think it's all time we hit the hay, Issy I'll leave my window open, what time are you coming in?" Kyle joked.

"You wish, manwhore" she said, rolling her eyes. Before both of them walked off bickering, and I smiled. Those two were like an old married couple sometimes.

"Danny, you fancy giving me a lift?" And my eyes immediately snapped to Danny's, he was my ride home, and Harry's.

"Oh I'm meant to be giving Len a lift home though Shelby" he said scratching his neck, looking guilty almost as if it pained him to say no to her, maybe it did.

"Lennon, you don't mind do you?" She said sweetly. I felt my heart ache.

"No course not" I laughed although inside I was secretly crying, walking home in the dark wasn't exactly what I wanted to be doing right now, and I had wanted to spend time with Danny.

"Right okay, see ya Haz, and I'll see you later than okay Len" he said leaning in for a hug, so I could smell his musky scent and giving Harry a tap on the shoulder before he walked off to his car with Shelby, looking like a giddy school boy while she stared at Harry.

When they were gone me and Harry, and he was staring at me shifting my weight from one front for another, he did that sometimes. Just stared at me. I don't know why. I think it's because he was the type of person who liked to study people. I felt my cheeks heat up when he starred at me and the hairs on my back on my neck raise, and it made me nervous. But it was a good kind of nervous. Not a bad one.

"Why are you nervous?" He asked.

"What do you mean?" I said, blinking quickly.

"You're shifting your weight from one foot to another, you only do that when your nervous" he states as if it were obvious.

I felt my heart warm at the fact that he had taken the time to remember such details about me, but then remembered he probably does that with everybody. The truth was, I didn't want to walk alone. Not in the pitch dark, but Harry lived in the completely different direction, even though my daddy will kill me because of how late I already am,  I just wanted to stall this as long as I could before I had to face the walk home alone.

"Just with everything going on" I explained and meant it, what if there was somebody watching us right now.

"Yeh and what else?" He asked looking directly into my eyes and I just stared at them for a while, unable to say anything. Usually Harry's eyes were extremely dilated and red but right now all I saw was green, green, green. It was hard not to get lost in them.

"It's just, it's just- I'm scared to be alone right now" I admitted, unable to lie to him.

"I know, I know" he said and he reached his hand up for a second before pulling it back down to his side. We just ended up starting at eachother for a while not saying anything, the breeze feeling fresh on our faces. Before he broke the silence-

"Let me walk you home"

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There was something about Harry. Something about his sweet scent and raspy voice that made me feel at ease. Once, when I was 7 daddy was watching a movie called pulp fiction. He told me I couldn't watch it because it was too violent. But I stayed on the staircase and watched it from there anyway. I didn't understand most of the plot. But I remember there being a funny dance scene with the guy from grease and a pretty girl with short black hair and I couldn't stop laughing. I also remembered something that pretty girl said; she said 'when you can just shut the fuck up and stay in silence that's when you know you've found someone special' I gasped when she said the swear word. All my life, even with Danny I felt the need to fill in the blanks where there were awkward little pauses, but with Harry I just spoke when I wanted. Maybe that's a sign Harry was such a good friend.

"Would you rather have 3 hands or 3 feet?" I asked after a few moments of silence.

"Hmm, 3 hands. Means I can feel more" he joked, smiling. And although I felt myself blush, I myself laughed.

"You know, you never answered your last question of that" he said.

"What do you mean?" I asked, confused.

"You asked everyone 'would you rather those the ability to speak or to read' everyone answered but you" I once again felt a warmth spread through me that he had remembered that.

"So, which one?" He asked, looking at me, staring once again.

"To speak. But not just because I love to read but because I feel like there's too much speaking you know? I feel like people don't really listen they just wait to speak" I answered honestly.

"You're completely right" he said. "I feel like everyone's a little like that"

"You're not like that"

"How do you know?" He asked, smiling.

"Because I can tell, you listen. You look at people with such sternness and you contemplate every word you say, it's refreshing" I said, feeling myself blush after although I'm not sure why.

"Why do you like Danny?" He asked, instead of acknowledging what I had previously said.

"What do you mean?"

"Why do you like him so much, I mean what is it about him that makes him special" he asked, looking around the street.

"I don't know. He was just always here you know? It's always been me and Danny. Whenever there's something wrong he's been there, it's just always seemed right. Even when we were kids we'd say how we'd grow up and marry eachother, and my parents love him. I've just always pictured us being together" I said with a mixture of wonder and sadness.

"Your parents love him?" He asked.

"Of course" I said in a duh tone, loved was an understatement, they adored Danny.

"Figures" he mumbled.

"They would love you too Harry" I said, noticing his fear.

"You know what Danny likes Shelby, you know that right?" He asked, almost like he was wincing and dreading my response.

"That doesn't bother you?" He asked

"Of course, but you don't stop liking someone just because they like someone else"

Instead of replying, he took out a cigarette pack from his coat pocket and took one out. My eyes were fixated on his hands. I know this may sound ridiculous, but I have never seen such beautiful hands in my entire life. They were vieny and his long fingers had sliver rings on them, which I was growing to love. But what caught me most was the tattoo on his hand. I wanted to ask what it meant but didn't want to be one of 'those people' who assumed that every tattoo had a meaning.

I watched in wonder as he took the cigarette into his pouty pink lips and lit it up.

"Do you like smoking?" I asked.

"Sometimes" he replied inhaling some.

"Harry?"

"Yeh?" He said flickering his eyes all across my face.

"Can I try?" I said shyly, almost like a child asking an older brothers friend to try do something.

"Try what? to smoke? I don't know" he said looking at me seriously.

"Why not?"

"I don't want to corrupt you" he said, smirking. But his green eyes were serious.

"You're not, you're not making me, I want to try" I said, and I meant it. Harry looked like he was torn but I gave him my best puppy eyes the ones that Danny said could 'make him do anything.

"Okay" He said handing me over the cigarette, his cold fingers grazing mine in the process, causing me to shiver.

"How do I do it?" I whispered, looking up at him, feeling a little stupid that I didn't know what to do. I realised just how close he was too me and my heart beat started to pound as my palms got sweaty, I must be really nervous incase I mess this up.

"You don't know how?" He also whispered.

"My daddy always told me not to smoke" I said and I saw Harry gulp as his eyes became more glass like. I was telling the truth, daddy would kill me if he knew what I was doing right now.

"It's simple. Put it around those lips. And Just suck." He said, his voice raspy and low and it caused my breath to hitch.

"Then you breath deep, then blow it out." He said and I bit my bottom lip before doing what he had told me and I took a deep inhale. The moment it hit me I started to cough slightly.

"Did I do it right?" I asked, smiling.

"Yeh, you're perfect, did you like it?" He asked, putting the same cigarette that was just in my mouth back in his and I felt an odd sensation rise in me.

"Yeh, it was ok, I don't think I'd make it a habit though" I answered honestly.

"I wouldn't want you too" He said.

We kept walking a little longer until we reached my house, and I was both relieved to be safe and home and upset because my time with Harry had come to an end.

"Thankyou, so, so much Harry. You have no idea how much this means. Please text me as soon as you get home too so I know what you are safe" I said, and I winced at how much I must sound like a mom.

"Of course Mum" He said, conforming my suspicions.

I noticed that he still had his cigarette in his hands and I had the sudden urge to do something, well to make him do something.

"Harry" I blurted before I lost my confidence.

"Can we try something else too?" I asked.

"Whatever you want" He said almost immediately.

"Can you, maybe, blow smoke into my mouth?" I whispered nervously.

"What?" He said, scratching the back of his neck, and he now looked a little nervous, with a slight redness in his cheeks.

"It's just, I've heard all the girls speak about it and I've always wanted to know how it feels, of course you don't have to do it if you don't want" I said, rambling, bitting my lip.

Harry's eyes flickered down to my mouth and then back to my eyes and I felt myself go dizzy because of the intensity of his eyes.

"Lennon, I don't, I don't know, I mean" he was rambling now.

"Please" I looked at him.

"Are you sure?" He asked and I just nodded.

"If you want me to stop, just say"

"I will"

He came closer toward me, his heavenly scent invaded my nostrils and I had to stop myself from closing glue eyes. I felt my heart started to beat abnormally loud as I watched him inhale the smoke and tilt his head as bent down to meet me. I went on my top toes to make it easier for him.

He slowly exhaled into my mouth, I felt my stomach lurch slightly with anticipation as lightly touched my lips to breathe in the smoke. I inhaled and exhaled through my nose as I felt the smoke hit me. He just stood there for a moment, staring at eachother.

"Thanks Haz" I said before I could stop myself.

"Go get some sleep sunshine" He said, still looking in my eyes.

Despite the awful things we had learned today and despite my heart still feeling heavy at the fact that Danny had spend time with Shelby I couldn't help but smile as I recalled my events with Harry and when I realised Harry hadn't corrected me when I called him Haz.

AN// I know I'm a tease :)
Who do you guys like better, Lennon and Harry or Lennon and Danny?