Um to all those who saw me all thorn up last night I just wanted to say that.... I'm truly sorry you all had to see that.

I don't like feeling this way and I definitely won't take anymore hate from anyone I'm sorry but I won't .
All those people who talked to me and cheered me up I just wanted to say thank you.. You all have been angels sent down to earth for me . You  all have always giving the strength I so desperately sought   . 

All the rumors and lies that were  told about me , that's all they are rumors . I never picked on anyone and I never cheated on anyone nor did I ever flirt when I was still in a commitment . Those that have my trust know the truth about everything that went down last night and those that I didn't tell well .. I just didn't want to.

To tell you the truth there were (are ) times I want to just die ... Yes I'm a depressed attention whore call me whatever , but it's not easy when in your admin's family you been through hell .. If you knew  her life you wouldn't be so quick to judge .

Last night my world fell apart everything I held so dear to my heart died .. The little tiny piece of hope and happiness died with it too .
I don't know what I did to be hated on so much but whatever it is I did I'm sorry . But
I'm not perfect and I make mistakes all the time . Now God is the only one to judge my life.

I sit down in my room everyday and think about everyone I once called my friends , where are they now ? And do they still remember me ?
I have no one , in real life I have no friends , I'm always alone , I been in and out of relationships and some of them were only pain . This is the only place I come to clear my head to role play and make friends , friends I know I'll never have in life .
But enough about sad thoughts , I just wanted to let you know all know how I felt how I'm feeling right now ,

I hide behind  a smile everyday , I don't let people see me cry because I don't want them to think I'm weak .

Maybe someday those that did me wrong will feel guilt and come clean and apologize to me . They are forgiven even tho they haven't asked for it . I don't hold grudges and I don't hate you. My family has taught me to love my enemies . I'm a Christian and I know that God's love is more powerful than any painful thorn twisting our minds .

I'm sorry if I made any of you cry it was not
my intention to do that . I just had to let it out .
You're all have been good friends to me and I'm so happy .

You're my Wattpad family ❤️ and I love you all so much

-Sam-
&
~Padmé ~

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