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𝘏𝘪 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦! 
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳, 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘶𝘱𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘊𝘪𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺!!

Summer!!! KOREA IS SO COLD. SO COLD ALL THE TIME . Good weather here is chilly as fuck for me . Nothing makes me miss The Phillipines more than a cold Korean night. There is nothing like the feeling of running late to class and feeling the sweat soak your uniform and the back of your head frying under the sun..and ....
I miss that a lot.

Oh, I really like autumn. I used to live around college campuses when I was little and when I would walk to YG in autumn I would detour through them . The trees all lit with color and it was really pretty. I felt like I was inside a fairytale. But I got late a lot and got scolded a lot so I stopped.

I'm a winter gal. I like warm tea and mittens.
Whenever it's winter my parents get really affectionate with me, they hug all the time. My parents reject my skinship the rest of the year, but when it's cold they're my cuddle bitches.

Also I  hate rain and it never rains in winter.
I used to live on the top of a ramp street, and whenever it rained the houses at the bottom would get flooded. We were pretty much the only house that didn't get constantly filled with dirt water during summer, and that always made me feel bad. I wish I could enjoy rain and think it's poetic like everyone else but......I always think of people with the flooded houses.

SPRING!!! I used to have a bunch of allergies when I was a baby and my mom didn't let me play outside in the spring, but one day I got a bunch of shots and BOOM I could finally play around in the spring!! I remember I made my mom take me to all the parks in Gun so I could make friends with all the kids and smell all the flowers! Not all the kids became my friends but the flowers did!! I pressed them in a notebook and drew dresses for them!

Ever since I was young....I don't know I get this molten lava feeling inside my chest whenever people try to boss me around, I just...I can't....I'm incapable of just following orders and.....
I think I got that from my dad. He never gave up his dream and his love for music, even when the money got tight and my grandparents screamed at him. When I got into fights at pre school and came back home with bruises and someone else's hair all over me, he never scolded me or told me I was a bad daughter. He just tried to understand why and let me sleep on him. He taught me fighting for your beliefs was just and honorable, , that is a teaching I will always carry with me. But, as I've grown I've realized compromise is necessary, forgiveness is necessary and acceptance is necessary.
I can't fist fight the world and I can't deem my friends horrible people when they fuck up.
So yeah, this molten lava stubbornness in me is probably my best quality and fatal flaw.

Ha, I don't know,,,, I...I have been told I can be too much of a doormat, and that is...that is very much true.I just didn't know...I still don't fully know how to make decisions by myself ha....which makes it easy for others to make them for me. All of them. This hurt me for long time, but still, I think, depending on people gave me good qualities. I'm loyal and trusting and ready to make sacrifices for the people I love. There are few things that make me proud of myself soo...
At least being a doormat gave me that.

Aiish, that's a hard one......I guess I'm too.....empathetic? I just find myself SO SO SO often getting invested in other people's problems and pain, bending over backwards to help them, and like......I get more upset about people's issues than they do themselves. Then I expect the same emotional support I give to them when I'm needing a friend, which always ends up in face cracks. I'm a giver that isn't really fair to me.
But I wouldn't give it up. I rather have my heart broken 1000 times than have it shrunken

OOOF. How does that Beyonce song go? I GOT A BIG EGOOO, SUCH A BIG EGOOO. Hahaha, though I don't think that song is actually about egos, I don't know , Amora unnie  wont explain the english to me. Okay so, everyone knows I'm the tea haha.
Wherever I go I become the sun and people naturally orbit around me, I just have that energy don't come for me. But I admit sometimes I overdo it, I don't think it's that serious but it happens, I don't mean to cut off people or be rude it's just.....It's just hard being as sociable and excitable as I am without dominating everyone's time and attention. I know I don't sound like I am, but I'm GENUINELY WORKING ON IT AND TRYING TO BE BETTER

( Yoonah slams the table cutely frustrated)

Probably....our first night out of YG? Haha, I was really really scared. I felt like we were gonna fall apart, that Yoonah's ,Byeol's and Hea's careers were ruined and it was all my stupid brain's fault.
But then.....umm, Yeollie ordered.....curry and fries, fried chicken, and spicy rice and....It all made me feel really good. I don't know. There was something about eating that food with them, hearing Yoonah and Hea bicker over the sauce and seeing the bliss on Byeol's face when she ate the curry, that just made me really really happy. I was at a point where I had forgotten how sweet Byeol could me and I guess it reminded me that
" if everything goes to shit, at least i'll always have this"

Ooh. I don't know. I've know them for so long. I feel like all the moments in my life were I grew, were when I was with them. My first drink, my first broken bone, my first crush, my first broken drumstick hehe.....
I think, since I have to pick...I'm gonna go with our last performance for The Dramaverse. It was an old guy bar hihi, but there were ......young girls with... The Rose tshirts there and...
It took us a while but eventually we realized that those young girls were at an old man bar to see us. There was a moment where we all just looked at each other and smiled. Like. Wow.
Those people came there....to see us...to sing our songs. We giggled together and it felt really good. Yeah, really good

Awwwwwww. YALL!!! IM GONNA CRY!!
Don't test me. Y'all can't drop that sappy shit on me!! I'm sure it was the day we all signed our termination contracts. We had worked so hard to pay our trainee debts and it so so difficult to get all that money, everyone side eyed us for months so.....When we finally signed out, and we realized we were actually doing it. Actually leaving YG, the place we spent half of our lives being a part of, it was just such a relief. I remember we got to the dorm and the moment the door shut I started BAWLING. It felt like a huge rock had been untied from my back. I was just so so so happy to be out of that place.
And you know how it goes, I cry, Amora cries, Yoonah cries, Byeol cries. We spent the whole night awake, talking about all the memories we made in that dorm, crying and laughing. Then in the morning, we left it forever.

My favorite one is the first one. I remember being 14, I had just met Byeol unnie and she took me to her dorm room to practice. Amora unnie was there, leeching off Byeol's secret noodle stash. Hea was using Amora's computer to make a song about pussy and weed. Byeol immediately told her to turn it off so I wouldn't hear and tripped over Amora's tiny body, stepping on the ramen . I was really scared and confused, but I knew that I needed to make friends with those people. There was just something about bickering with your roommate over expired ramen on the floor while " I like good pussy and I like Good Tree " played that felt ideal to me. Really. It felt like something I needed to have in my life.

" YG!!! I HATE THEM!! THEY CAN ALL DIE
" Amora yelled happily

" Mora dont say that " Byeol whispered cautiously like Amora had just admitted to committing a crime.

" Do yall know how hard it was to get Amora out of YG building when we left without her calling everyone capitalist pussies ? " Hea interjected taking a loud slurp out of her smoothie.

" AHAHA UNNIE TRIED TO FIGHT OUR DORM MANAGER " Yoonah exposed, laughing so hard she spilled a little smoothie on herself

" I'VE WANTED TO FIGHT THAT MAN SINCE I WAS 14!! THAT WAS MY SHOT! AND YALL TOOK THAT AWAY FROM ME !!

" Mora, YOU WOULD DIE! " Byeol argued

" WHO SAYS? "

" EVERYONE "
Hea yelled putting her smoothie in Amora' s face

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