About two days later, Ciel returnd.

Although.. He didnt seem to be himself. I've grown to understand Ciel's secluded sense of attitude over time, even his easily irritable nerves. But looking at him now, i can see how this is different. The other's believed he was just tired, yet i knew there was more to the story.

He was faint with my greeting and slightly spaced as we had a cup of tea. He consistantly refused a ball, not angrily, but blankly. As if this were routine. It was actually... But he treatd it as if.. I cant explain. This may just be a bit to complex for me to comprehend. I'll try, but then again theres only so much I can understand.

Especially when it comes to Ciel.. He's like a piece to a puzzle. That one piece no one can find out where to put, the rest of the puzzle is complicated, but it's mostly him that gets you thinking. Ive always been fond of puzzles, i grew up watching Edward as he put puzzles together in our manors library. Ciel was my puzzle, and i plan to try and figure him.

The rest of the day was the same. Ciel didnt interact much in conversation or really pay attention to the activitys I tried to intruige him in. It worried me yes, but I didnt want to place any more burden on him with my worry. So I just did what i do and kept a smile one my face while talking about cute and happy things.

I doubt my presence or my dull topics brought him up any, but atleast for the time being I was able to sit by Ciel without the worry he may be lying somewhere dying.

As evening dawned it was time for me to return home. I wished I could stay another night but Ciel insisted that I not stay home without permission any longer than i already had.

As we stood infront of the manor waiting for his butler, Sebastian, to finish prepping the carriage, we said our farewells.

"It was lovely to have you Lizzy.. But you really should start informing me before you just show up." He spoke, his lips tightening once he finished his sentence. I felt slightly shot down, per usual when he told me this. It wasnt the first time. If you hadnt already guessed, this was one of many times i had shown up uninvited. Improper? Unlady like? Each of those things were what it were, but every second i spent with Ciel during those times were the best of any. Even with my desperate need to stay proper and perfect beside him, i would trade it in a moment for him alone.

"Im sorry! I really wish you would see me more often though, Ciel! I miss you!!" I whined to him. I could see the slight twitch on his face from the high pitch of my accent.

Ciel sighed softly, shaking his head. "Elizabeth." He began testingly. "You know how busy I am, I dont always have the time to drop my work for a visit. It's one of the reasons why it becomes so difficult when you just pop out of the blue."

The hard rock of guilt was dropped into my lower gut at his words. Why couldnt this be easier? Because things arnt meant to be easy, thats why its reality.

The hands that were being held behind my back squeezed tightly together, my fingers tangling a bit more, curling into my palm.

"Yes, Im sorry.."

"I know, your sorry. Its fine." He breathed out. He pinched the bridge of his nose with his right hand, the left rested on his hip.

There was a long silence that surpassed the two of us, it was suprsingly very uncomfortable. Him standing behind me, tapping his index gently agaisnt the bare skin of his wrist, while I tapped the front of my foot agaisnt the surface of the cement we stood on creating soft taps that filled the void of are complete silence.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Then finally, the carriage emerged from the back of the manor stopping just infront of the both of us. I looked towards Ciel who had already been looking back at me expectantly. I curled my lips, knowing fully that now I had to leave.

This was the worst part of every visit- goodbye.

I hated having to return home, it left such an empty feeling on the inside of me. It was boring at my manor, just Paula and occasionally Edward who tried to keep me entertained. Although of course I'd much rather be with Ciel. Keeping him company, sense he was all alone. Yes he had his servants but it wasnt the same.

I suppose I was extremely grateful for Sebastians presence in Ciels life though. Ive always been fond of him. He stepped in for Ciel when he was in desperate need of it. I can only dream of being able to be there for him, but I was never aware of what occured the month he was missing, niether am still. He swore to stand by Ciel after he'd lost everything and so far he's proved to his word, that really proved his loyalty.

I ran towards Ciel, yanking him into my arms. I barried my face into the crease of his neck, taking in as much of the moment as I could. His arms had hesitantly wrapped around my lower back, gently at first, then tighter yet only for a quick moment. When he released me, I was reluctant to let go but knew I had to force myself to. I still had my hands placed on his shoulders with a soft smile.

"Please tell me when I can visit again?" I asked. Thats a first.

He nodded. "Yes, of course." Even though I'd trust Ciel with my life, I highly doubt he'd keep his word with this. He never did after all.

Even with that knowledge I still nodded in assurement.

Then there it was. Our goodbye. Sebastian had helped me into the carriage and I waved untill I could no longer see him in my sight.

Perhaps next time he'll be happier.

Hopefully.