dahlia

three days had gone by since me and matt had fought and then made up. i kept my promise and ended up throwing my stizzy on the ground, stomping on and smashing it with a rock until it was broken beyond repair. it hurt inside a little bit, but i felt better.

currently, i was facetiming alahna and catching her up on everything.

"awe, girly i'm so proud of you." she smiled.

"thank you." i grinned.

"ok, so i wanted to talk to you about this before anyone else." i lowered my voice.

"what is it?" she widened her eyes.

"i want to come back to boston for a little while. like a month or two."

"yes! yes, please! i miss you!" she yelled.

"i'm just not sure of my brothers will go for that long." i frowned.

"just come without them, the fuck? oh! bring johnny!"

"hmmm, that's not a bad idea." i smirked and grabbed my laptop. i began looking up tickets to boston.

"just buy two tickets. what are they gonna say, no?"

"for real! i'm an adult! i can go if i want to."

i ended up buying to tickets for next week.

we continued to talk until she had to go. we said bye and i went to tell my brothers.

all my brothers were sitting on the couch, including johnny. i walked over and plopped down next to chris.

"you guys, we should go to boston." i suggested.

"why? we just went." nick said.

"yeah, but i want to go again. it was fun and i miss everyone. johnny, you should go with us."

"yes, i would love to." he smiled.

"see, we should go." i grinned and looked at my brothers.

"i don't know, lee, we are really busy here with everything and the podcast coming up. i'm not sure if we have time."

i sighed and twisted my mouth.

"i'm sorry. maybe mom and dad or nate and alahna can come out here?" chris tried.

well... i already bought the tickets.

"um... well." i picked at my nails.

"what did you already by the tickets?" nick laughed.

i laughed with him then stopped, immediately. when i did, he stared at me with shock.

"ok, bye bye." i got up and ran to my room.

i closed my door and rolled my eyes. i laid down on my bed and felt my phone buzz. johnny texted me.

imessage

john v 🩷 - johnny
leelee 💜 - dahlia

john v
let me guess you already bought the tickets?

leelee 💜
sigh.
yea but i knew they were gonna say no so i only bought two...
do you want to come with me???

john v 🩷
i would love to
how long?

leelee 💜
i'm not sure
i was thinking atleast like a month or two
i just need a break from everything and i miss my parents and best friends
it will be hard going without my brothers but i think if i have everyone else plus you, i'll be ok

john v 🩷
yea that sounds good
are you ok though? for real?

leelee 💜
tbh i don't know
i'm just now started to get over the withdrawals
sometimes i forget that i was actually addicted 🙄
my headache finally went away tho

john v 🩷
that's good :)
i'm proud of you dahlia

leelee 💜
ok stop you're gonna make me cry
fuck i like you a lot
*message deleted*

john v 🩷
what?

leelee 💜
what?

john v 🩷
what did that say?

leelee 💜
ur mom

john v 🩷
no fr
i didn't see it

leelee 💜
good.

john v 🩷
???

leelee 💜
ok bye bye <3

john v 🩷
bye dahlia <3

lilys words 💜

this is so shit.

im sorry.

im also tired so if this doesn't make sense i apologize

im trying to be active again but yea

bye bye <3