Anna POV

Why does it feel so empty?

Today is the 7th day since we moved and things aren't like before.

Nor it is better.

I remembered the old days. It was beautiful. At first I thought it's just because I have been living in a place for a long time, that's why I feel like that.

But I realized that it's not because I left a place full of memories, it's because this place is not suitable for me. This is not how I wanted to be. It's feels like hell. And it is a hell. I can't even breath here.

What made me scared is I became more sad since I stopped talking with Yoongi. I mean, it's been a while. I talked with him in the 3rd day, but after that our timing changed.

When I am free, he seems to be busy. When he is free, I seem to be busy. Sometimes, he doesn't answer my calls.

Why?

Sigh, I have no idea.
I'm scared, what is happening to me. I'm not supposed to feel like this. I'm supposed to think like this about the place.

I remembered 3 weeks ago. When I and Yoongi were new friends, I told him that I was moving here. I told him to move here too saying that this place is good, you will get a big opportunity for future profession here, there is lots of good Universities and talentef girls to get married too. Well, he acted strange. I didn't understood the reaction. But now I came here, I feel like he understood before that this place is not for him, for me.

But that brat didn't told me bruh. I sometimes really hate his being speechless behaviour.

Nevermind.

"So, dear Anna.", my father started, "Ready for your first driving lesson?"

I smiled and nodded.

My father and I went out and got into the car. The house and the place where I will be tought isn't that far. Bit the traffic jam made it a 2 hours far place. Oh god.

Is it just me or other people also get annoyed by this?

Well, the lesson time wasn't bad though. It was good. I sometimes got confused a bit but I cleared them out soon.

I feel like I should write diary from now on. We reached the house and I talked a bit with my mom but nothing gave me pleasure. I entered my room.

From tomorrow, I will join my new university and I have no idea about how it might go. So I didn't have any thoughts about it too.

I looked out of the window for the nth time and a question popped out of my head.

What is Yoongi doing now?

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Author POV

Yoongi put his bag on his table and huffed. Today was a hactic day.

He applied for a part-time job a few days ago and fortunately he made it. It was in a coffee shop. He applied as Coffee Maker there.

Today was his schedule and there were lots of customers, more than other days.

He sat on his bed as he drank for the nth time. He felt tired. Extremely tired. He felt like he would sleep as soon as he blinks.

He let it. He closed his eyes.

Why is his life like this?

Yoongi knows he shouldn't think like this. It would make him depressed and later he won't be able to fight. But he can't help it. He wanted a supportive family. Supportive friends. A healthy life.

And what he got?

A family that tortures him. Friends that betrays him. A life where he can't get what he likes. A body which can't fit.

A traumatic scene went through Yoongi's mind like a glitch. So many screams and blood...

His grandparents.

Loud Sounds of ambulances.

Then door locked him in a dark room.

All the scenes and noises were disturbing him until he heard a ringtone making him flinch.

He took out his phone and at the id.

Anna

She thinks that Yoongi is mental but why she still is friend with him? Why she doesn't leave him?

Even though Yoongi was tired and needed sleep, he felt bad to decline this call too.

He put a fake gummy smile and answered the call.

"Hey Anna!" Yoongi exclaimed.

"Hi! I thought you won't answer this time too." Anna said from the other side.

"I'm not that bad." Yoongi said making Anna chuckle.

"What were you doing?" Anna asked.

"Nothing, just went for a walk and now came back." Yoongi lied.

"Hmmm...." Anna gave a worried look and said, "That's why you look so exhausted."

Yoongi slightly smiled for real this time and said, "Do I?"

"Yeahh..."

"And you are worried, huh??" Yoongi said with a flirty voice.

"What the heck. You weren't like this." Anna pouted. Yoongi laughed and said, "Leave me. Tell how is your life going."

Anna's smile faded automatically. She took a moment and said, "Umm.. Just like that."

"Hm? Only just like that? Do you like it or not?"

"No, I do but..." Anna beat her lips and said, "It's just not the same."

Yoongi muttered a 'o' and was to say something but a female voice interrupted.

"Min Yoongi!"

Yoongi knows what this calling is for.

He hurried and said, "I better go now. I will talk later. I promise. Bye." He ended the call Anna could say anything or can bade him.

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"So, you started doing part-time job, huh?" Yoongi Father said with a smugly.

Yoongi was sitting in the couch with his father. And his mother was standing beside Yoongi. It is insult time.

"Sigh... You should have thought twice about it." Yoongi's Father as if he is disappointed. "Part-time job, going to university, being slave at house, being mental and at last... Talking to your girlfriend."

Yoongi couldn't help glaring at his father in disgust as he claimed Anna as his girlfriend.

Yoongi's father smirked and said, "Such a disrespect brat. Glaring at his own father. Wow. But you know what?" He leaned in. "I'm afraid if you can effort all this."

Then Yoongi's mother gave a mocking massage on Yoongi's hair. "A few days later, you won't be able to go university because you can't give fee. And you think a part time job can fix it???" She stood in front of him and said, "That's dumb."

Yoongi wanted to say, "I at least try unlike you guys" but decided to shut up knowing it won't help. Rather it will bring more punishments.

"More than that, how will you fulfil your Anna's wish when she will start demanding?"

Yoongi closed his eyes enduring all of it.

"Well, you are so cheap that even clouds love to leave you."

Yoongi's eyes went widened. How can a mother call his son cheap?

"Anyways, how much you earnt today?" His mother raised her eyebrows.

"256 Dollars" Yoongi said shortly.

"Very good." His father said. "You know what you have to do next." He clenched his jaw and said, "Transfer 85 dollars to me and your mother."

Yoongi only sat silently.

"And if not...." His father gave that dirty smirk again and said, "Get your belt and get ready for punishment."

Then both of his parents went on their way.

Today was better than other days.

Suddenly a thought came to Yoongi's mind. His parents mainly want money. And they knows he would never choose belt beating, cause he has a past about it.

But at this moment, money is important for Yoongi. It won't hurt if he endures some beating. He will have his money and his parents won't be able to take his money away. They might beat him but that won't be any better for them.

"Dad" Yoongi called and it felt like he said that word after 100 years. Both of his parents turned to him. "What if I choose beatings instead of giving money?"

Both of them were shocked to the core after hearing that. They looked at each other and his father tried to play along.
"Totally your choice. But it's better if you choose giving money."

Yoongi sighed. "You know I have already chosen not to give money."

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Yoongi cried silently in pain as he moved to his bed. His every single part is paining. His sweatshirt got red because of the stinky blood. He can't move at all. Only he knows how hard it was for him to come in his room.

This is Yoongi's life. Which is comparable with hell.

He took out his phone to see Anna's 10 missed calls. 5 messages.

Where do you go after saying will talk to later huh?

You didn't even gave me time to say goodbye.

You mean aren't even answering me.

Bruh, don't call me later, I'm mad.

Yoongi chuckled because of the way Anna was behaving like literal child.

Then he saw the next message.

Lol, I sound so cringe in thise messages. Just.... Stay safe and happy okay?? I don't want my friend to have a boring life 💜

A smile crept in his face as he read the message and replied.

Well, you do sound cringe. Also I'm fine. Still remember the first day we met and you said, I'm not your friend.

Yoongi sighed as he lied again. How many times will he have to lie to the world?

No wonder.

He felt sleepy. He wanted to sleep. But he can't sleep with this mess. Nor he can move to clean this mess.

Yoongi felt hopeless. Tear appeared in his eyes. He tried to hold it back. He went out and looked at the sky. Clouds are half hiding the moon.

You are mean enough to leave me. But why do you come back again? Specially when I need you? Is that how you show your existance? Your love? Your friendship?

If anyone knew Yoongi's thought, they would definitely think that he has gone mad. But things are way more hard and far. Might seem to be crazy but those who understands, ut becomes a comfort. The biggest comfort ever.

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