Jungkook's perspective

Every moment passed without him felt like an eternity. It's been days and I hadn't seen him because if I would, the heartbreaking things would be freshened. I had hurt him but I couldn't fake a promise of stopping to love him either so I chose to escape but not for so long.

It's been a whole week since we last had a rendezvous. He was hurt because of me and I was hurt because I couldn't be the one I wanted to be. I could see it in his eyes but he held the pity and forgiveness in his eyes too which tore me apart.

I just wanted him to be happy, to have the most endearing smile on his face with his eyes gleaming with pure joy only. It was impossible to spare a second without thinking about him. It was as if he was not the thought in my head but my whole thinking.

I was continuing schooling and every day was the same sober and sorrowful. Jimin tried to lighten up my mood many times but it was not as easy as it seems to fake a smile but he knew about my true feelings and unwantedly I was hurting him too but I couldn't function well without seeing him again.

After miserably losing my self-restraint I couldn't hold back myself anymore and I sneaked into the dense trees again to take a glance of him but I couldn't find him around that day.

The sorrow took over me and I had to turn away again, hoping I would see him the next day.

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It's been days of searching for him from afar but I couldn't steal any glance of him. My insecurities and worries started growing more and more.

It was raining and a thunderstorm was approaching. I had left my school in a rush to go and see Taehyung, knowing how much it frightened him. Jimin called my name several times but I needed to see Taehyung.

I had no umbrella, nothing with me when I just ran mindlessly to the church with roaring clouds and approaching rainfall.

I finally froze on tracks when I found myself in front of the church. I stood and took deep breaths. The cloud roared again and I stepped inside of the church.

"T-taehyung...." My lips thoughtlessly escaped his name but I was only met with darkness. No one was there in the church.

I looked all around and miserably failed to find anyone around.

I walked outside.

"Taehyung." I called his name but received only silence in reply.

I finally walked to his cottage and knocked on the door.

"Taehyung, are you inside?" I called out but least to my knowledge, the cottage was empty and dark too.

It's door was unlocked and I opened it up.

"W-what?" I whispered looking all around the cottage and then a familiar figure wrapped around my feet.

"Meow."

"Miss. Daisy?"

I pulled her in my arms and I could see her tiny furry frame snuggled in my warmth.

"Meow." She meowed again as if she was trying to tell me something but I was too busy checking for Taehyung around and the cottage was just empty and dark.

"Meow" she meowed again and patted my chest with her paws and I faced her.

"Miss. Daisy?"

"Meow" her round doe eyes were shimmering with some unexplainable emotions, something very unfamiliar to me. I was not so good at communicating with animals but I could feel if she was trying to convey something to me.

"W-where is he?" I whispered and she meowed again, snuggling more into my warmth, she whimpered lowly and I stroked her back.

"Jungkook? What are you doing here?" I was taken aback by a voice and I turned around to see Jimin at the door of the cottage.

"J-jimin" I walked closer to him and Miss. Daisy jumped in his embrace and he held her so lovingly.

"Hey I missed you gorgeous." Jimin complimented, stroking her back and she leaned in his touch comfortably.

I just walked outside again trying to find Taehyung around but he was seen nowhere.

"Hey Jungkook, wait for me." Jimin ran behind me holding an umbrella and the cat at the same time when raindrops began to pour.

I walked into the church again calling out his name loudly.

"TAEHYUNG!" I called out but my voice resonated and came back to me.

I called out again but a heavy deep manly voice replied to me.

"What happened my son?" Father came walking to my direction then, holding a Bible in his hands and a cross.

"F-father...." I could feel my eyes tearing up.

"Yes my son, what happened?" He asked again, watching me with eyes laced with worries.

"Taehyung, where is he?" I asked and looked into his eyes with desperation.

"Ah...Tae... my son" He whispered slowly and the desperation was gobbling me up.

"He is gone." And that was all he whispered.

"W-WHAT?" I was taken aback by his words but I needed to hear it again for confirmation.

"G-gone? But where? Father, where did he go?" I asked desperately and he just sighed.

"Come here my son." Father said and I followed him out of the church to his cottage from where father brought out one letter which he handed to me.

"This is what he asked me to give you before leaving." He said and my body froze. I somehow grabbed it with my shaky hands.

"This was his decision and I just couldn't deny his wish because he rarely asks me for something." The father continued saying and he looked down sadly.

I held his letter in my hands and quickly opened it up to read what he had written in his handwriting.

I couldn't hold back my urge anymore and the tears started flowing down. I felt as if everything stopped and scattered everywhere.

Another roar of clouds and the rain started pouring heavily.

"J-Jungkook" Jimin walked to me, taking the letter from my hands to his hands as I just stood there in trauma.

"W-what?" He gasped and I turned around.

I stood under the pouring rain as it made me soaking wet. I didn't mind it as it was an escape from my feelings and my tears were camouflaging with the dripping water.

"Hey," Jimin called out and covered me with his umbrella.

"Jungkook...hey."

It felt so useless to cry. I suddenly felt numb. I wish I would cry and let my pain out but I became numb and the burden of pain stayed on my chest as if the stone cold ice would never melt.

"I need him, so bad."

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Well well well, you will know what Taehyung wrote and where did he go.

Just hoping you liked it.