death

they sentenced you to death

they took us outside to a big platform,
where they were going to shoot you in the head

they made me watch

they made you kneel in front of the officer
and lower your head

you breathed heavily,
afraid
but didn't fight

they grabbed my arms
and lead me towards you

I tried pulling away
but I had no strength left in me

'please don't do this!'
I cried

'please!'

they made me kneel in front of you

so we were face to face

you kept your head down

'taehyung

taehyung, I'm so sorry'

you let out a laugh

the officer cracked his knuckles

'I've been waiting so long for this'
he said

he kicked you in the rib

you stumbled over, grabbing your side

tears fell down my face like an endless river

'taehyung I-'

'don't apologize'
you looked at me

'you shouldn't be the one apologizing,
I should be'

the officer punched you in the face

'I put you through so much pain
and suffering'
you said,
blood running out of your nose

the man put a gun to your head

'no!'
I screamed louder than I ever had

'don't hurt him! please don't kill him!'

I tried to get up
but the men restrained me

'jimin

before I go,

I just want you to know that I love you

ok?

I love you

I've taken so many lives,
but I'm so glad I got to save yours

and please don't cry

your tears shouldn't be wasted on a person like me

and don't you ever think that this was your fault

or that you ruined my life

because I knew this was coming

and you,
beautiful you,

you made my last days the happiest

so thank you'

the gun went off