No eggshell walking, errday
I do what I want
with my feelings, errday

The anguish in your heart is unbearable, and you're at a loss for what to do. You spend nearly ten minutes quietly weeping into your lap, knowing you can't risk being caught near their private studios by their bodyguards.

There's no activity in the 3rd-floor corridor. You search for the restroom sign and swiftly slip inside, letting out the pent-up emotions and relieving bladder pressure. To your surprise, there are no renovations in the restrooms.

Did Dove intentionally set you up for serious trouble? Why? The boys were taken aback by the sudden visitor. Given what you'd heard about Hobi and Taehyung's encounters with overly enthusiastic fans, they must have thought it was another obsessive admirer after Hobi. He must have been so rattled.

In the restroom mirror, you hastily rinse your face and wipe it clean with a towel. Your eyes are still red-rimmed, and it's already 6:30 pm. You've been away for over 25 minutes. Keitaro will be concerned.

You hurry back to the studio, but you don't spot the interns, especially that Dove girl. The boys have already finished an energetic dance break with two instructors.

You race to your seat and quickly sit down. Keitaro glances at your serious expression.

"You were gone a long time. Where were you?" he inquires.

"Just at the loo, had a stomach ache. Maybe it was the airline food," you respond without looking at him, focusing on Kenichi, who seems carefree.

"Don't fret, the dancers had a 10-minute break. Sungdeuk is about to announce the trainees who pass today's workshop. Tomorrow, the top 20 successful trainees worldwide will know if they've made it into the BTS official dance crew or if they'll start a year-long trainee program," he updates you. You nod quietly.

"I'm shattered. Just want to be home now. Feel like I'm coming down with the flu," you inform him with a half-truth to justify your mood.

"Blimey, Kira... You do seem a bit under the weather. I'll whip up some chicken soup at home." He embraces you tightly. You adore your brothers so much. Your eyes start to well up. At least they love you for you. But your heart yearns for your soulmate. Famous or not, you need him.

"Hey, hey... we'll leave soon, alright. Don't look so down. I think Ken will make it. The instructors were mightily impressed with him," he says proudly.

"Really," you laugh. You have to put on a cheerful act, even if your heart feels shattered.

Jungkook and J-Hope haven't arrived at the table yet. Maybe the interns served them food privately. Sungdeuk and Pdogg were engrossed in their laptops, deciding tonight's winners.

One of the three instructors was engaged in conversation with the lads.

Suddenly, a painful tug at your heart signals J-Hope's presence in the room. His aura fills the atmosphere as he and Jungkook enter together. Jungkook still holds a little box of chicken pops. He's munching away, that boy loves to eat.

Unexpectedly, for a fleeting moment, your eyes meet with J-Hope's. Your breath catches in your throat. Oh, how will you manage the next few minutes in his presence? You're acutely aware of him, and every fiber of your being is drawn towards him. There's no way you'll look at him again. You divert your gaze as swiftly as a viper's bite.

His face remains impassive, and you keep your eyes down on your folded hands or on Kenichi. With each passing second, both you and J-Hope grow more uneasy. Jungkook nudges Hobi, offering him some chicken pops, which he takes and chews slowly, but his nerves are on high alert due to the presence of his soulmate.

He couldn't help it, but his eyes were constantly drifting to the audience. The girls were smiling and shrieking when he unexpectedly made eye contact with them. Maria and her friend sit on the floor in the front seat rows to admire Bangtan from near. They were squealing when he looked at them. Maria was dramatically fanning herself. Ola, Hobi is Picante hot and spicy.

Dove pov

Dove and Sol. I got in after delivering food to the instructors and tidied up the lounge where they were located.

She was warily watching Akira, where she remained with the boy who wrapped her in his arms. The fellow looks younger but steadier built. She expects it's her beau. She can't help but feel that this Akira girl will be a tremendous coming threat to her. She doesn't know why she feels like that. She doesn't even know her cause the girl is not even that pretty except when she opens her mouth, and the guys appeared to swoon at that posh accent.

She now pays scrutiny to the brit girls' pure beauty.

She heard how some of the boys gushed over Akira, how hot or beautiful she was. One girl even observed when they came in from a break that they noticed Jhope making eye contact with Akira. Even if he was unemotional, he looks to be responsive to Akira cause he was continually glancing in her direction, although her face was downcast most of the time.

"What the hell! Not on my watch. "She murmurs. "He's mine. "No one will deter Seoki's attention from her. She realizes he still battles with his feelings for her.

She watches Akira discreetly with an eagle eye to determine if she was ogling at Hobi, but to her bewilderment, she didn't even sound like all the rest of the swooning audience in Bangtans direction.

When Dove entered the studio, she noticed that Akira never looked in Hobi's direction once. It was solely on the instructors' and dancers' movements the whole time. It confuses Dove.

Akira is never in a fangirl mood, but she looked as if she wants to be anywhere but here.

She was pulling her yellow top over her chest to make her body warmer and cover herself up cause of the unnecessary attention she gets from boys. Keitaro already gave them the stink eye.

Sol. I look at Dove with furrowed eyebrows," Why did you tell Akira to run to the 4th floor knowing that it's off-limits even for us... There was nothing wrong with the restrooms on this floor,"

Dove just shrugged," I was annoyed that she entertained what Maria spoke about Jhope and how she told me off...it was just a little payback time...no worries."

Sol. I smirk, "you so evil. What if Sejin found her? She would've been thrown out the building in the dark." Sol. I quickly felt so unsettled about Akira.

"Not my problem," she snorted at her. "I was just a little peeved. No big deal. See, she is fine. Nobody noticed her there. She was lucky, though. "Dove's eyes were flashing. She wanted Bangtan to call the bodyguards and throw Akira out. She wanted her to be shamed by Bighit. But no, her intention didn't work.

Sol. I just shook her head. Dove is not a girl to play with. She is vengeful.

Jhope pov

After Jhope and Jungkook have been giving food in their artist lounge, luckily, Sejin let Jugwoon and the male intern helped them. Suga and Namjoon joined them. They demanded to learn about the girl on the 4th floor. Jhope was just shrugging about his soulmate.

Jhope could kick himself. Even if he doesn't choose to trigger the bond with this girl, his soulmate, he was rude to her. He suffered the agony she endured when he practically chase her away.

He was never so stern with girls, except with Dove. But his soulmate hadn't done anything to him, and he regarded her like rubbish. She was so mortified and dismayed. More frighten of him. His soulmate was scared of him.

In his dismay from accidentally meeting her, his mind couldn't function straight. He doesn't want to defend his attitude. It wasn't her fault FATE brought them on the right path. It brought her to the 4th floor, where he was alone in the same hallway. Strange, no one in sight. He could meet her eyes. She is exquisite.

He couldn't even deal with it when Namjoon even raved about her beautiful posh British accent and her charming look. Yoongi even voices that she looks like a kdrama star. Her whole demeanor spoke-star quality.

He despises that the half-bonding is performing against him. It made him feel unnecessarily jealous. He detests it, and he hates her for letting him suffer this way.

Jhope was quiet and stated to his members that he knows he was unnecessarily hard with the girl, but his encounters with saseangs made him extra vigilant. He'll never confess his bond with the girl. Let them assume she was some kind of stalker.

He knows he's a hypocrite. He advised Yoongi a year ago not to take the road he chose to take right now. After he half-bonded with the girl whose name he doesn't even know, he perceived he's going to have a rough time dealing with his rising feelings for his rejected soulmate and the advances of his ex. He doesn't have time for girls now. Fate is so cruel. It brought him a soulmate for a birthday gift.

If she's going to show again, he desires to make it transparent that he doesn't require her in his life. She mustn't get any intentions of a future with him. He will be no good for her.

He shifted the subject and told Yoongi and Namjoon that they needed to get back to the studio. Sungdeuk is about to choose the final 20. Judges already eliminated some during the past two weeks. It's only today's group from Europe and Canada. He needs to hear if his choices made it to the top.

He and Jungkook took their drinks, and Jungkook took chicken pops and went back to the studio.

When he arrived in the studio, a powerful tug in his heart urged him to search around at the back of the audience seating. He was unconsciously searching for her. She was sitting with a boy who had his arm protectively around her shoulders. She looked sad and dejected, all because of him.

He furrowed his brows when the pull made them lock eyes briefly. The pain in her eyes is still visible. Noticing his calculated eyes on her, she quickly looks away first with her gaze on the dancers. She doesn't want to make him madder than he already is.

Jhope, just sigh deeply. What a mess? While Sungdeuk was explaining to the dancers about the final elimination process.

Jhope will discreetly glance at her, but his eyes will wander over the excited audience, people noticing his eyes on his soulmate, both of them felt the bond that made their hearts yearning for each other, but Jhope was determined to suppress any growing feelings for his soulmate.

He didn't notice how Dove was sitting with deeply furrowed eyebrows glancing or observing his soulmate, whose attention is fixed on the dancers, and he felt her beating heart. She is genuinely struggling not to glance at him. Jhope was pressing his hands tightly together on the table, but he still felt the nervous butterflies.

Jhope feels deep in his gut that today is the start of the uphill battle against the wrath of FATE for not activating the soul mark.

He already felt the effects. The longer they are in each other's presence, the more desirable they become for each other. He couldn't sit still. Jungkook chicken pops, at least, was a distraction.

Sungdeuk stood with a clipboard with all the names of the 20. Successful trainees. These 20 will undergo rigorous dance training for the last two weeks of February, and Instructors will choose 10 to be in the BTS dance crew, and the other ten will train until the new kpop band debut next year.

The audience was anxiously waiting for the results. The other successful dancers from the previous weeks' elimination are also waiting in anticipation.

Sungdeuk smile, "Thank you for auditioning for Bighit..."He Thank them for coming and trying out, and they must not lose heart if they don't make it. They can try out the following year again. He called first today's successful trainees. They were ten blokes. Europe, S.America, and Canada.

X2 from Europe-Kenichi and Afonso from Portugal.

Maria and her friend were jumping up and down. You and Keitaro were high-fiving each other and gave Kenichi an elated thumbs up. He was beaming with excitement. He made it to the top 20.

X1 from Pablo -Brazil. His parents were shrieking with joy. He salutes his parents and two teen sisters.

X1 from Canada. Daryl. His Dad was hollering loudly.

The audience was clapping and screaming when the rest of the successful 16 boys from the previous round joined The newly elect four from today.

Jhope and Jungkook also rise and clapped hands with beaming faces until Sungdeuk thanks all the people, parents who came and advised the 20 boys to remain behind. Dove and Sol. I handed each boy a file consist of the trainee schedule for the two weeks. It's going to be the most brutal workshop ever. But the boys were too eager to care.

Tomorrow the boys will have a training session with BTS.

The countries who made it for the top 20 Bighit trainees was
*** (10 from Asia (3 S.Korea/ 2 Japan/ 2 Taiwan/ 1 Singapore / 1 Philippines/1 Thailand ).
*** 2 Europe/ 1 S.America/ 1 Canada)
***1 Australia/ 1 Africa/ 4 USA)

The bodyguards of BTS were around Jhope and Jungkook, fearing the excited crowd. Jhope saw how Kenichi was hugged by his soulmate and another boy that is the replica of Kenichi. So the twin brothers.

He furrowed his brows slightly when he noticed how Kenichi picked up his soulmate and exclaimed aloud.

-"Blimey sister, I've made it seem...I told you so."
He excitedly grins.

So, they are siblings. He doesn't understand why he felt so reassured.

"Congratulations, my brother, you earn it." She showed him a slight smile wishing just to escape. She smiled while Keitaro had Kenichi in a headlock as a congratulatory gift. Akira smiled, but Jhope could feel the deep melancholy in her demeanor she decided to shield. He felt the same way...but he dismissed the feeling. No!!! He is sorry, but he cannot let her into his life. His heart will not be able to deal with another betrayal.

When the Bodyguards let them out the door, the audience crowd was waving and cheering at them. They scream how much they love them. Akira and her brothers first took pictures in the studio.

Akira pov

Keitaro gave his brother his leather jacket, and they walked out of the studio. Maria waved at them excitedly. Her brother made it to the top, and he is her friends' soulmate. When you were outside waiting for Kenichi to call up an Uber. It's already 8:30 pm.

She quickly ran up to you—her green eyes sparkle in glee.

Maria...

Maria giggles, speaking in English, " Ola, Akira come to take a ride with us. We can take you home. Let the new Bighit trainees connect. My brother like to meet you. Afonso, my 22-year-old bro, I'm Maria. I'm 20 years 2nd year  Korea Uni student, and this is my best friend. Luciana 22 years she's also Afonso soulmate."She introduces her family.

Kenichi and his brother hi-five Afonso. Afonso was driving them. He is a dance major at some academy. The car ride was filled with laughter and renewed friendships. Keitaro is stoked that he, Maria, and Luciana will attend the same uni.

You were just sitting quietly, reminiscing about this weird day. You met your Soulmate. A world-famous one at that. One who hates you at first sight. You painfully wondered if your parents hated you at first sight when you were a baby, throwing You away without a trace back to them.

The smile on your face dimmed because you never want to cause anybody pain, and  You rather have your soulmate all happy and smiling. He is the optimistic one, ARMY's hope after all.

He was supposed to be your hope also, the object of your fangirl heart, but no, you will be the one who will dim the happiness out of his eyes. You never want to experience being the one who caused him misery. You'll try by all your might to stay away from him, to give him space, but you've learned about FATE. It never favors.

How in the world will you be able to forget about him? You already liked him as your bias, but now your liking intensifies. It's on a higher level. You already feel the apprehension caused by the end of the week. You'll be hopelessly in love with Jung Hoseok.

You wanted to cry, thinking that you will begin to love him so much and he might never love you back, but will be forced by the half bonding to love you. It will make him hate you so much more. You're not his preferred choice. It will be so much better if you never see him again.

Staying away from him will be better for both of you when your heart starts to miss him. You'll just watch your favorite mv. About him, but how will he cope.

Even if he denies the bond, he will need your presence. How will you be there for him without him being mad at you for just the mere sight of you?

He is everywhere here in South Korea. They are one of the most popular kpop idols in Korea, and they are taking the world by storm now. They are on every news media—online, television, print. Your heart already constricts just knowing the fact you'll never activate or complete the bond. How will you know your strings?

Maybe you could've been yellow or blue, and he would've been free from you. You could've even stayed friends. You'll never disclose your relationship or cause him harm. You are deciding to keep this half- bonding a secret. No one must know...no one. Not the twins nor your friends and not your parents.

You can't wait to go to Busan, away from him. You'll work hard at your new clinic for a few months and maybe apply to clinics in Tokyo near the orphanage, where you'll start with your investigation.

The new group decided to go to one of the most exciting Korean BBQ Restaurants. Afonso and Luciana invited you to go and celebrate the successful audition and forging new friendships...

Luciana and Afonso

 The streets of Seoul are buzzing. The city that never sleeps.

You've never experienced an authentic Korean meal before, and your taste buds were waiting in anticipation. You and the twins were so excited to eat the different meals. BBC your own marinated meat on the mini burner.

The Portuguese friends show you how to eat it. It was an experience of a lifetime. Unfortunately, the twins were still too young to drink a beer and had to opt for sodas.

To damp the ache in your heart, you decided to try their beer and a glass of soju. At least your heart will be merry until you went to sleep tonight.

You had a wonderful time with your new friends. You exchanged numbers, and by 10:30 pm, you were dropped off at your Airbnb apartment.

Kenichi immediately took off to the shower while Keitaro was busy with the television. He apologized because He promised you chicken soup, forgetting you are not home and still needed to get some groceries. He also called your parents with the good news that.

Kenichi made it to the top 20. Your parents scream aloud. It's midday in London. Byron and Sarah were beside themselves with the news. Sarah said she would look out for all the dance breaks to see if she can see him in the dance line.

You are so happy to hear your parents and best friend's voices. You couldn't help to tear up as You think about how happy your friends are with their soulmates, and it's only you that will never have or experience that love with your famous soulmate. Sarah will faint if she has to know about Jhope. Byron will kill him for hurting you.

Fortunately, you had an ensuite bedroom, so you decided to take a long relaxing bath...and try to put the painful memories at the back of your mind...but deep inside your heart You know, when You sleep, the pain will re-emerge.

A/N. Another update for all my Daydreamers. Poor Hobi will genuinely have an uphill battle with two girls in his life.

*The one (Dove) he loved all his life ( his bias) and the one (you) who wants to uproot that love by force ( his bias wrecker).

Who will wreck poor Hobi's world more?

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