you left me alone for the first time that wasn't for work

you were off to get groceries

'I'll be fine'
I reassured you

'you sure?'
you asked

I nodded my head

you still didn't seem sure

you seemed afraid

afraid that I might do something
to myself

you seemed afraid that you'd find me at the bottom of the sea
once again

but I told you repeatedly that I'd be fine

because it was thanks to you

that I wanted to keep breathing