I try not to fly over Cloud Recess, but... it's hard to avoid. I always find myself blowing to Cloud Recess. It's hard to avoid. Lotus Pier is different because I am actively scared to go back. Scared to see how Jiang Cheng and Yanli are. I fly down and perch on the trees.

Does he... still know I'm alive? I don't even know if I'm still alive. I feel like a ghost, but I'm in the between. I think I'm neither living nor dead. It looks so much smaller from me. I feel the petals flowing though my hair. I pull it back. I wonder if even cares. I turn. I see the door open. My eyes narrow. Lan Zhan walks out.

I want to tell him I'm alive. I try to speak but I remember the wind has no voice. I look down. He looks kind of sad. I move my hand. I watch his headband yank. I move my hand. The headband yanks again. Lan Zhan grabs his headband. He turns and looks directly at the tree where I am. My eyes narrow. Does he see me? I wave my hand.

"Lan Wangji." A voice says.

He turns. I let out a breath. Of course he can't. What did I expect? No one can see the wind. I turn and shoot back into the sky.