I want to forget. These memories never belonged to me.

Not even worth fighting about, no reason to start a battle when it's crystal clear I've already lost. I could never compare.

He gave you the feelings people wrote novels about, the endless words on paper that flowed like an infinite river. Not me, I was a book you started but never wanted to finish.

You could see the stars in your eyes whenever you looked at him. The way your smile would widen and your heartbeat would accelerate.

A mistake. I wasn't to look at you in the way you would look at him. You weren't to give me memories that would last forever when I would have to give them up when the sun went down.

To think I would ever get the chance of giving you a smile that was as important as the ones he gave you was foolish. Utterly pathetic.

Beautiful. Even more than that, you were ethereal.

Gorgeous as you laughed in his arms, the ones who gave you the warmth I never could.

Your smile was more than enough, and soon, I would be able to find a person to love me the way you loved him.

Perhaps this wasn't meant to be more than simple fantasy. It was, it sure became something I would never forget.

We are here to love, just not each other.

And that was okay.

well this shit made me cry, this is smt i'm facing rn & have been for a little bit. um, HAPPY NEW YEAR!