You were my sunshine on all my rainy days
The one to hold my hand and tell me "everything's okay"
So now I don't know what to do since you went away
But I know that you're gone and that there's nothing I can say

Justin's P.O.V

"Jay, what's wrongs?" Charlotte asked concerned, when she found me crying again. That's all I had been doing.

Crying.

I had been letting out all of my emotions out through my tears. It doesn't matter how much I smile for Charlotte's sake, I cannot stop them from rolling down from my eyes. They always find their way out. I never really imagined, tears would be pouring out of my eyes every second of the day.

"Oh my baby." She said softly before hugging me tightly. I wrap my arms around her waist and nuzzled my face in her stomach. "What happened? Why are you crying?" She asked running her hands through my hair.

I breath heavily, not wanting to let her go. I didn't had enough time. In fact, I had no time at all. I didn't had any other choice but to do as Mason says. I had to agree to his cruel demands.

"I love you." I cried kissing her shirt covered tummy. "I love you too, Jay." She smiled kissing my hair. "What's wrong? Do you want to talk about it?" She asked and I shook my head.

"Will you please h-hold me?" I shuttered. She nodded. "Get up. Let's go in our room. We can cuddle there." She said and I shook my head again. "No; here." I said and she sighed and nodded. I closed my eyes, as she ran her hands through my hair while rocking us back and forth.

"Will you promise me something?" I said, suddenly. "Yeah. What is it?" She said. But I could sense confusion in her voice.

"Whatever I do, please remember that I love you and I did it because I want protect you." I said after taking a deep breath.

"Justin why are you talking like that?" She asked cupping my face in her hands so I was looking up at her. "Just promise me." I said standing up from the chair. "Justin, whatever is bothering you, you have to share. You cannot be-"

"-Please." I cut her off. She sighed before nodding. "I-I promise you." She said making me smile a little. I press my lips against her, kissing her soft plump lips. I needed to taste them. One last time.

"I love you." I said pulling away.

"I love you too." She said wrapping her arms around me.

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I took a large sip of my whiskey. I was drunk but was sober enough to know what was happening around me. I won't be able to do it if I was sober. I cannot see her hurtful eyes while being sober. Hell, I cannot even do that if I was drunk but drinking made it a little bit easier. I wasn't going to cheat on her. No, I refuse to do that.

I had something else to do.

My phone vibrated which caught my attention. I lazily pick it up, before unlocking it.

My jaw clenched when I saw the text from the asshole aka Mason. I took another sip before reading the message.

Hope you are ready to say your goodbyes. Both of you'll be heartbroken.
So sad, so bad :(

I just wanted to smash his head against the wall until he was in coma. Bloody asshole.

I took a deep breath, getting myself into the character before standing up from my chair and walking in the kitchen where Charlotte was preparing the dinner while humming to herself.

I stare at her as she hummed happily. I can't believe I was going to ruin that.

I stomped in the kitchen before taking a seat. I carelessly slammed the bottle on the counter which grabbed Charlotte's attention and she jumped slightly. She turned off the stove and turned towards me.

"Oh, it's you. Don't do that again. You know I get scared easily." She said, sighing in relief. "Are you drunk?" She asked after few seconds as she look all over my face and I shrugged taking another sip of my whiskey.

"Really Justin? It's almost the time for dinner. You cannot be shit faced drunk." She said angrily.

"Give that to me. You are not drinking anymore." She said walking towards me trying to take the bottle but I ripped her hand away, roughly.

"Justin why are you acting like this?" She asked confused. A frown was taking over her face.

My heart pangs in my chest. I could tell, she was already hurt by my action. Why am I even doing this? I should simply tell her but I know she won't be able to handle it. She won't feel safe even in our own house.

"J-Justin?" She said softly when I rolled my eyes. "Shut the fuck up bitch." I spat and she gasped.

"P-please don't say that. Are you really that drunk?" She said as tears welled up in her eyes.

"I will drink as much as I fucking want. I talk to you like I want. I am the man of the house. I am the man in the relationship. I am the dominant in this relationship and you will do as I say, you little slut." I growled and tears started rolling down her beautiful blue eyes.

"J-Justin." She whimpered quietly.

"Why--why are you acting like this?" She mewled. "Because I want to. I am so tired of you constantly bitching. I gave you everything and I was so lenient on you but you act like a spoiled little bitch all the time. I am so fucking sick of you. You don't even know how to fucking dress up as a girl. You don't know anything. You are just a little immature bitch who constantly whine." I yelled at her and she flinched at my tone.

Please forgive me baby. I don't mean anything. You are no bitch. You are a Queen. My Queen.

"Is-is it about me wearing hoodies? How do you want me to dress up?" She shook her head. "Tell me Justin. Do you want me to wear those short skirts and bra like tops? Then maybe I would look like girl to you, huh? Is that what you want? Weren't you the one who said no matter what I wear or my appearance is, you'll love me. Always. Huh? Where is all of this coming from!?" She cried.

"Well you look ugly. Is that what you want me to say!? There I said it. You look so fucking ugly wearing these." I yelled at her.

No, you don't. You will always look beautiful.

"W-why are acting like this? How can you act like that? Like you don't care, like you feel nothing? Don't you love me anymore? You said you loved me. Then why?" She begged.

"Why did you l-lie to me? Made me feel special and then like I am nothing?" Her voice cracked.

"Can you find me any better way to get into your pants?" I said smirking.

Her eyes widened and a gasp left her mouth.

"H-how dare you!" She gasped. "Did you really did it to get in my pants?" She said. "How many times do you want me to say that?" I rolled my eyes taking another big sip of my whiskey.

"How could you do that? What are you trying to do? Do you want me to hate you? Is that what you're doing? Trying to make me hate you?" She sobbed.

"Well, congratulations Mr. Bieber. You had accomplished your mission because I fucking hate you. I hate you!" She screamed at me and my heart broke into billions of pieces.

"You are an asshole. You made me feel special. Like you really loved me. And I trusted you with everything. Even with my virginity. I trusted you enough to love you. I trusted you more than I trust myself. I can't believe I wanted to live the rest of my life with you. I loved you so damn much but you ruined everything. You are nothing but a horrible, horrible person. You ruined my heart. You ruined my trust. You ruined me!" She sobbed looking embarrassed and pissed. I graze at her as she sob violently in her hands.

"I thought you cared about me. You said you cared." She whispered, looking up at me in disgust and hatred.

"Maybe your love was a fucking lie but mine wasn't. I loved you through everything and YOU DON'T EVEN CARE." She roared and I tightened my grip on the bottle trying to contain my tears from falling down.

"YOU NEVER CARED! You made me love you, trust you with everything only to destroy me." She shook her head and I closed my eyes in pain.

"I hate you. Fuck you, Justin. You are not worth my tears or my love. Rot in hell." She said.

My head was suddenly whipped to a side and my cheek started to sting terribly. I groaned while rubbing my sore cheek as I stare at furiously pissed, Charlotte.

"Fucking stay away from me." She yelled at my face and walked out.

I heard the door slam meaning she was gone.

My knees suddenly gave up on me and I fall down on them as I sobbed my heart out. She hated me. She didn't wanted me near her. The love of my life hated me and she was gone.

I hear the roaring of engine making me crawl towards the window. I saw her driving off and just like that she was gone. Probably to Emma's house.

The suffocating silence consumed the atmosphere around me and I couldn't help but sob. My heart ache. Everything ache.

I hurt my Charlotte. She hated me. She didn't wanted me around her.

"FUCK." I screamed before throwing the bottle of whiskey on the marble floor. "FUCK YOU MASON!" I screamed again.

"I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL. THAT YOU GET YOUR KARMA. I HATE YOU. FUCK YOU MASON!" I screamed and sobbed.

I stare at the broken pieces of the bottle on the floor. It really resembled my heart at the moment. Broken.

It was broken just like my heart.

I slowly got up before walking in the bar and taking out another bottle of whiskey.

I really needed that now. I needed to drown in my own sorrow and pain. I cannot be sober at the moment.

Charlotte didn't came back home. I was alone drowning in my own pain, staring at the broken pieces of glass that I hadn't cleaned yet because I was too busy drinking.

I unlocked my phone before going in photo gallery. I scrolled down before clicking on the photo of mine and Charlotte.

She was looking so beautiful. My arms were wrapped around her while both of us were laughing.

I stare at her beautiful smile. She looked so happy. I looked so happy. We looked so happy and in love.

But now.

We were hurt and broken.

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Who else is in tears?🥺

Definitely I am😭

Anyways,

Hope you liked this chapter ❤️

And don't worry #Jarlotte will be back... soon.

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I had also added the song Yesterday that Billie sang In Oscars (2020) because I was listening to it while writing and it hit my emotions on another level.