im weak im so sorry i broke my promise i wasnt there for you now its too late and i miss you

when i wasnt there you always said that you miss me so much now you arent there and i miss you more

im sorry

you said devils werent made for angels

you told me i was the angel and you were the devil

but youre the angel now and im the devil

i thought you were alright

You never told me anything

you asked me everyday if i was alright

but if i asked you you would change the topic instead

then a day came where you started talking less

i asked whats happening

you said it was fibe

But i know it isnt

everyday i would ask

Then one day your sister comes and messages me

That you were in the hospital

but she said youll soon be back too

didnt you know that i was so worried

i didnt get to talk to you for a month but every single day i would send you messages

"im here"
"i wont leave you"
"Please whats wrong"

"i miss you"

after a month, about the first week of january

you messaged me and said that you didnt message because you dont like faking anymore and you posted depressing things

one day

one night

you posted a note saying

that if youll be gone
youd feel better
and if its possible
youd want to be gone tonight

then i said

"hey whats wrong"
"youre not telling me anything"

When i woke up the next day

i messaged you
but

While i was scrolling through tumblr

i saw your sister's post

saying that

you were gone

i broke down

i never knew that your last words would be so depressing

i never knew that the last thing youd see me say to you was

"please dont leave me"

i didnt get to say

"I care for you"

i didnt get to say

"I love you"

you told me not to leave you

but you you left me first

but i wont forget you

im here

you promised that you would watch over me all the time

and i know you are

now,

youre happy.

im sorry

i miss you