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𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆 the tune of, 'You Belong With Me' by Taylor Swift as I found myself zoned out in Transfiguration class. Mongrel was just yapping something in the background talking about, 'Feather duster to ferret' I was dozing off, Diana had covered her face behind the textbook and has been sleeping ever since the period had started. Lily on the other hand was a hard worker, she was taking down notes so we could copy it off in the evening.

I honestly feel like I can do better than being the 'Above average kid' . The only problem is that I'm too lazy and sleepy. I also have zero motivation, my only condition is I have to be better than my sister and well, she's pretty much of a loser who does hard work but gains nothing so I easily defeat her.

Look at Lily, she's so pretty, smart and emotionally the most stable and cheerful person, a person of acceptance and happiness. The smile on her face even when the world is burning down. That's a great woman, all I do is just go sob and moan if the slightest shit happens in my life. I'm just too emotional.

Look at Diana, she's so outspoken and can get her feelings out in public and deal with people. I'm too introverted and my social anxiety would never allow it. She has so many friends and people to talk to, even I want friends- or maybe I don't? I don't know, I feel like my life is just a black outs blur and I'm just going on and living for the hope of it all.

I rubbed my tired eyes, I didn't sleep peacefully yesterday, every time I close my eyes I keep getting a vivid image of a creepy as ghost mad woman which Lily was trying to imitate before we went to bed and I don't know why but for the past few days I've just felt so uneasy pressurized by academics and my shitty personal life.

My grades are at an all time low and I can't focus on studying. My mom's health has been pretty bad and my dad's struggling to keep up with the hospital fee and household bills. I can't also go and help him. My sister is just being a pain in the ass as always. I sighed as I adjusted and combed my out of bed brown hair.

I have no scope in life, at least if I looked pretty I would have had the chance of getting a rich husband. At this point, I should just kill myself, there is nothing to live for. "Ms. Garcia, can you repeat my question for Mr. Anderson" Mongrel barked. I was confused, what the hell was even happening. I looked at the board trying to get a hint. "She asked about the hand movement" Lily whispered to me, covering her mouth with her book.

"Ms. Potter STAND UP!" Mongrel exclaimed. "Shit" Lily muttered as she got up with an annoyed face of getting caught. "Professor, we have to point the wand at the target" Val replied. "MR SCAMANDER!" She exclaimed as Lysander and Lorcan got up. "She meant you?" Lorcan asked. "She hates me bro, of course it was me, sit down" Lysander replied and Mongrel banged the textbook on her table to quieten the class which had begun buzzing.

"Mr. Anderson, we've had this talk many many times before" Mongrel started. Then why is she wasting time right now? I just want to sit so bad right now, my period cramps are really getting the better of me and I feel like I might just faint. Skipping breakfast to study for the potions test was such a big mistake.

I looked back to watch the scene as my heart started skipping, I tried looking away even though his magnetic field was a bit too strong for escaping. Val looked messy as usual, uncombed mocha brown hair, untidy uniform, a bit lanky and the playfulness in his eyes. I don't even understand how I ended up liking him.

I've had a huge crush on him since I entered the gates of Hogwarts. But woohoo, who knew he'd turn out to look like a hottie from a romance novel. Imagining scenarios about 'us' has been on my schedule for the past 5 years, it's my entertainment after going to bed and before actually falling asleep and during history classes.

I don't know why I like him cause I feel like he's totally not my type but also my type. I usually judge boys who are playboys, immature, playful, stupid and dumb. Val is the whole package of all the types of people I had but yet he's just so alluring and appealing to me and I absolutely despise it. I thought it was just a mere attraction but him growing up so beautiful isn't really helping me get over him.

I tried so hard to hate him it didn't work. I tried forgetting him, but it didn't work. I burnt my whole damn diary I dedicated to our fake scenarios I wrote with my precious time and ink. I used to get so jealous of Diana when she was dating Val, LIKE WHAT? THAT'S JUST SO- URGH. Those were dark times, I used to feel so lonely and no one to express my feelings to. I used to cry every night to the point I was under depression.

But the secret happiness I got when they both broke up, omg that felt so good. That was the day I got so high, me and Lily snuck to Hogsmeade with her invisibility cloak and we had some drinks. That was the night I blabbered to her about Val for the first time ever. The only two souls who know about me and Val are first Lysander who illegally acquired my diary and second is Lily when I split all my somber thoughts.

But the best part of this story is that Val just found out my name was Michelle and not Micheal after six years. He'll never know my undying love for him, never ever. I'm never going to confess. No matter what, I'll rather die alone than get rejected by him and lose my reputation.

I don't like golden boys like him, even though it's more like 'I'm not supposed to like him'. He's so way out of my league, he has so many girls around him. It's like there is a whole crowd of girls begging for his love covering his sight of this poor lonely pitiful ugly girl watching from the back standing on top of a tall mountain making sure he can't see me even by an accident.

I just wish this childish love would just vanish already, it's been tormenting me for years now and I just want to break from the chains and be myself. I snapped out of my thought as Mongrel finished the whole, 'I'm doing this for your well being' speech. Val seemed so unserious as she told us to sit down and pay attention as she started taking her classes again.

-TIME SKIP-

It was a passing period me and Lily were sitting at the library pretending to be studying while we were actually just gossiping, "Mickey, you should have seen your face when you looked at Val in transfiguration" Lily said, teasing me. "Stop" I said as I sighed and continued, "Look, my life is already full of shit, he's also full of shit. I'm not serious about it or anything, it's just for time pass" I said. "Time pass for five years?" She asked giggling as I hit her head with my textbook.

"It's a way I can remember I had some kind of life at Hogwarts" I said nostalgically. "You're lying you love him so much, I can see it in your eyes and every time those pupils turn into hearts" Lily said. "Can you just stooooop" I said blushing, NO MICHELLE STOP BLUSHING.

"Oh my god look at Mrs. Anderson so pretty today" Lily said giggling looking at my flustered expression. "Shhh, shut it. If someone finds out and tells him. I'm fucked. I'll kill myself" I said as Lily just kept laughing like a psycho. Psycho girl.

"Here comes the devil" Lily said as she eyed Val, Lysander and Lorcan walking into the library. "Val looks better than usual today" I said dreamily. "Oh, I was talking about Lysander" Lily said, straightening her posture. "You like him? Oh sorry wrong question, when did you start accepting that you like him?" I asked as Lily playfully slapped my shoulders and eyed at Lysander.

"He's just good looking, you have to be absolutely crazy to date that bitch" she said, her eyes still glued on him. Lysander didn't notice her though he was just bossing around Val and Lorcan. "Mrs. Scamander! Your eyes are going to fall off, stop looking!" I said giggling as covered her sight and Lily placed her hand over my mouth and started mugging me as I saw Lysander giving us an unsettling look at our stupidity. I wonder if he heard that- if he did, he's probably going to bring up Val and threaten me.

"Stop screaming, we're at the library" said as we saw the librarian give us a side eye and muttered under her breath, "Girls these days don't come to the library to study only sighting boys and gossiping, this isn't a coffee shop".

I felt a bit guilty as I took it personally. Lily whispered into my ear, "She's just jealous that we have a life apart from arranging books and dealing with loud students" and well that did make me feel a bit better. Then I took a short glimpse at Val, laughing with his friends as it seemed like Lorcan and him were trolling Lysander. I love his smile, it's so pure unlike his personality.

"Can I please set you up?" Lily asked. "With Val? Nah, I'm not serious about it. I'll just enjoy watching him" I said even though deep inside, I knew if I got the chance I'd do anything to get together with him. "Lysander is the only one who can look that fucking hot in a school uniform" Lily said squeeling and banging the table.

Ok this is new, it's been quite a long time since she brought up the topic of 'Lysander' and every time she brings him up it's usually about planning to kill him or defeat him on a test. Maybe something happened at the wedding which made her like this, or is she under A LOVE POTION?!

Then I saw Val get up from the table and walk towards us, he adjusted his hair which was falling on his eyes and walked towards us. He's so classy, ahahahah and I love his tranquil walk. He came towards our table and he said, "Lily, do you want to go on a date?"

My heart broke into shambles as my eyes widened. First Diana now, Lily- How am I always forgotten? Maybe I'm next? I wish I was, I'm not even in his league. Lily glared at Val and dramatically rested her cheek on her hand and said, "Are you crazy?"

"No, I'm serious" Val said. "What do guys even find attractive in me?" Lily asked, rolling her eyes. "Tell me one thing that is not attractive about you" he said in a flatterful way. "Lysander sent you to annoy me didn't he?" Lily asked. "BINGO! You're annoyed, I guess my job is over I'll be going-" Val said trying to walk away but Lily stood up and gushed forward and grabbed his collar.

"You stay here with Michelle, I need to talk with that bitch, Michelle if he runs bite him. Val, Michelle has sharp teeth so don't run" she said as she started walking towards Lysander and Lorcan. Val sat down opposite to me and my heart raced as his amber eyes ran over me. Lily then from her back made a thumbs up hand sign indicating good luck.

ARGH, I CAN'T BELIEVE HER, SHE REALLY WANTS TO KILL ME ALIVE- I MEAN ALIVE ME KILL- SHIT NOTHING MAKES SENSE. I gave a perplexed look at Val and smiled awkwardly as I pretended to read while I was just fiddling with my nails in nervousness. My palms and back had started to sweat as I also felt sweat forming on my nose.

"So, Michigan" Val started. "Michigan?" I asked. "Sorry, Miguel" he said. Oh gosh he doesn't even know my name. "Michelle" I said in a disappointed tone looking down. "Yeah yeah Michelle, Micheal or whatever- So how's Diana doing?" He asked. He didn't ask about me, he didn't even care about my name. "She's fine" I muttered as my confidence and love for him was shattering.

"Damn, I don't like that" he said in a disappointed tone leaning back on his chair. I just kept looking down as anxiety hit me, I was so close to tearing up, I'm just someone in his life. I didn't need the confirmation, I wish I still lived in the delusion that he might know me or secretly love me.

"Does she have a new boyfriend, I was flirting with Darren" he asked. "She's dating him" I said, still looking down, I couldn't look at his eyes. "How about you? Are you dating anyone?" He asked. OK FINE- HE CAN BREAK MY HEART IN TWO BUT WHEN IT HEALS IT BEATS FOR HIM <3

My heart paced as my mood lifted up and I replied, "No, I'm really not into it. I'm a bit afraid and all guys are just so weird these days" she said. "Wait you're a mudblood right?" He asked. "Uh- yes" I said uncomfortably- Did he just call me a mudblood?

"Yo, I'm a mudblood too. So do you watch football?" He said. "I- I'm" I started, oh no the only three words I know related to football are Messi, Ronaldo and Fifa. Should I lie? Oh shit- Think quickly! "Yeah, I'mma huge fan of Messi" I lied. "Messi? Urgh, Ronaldo is better- Plus my mum's Portuguese so I got some blood" he said.

"You listen to music?" I said trying to change the topic into something I'm more familiar with. "Usually I listen to some english bands, I love radiohead but nowadays I don't get time usually I just listen to Lysander's swiftie playlist" he said. Oh gosh, I'm actually having a conversation with him, please tell me I'm not dreaming!

"You like BTS?" I asked hoping he was an army cause I'm a diehard army. I just love the whole Korean culture. "Ergh, it's the makeup gay pretty boys who look like girls" he commented. I got agitated, "It's not like that!" I defended myself. "It is, I know. It's an overrated fandom" he said. "Says the dumbest one in the room" I shot back. "You're one of those weird fan girls waiting for a Korean boyfriend aren't you?" He asked.

"Can you shut up?" I snapped. "Oh wait- Is your sister's name Tayla?" He asked. Wait how did he know that- IS HE DATING MY FREAKING SISTER?! NO,NO, I WATCH TOO MANY MOVIES FOR MY OWN GOOD! STOP OVER THINKING A BIT TOO MUCH MICHELLE!

"My sister and your sister are good friends" he said, smiling. Then there was an awkward silence as he suddenly asked, "What's your type? Like the type of guy" he asked. What an awkwardly straight forward question- He's known me for minutes and he's acting like we've known each other our whole lives- I haven't even briefed my friends about my type yet-

"Definitely not you" I blurted out and instantly regretted my reply. FUCK, I SCREWED UP. "Huh? What's wrong with me?" He asked. HE'S SO AWKWARD, HOW CAN I JUST SAY THAT TO HIS FACE THAT HE'S AN IDIOT WHO'S IMMATURE. "Well- I just said for fun- just regularly" I muttered something senselessly.

Val was just staring right into my soul, looking at me as his eyes went up from my hair to my chest. I was so uncomfortable right now, I looked away trying to hide my scarlet cheeks. He outstretched his arms as they came to grab me, I FREAKED OUT. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING? He touched my brown hair and my heart went crazy.

I pulled back in haste and got up my chair and went backwards. My hair slid through his fingers and I grabbed my books on the desk and hid behind them. I looked at him embarrassed as he just looked confused on why I was overreacting.

"Wh-Why did you? You startled me" I stuttered and muttered under my breath blushing. "You have soft hair" he said and I broke into sweat and I had a hundred butterflies tickling my stomach. I had a rush in my blood all the way from my brain to my legs.

"Val" said a female voice as I turned around to look at a 5'7 tall girl with gorgeous wavy blonde hair and with perfectly shaped green eyes. I had a bad feeling about this. "Cordelia" Val said with a sense of joy in his voice as my heart sank.

"Yooo, so is this your new girlfriend?" Lorcan asked, suddenly popping up behind him. "Hi, I'm Cordelia Maguire and I'm just Val's friend" she said, smiling with all her white teeth. My immediate question was if she was related to Tobey Maguire but that's a stupid question and there is no way she would be related to him.

She was wearing a short pink coloured mini skirt with a tight glittery white blouse, wow I loved the confidence, I'm the kind of person to get afraid of wearing any kind of skirt or dress, I'll just stick with T-Shirt, hoodies, sweaters and jeans.

I saw Lysander just giving a side eye of disgust at her from the table as he went back to talking to Lily, he didn't seem pleased at all but Lily was looking at the scene here, her expression looked a bit calm, but I knew that she was secretly scheming something. Oh shit- She's definitely going to do something. MAYBE SHE'S GOING TO RUIN HIS THEIR FRIENDSHIP JUST BECAUSE OF MY JEALOUS? SHIT NO THIS CANNOT-

Lily just turned back to Lysander. I was disappointed, Lily looked like she was going to absolutely destroy her with a roast but no, she did absolutely nothing. "She's a Hufflepuff and one of my best friends " Val said, pulling her and hugging her sideways. It looked so obvious that they both liked each other and they were just too afraid to admit it.

"You don't look like friends" Lorcan said smirking and Val blushed with a shade of magenta in his pale skin. "Oi, stop. We're just friends" Val said looking down as Cordelia pad started blushing. THIS IS SO ANNOYING!

JEALOUSY JEALOUSY STARTED FOLLOWING ME! The tiny murderous instinct in me was getting triggered as that cute girl kept giggling, it was so annoying. I don't understand what guys find attractive in gullible, weak, giggly girly, high pitched voices , pink loving morons.

"Have fun with your friend, I'll be leaving" I said trying to make my voice sound like I was genuinely rooting for them. I got up and walked out of the library. Lily saw me leave so she ran behind me to keep me company and ask what was wrong. Lils, isn't it so obvious what was wrong?

I kind of started venting about my grief as we walked back to our dorms to complete our homework and Lily said, "You said you were just sighting Val for time pass, why so serious?" She asked. "That's so obviously a lie, ok? I lied before" I sighed. "I swear to god, you seem so high right now" she replied.

After we reached our dorms and laid on my bed, so soft, so comfortable. NO! I can't sleep, I have to finish homework. I looked at the clock and it was 6:53pm. 'I'll start homework at 7', I told myself. As I placed my head on my pillows I started imagining how Diana would react if I told her about my love for Val.

She would be so disappointed if she found out I told Lily but not her and she'll be disappointed on how I like a guy who's a complete bitch and a cheater. My life is just so messed up. Then my thoughts lingered to Cordelia. I just don't understand why I'm such a hopeless romantic, it's so obvious that Val will never like me. It's so obvious but that slight bit of hope and happiness that I get from his aura keeps me going.

Cordelia is so pretty and perfect. I'm just so normal and average. Big dreams only lead to substantial disappointment. Will girls like me never have a chance? I should really just lower my standards and maybe face the reality. I'm not the main character, I'm just existing and I'll just go and-

I started tearing up. It's annoying. I didn't like crying, but it just happens that my personality is just overwhelmed with emotions and my tear glands are really active. I closed my eyes as I stuffed my face in the pillow thinking about my ill fate and future.

-BLANK-

I woke up a bit sweaty even though it was peak winter. I felt weak and dizzy. My bed was all warmed up because of my body heat and my period cramps weren't really helping. "Lils" I groaned as I tried to fall asleep again. I think I was falling sick. What a great time to be alive.

I took the thermometer and placed it in my mouth to check the temperature, 38.3 degrees celsius, damn that's quite a high body temperature. I looked at the time, it was 8:00pm. No one was there in my dorm, I wonder where they all went.

I got up and hobbled out of bed and changed into my white pyjamas. I limped out of my dorm and climbed down the stairs slowly using the handrail trying not to pass out any second. My body temperature was burning my skin, my whole face was red, I was covered in sweat and drool, my vision was faint, my cramps, my headache-

I sat on the stairs halfway down. I couldn't stand up on my legs, I felt like I might just die. My skull felt like it was going to split. Once again I started tearing up in helplessness. It hurts, everywhere- and I just-

I managed to build up my strength so I could walk to the hospital wing. I walked down the stairs and successfully reached the common room. I squinted my eyes and limped in pain as I reached the tunnel to exit through the portrait of the fat lady.

"HEY! MIKAYLA!" I heard Val's voice calling me by the wrong name, again. I turned around weakly as he came running towards me and asked, "Any chance you know where Diana is?" he asked. I'm dying and the first thing my love asks me is where is ex girlfriend is- I DESERVE TO DIE- MICHELLE JUST GO TO HELL ALREADY-

I broke into tears in both physical and emotional pain. I wanted to scream at his face and just give him a tight slap, but his face- his childishness- according to me he was just like a baby who's still learning the way of the world.

"I don't know" I said softly as a sobbed slipped through and tears rolled down my eyes. How embarrassing, he had to see me cry and whine. I walked away quickly hiding my face as he came after me and grabbed my shoulders and asked, "Mikayla, are you ok?"

"I'm sick, it's just painful and I- just let me go" I said as I started walking and the portrait opened up and I found myself in the corridors of the Gryffindor towers. "Mikayla, do you need help? You look pathetic" Val said. YEAH, IN COMPARISON TO CORDELIA I AM PATHETIC MR. ANDERSON is what I wanted to say.

"It's fine" I said sniffing quietly. He was walking beside me and then I slowed down to catch my breath. I hung my head to pull myself together as I felt Val's hand on my neck, I turned pink and pulled back in fluster. "Keep your ha-han-hands away" I stuttered.

"Mikayla, you're so hot" he spat and I- I really didn't know- It took me a while to process that information. I mean, is this the correct situation? He's supposed to be complimenting my beauty, my heart started racing and I looked at his face filled with fake innocence. I felt light and it seemed like my temperature had lowered.

"Oh- I- I meant like- you know your body is like hot" he said. "WHAT?!" I exclaimed, freaking out. WHAT KIND OF A PERVERT IS HE? YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY THINGS LIKE THIS TOP A GIRL YOU HAVE TALKED TO TWO TIMES IN YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE'S IN THE VERGE OF PASSING OUT. DIANA WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG, THIS VALENTINO ANDERSON IS A WASTED SCOUNDREL.

"Stay away from me" I said as I tried escaping his presence. My heart was pounding no longer in love but fear, fear of what he might do to me. Screw my cramps! I ran away from him as he chased me, "I'm sorry, Mikayla, I think you misunderstood me. I just wanted to say like you have that hotness, like the warmth, you have the heat!" he said.

OH MY GOD IS HE SCREAMING SUCH THINGS OUT IN PUBLIC SO EVERYONE CAN KNOW HE'S A PERVERT?! "I don't like you Mr. Anderson. Please leave me alone" I said. "LIKE YOU? WHAT?" he asked confusedly as he caught my collar and pulled me towards him.

"Get away from me" I said in fear as he cornered me to the wall. I looked into his amber eyes as my heart rate elevated. "I don't like you" he said as I nodded, shivering to the echo of his voice in my ears. "I was just trying to mean that you're like burning hot, you're flaming" he said SHAMELESSLY AS I LOST CONTROL OF MY HANDS AND SLAPPED HIM.

"Don't you know how to speak or behave with a girl?" I asked, losing my chill. "You dare" he started as he raised his hands, fear once again crept into me as Val muttered to himself, "Never harm anyone twice your size". DID HE JUST CALL ME SMALL INDIRECTLY?!

"Look- I was just trying to tell you that your body is like giving heat, it's like hot, like you know uhm- it's like you have hotness, you give heat like how the sun gives heat and sunlight" he said and I finally understood what he was trying to convey. "You mean you were trying to tell me that I have a high temperature and that I have a fever?" I asked. "YES! OH MY GOD, I WAS TRYING TO FIND THE WORD, 'TEMPERATURE' AND 'FEVER' BUT I COULDN'T REMEMBER THEM IN THE FLOW" he said as he pulled back and I was let free.

"I got the wrong meaning, sorry" I apologised, even though it was totally his fault that he conveyed the message in such STUPIDITY. "In my defence my first language is spanish" he said, chuckling. My mind lingered to the English or Spanish meme. Ok I'm a cringe fellow. "Oh" I replied awkwardly as we both started walking to the hospital wing, TOGETHER.

By the time I reached there, I honestly felt a bit better. Apparently I was just dehydrated. I took a few medicines and rested up for about an hour and I was so pleased with how sweet Val was, he stayed by my side for the entire hour and said he'd also accompany me back to my dorm.

I got off the bed and it was about nine, both of us were walking together in the corridors, I love how lovely he is. He literally explained to me his whole life story in that hour I was put under observation in the hospital wing. I genuinely like listening to people, I'm more of a listener but I also like venting things but right now I just needed someone to keep me company.

"How's you never run out of topics?" I asked. "There is just so much in life, I can't even explain. Like bro this is like one percent of me. I can tell you so much shit if you want. No jokes, my roomies tie me up and stuff something in my mouth or insult and diss me so I can shut up otherwise, I'm like twenty four seven entertainment" he said.

"You're so open with things, don't do that. People might betray you and use them against you" I said. "I don't know, it's just hard keeping my feelings in control. I don't understand some people on how they struggle to have a nice conversation going or struggle to even socialise. I'm the kind of person to tell my secrets to everyone just to keep the convo going and like-" he was saying.

He just kept on talking, talking and talking, he told me interesting stories about him and Lorcan breaking into the teachers dorm and doing shit, he told me about their well organised pranks. I genuinely feel he would succeed in life if he puts as much effort into his studies as he does to his prank wars and plans.

As we strolled around the corridors, the cold winter breeze, his shaggy brown hair, his amber coloured irises, his warming smile making recharging my dead battery. I wonder if he ever thought just maybe, he belongs with me. Has he ever thought of me?

"Hey guys" Cordelia and her other two friends said, smiling as she tapped Val's back as he returned a smile. "So are you two like dating?" she asked giggling trying to tease him but it was so evident that she was jealous. Call me a psychopath but I like it when people get jealous of me. It's just a wonderful feeling of superiority to boost your confidence.

"No, no I'm just helping her out" he smiled as he looked at me and I just blinked not knowing what response to give. For some reason she gave a small chuckle at me and smiled looking a bit pleased.

His messy mocha brown hair, his deep voice, his pale complexion with a few hues of red due to winter, his dry lips, his terrible and messy dressing, the smile- It was just everything. His flaws are what make him who he is, his confidence and charisma is what attracts everyone. I'm one of those commoners too. I've always been afraid to be like 'one of those girls' in love with the popular boy.

But life has its own tricks. Plus, I'm pretty much of a hypocrite. I judge people and tell shit even though I don't practice what I preach. It's one of my own issues but it's just a part of me.

"Imagine being his girlfriend" I commented to Cordelia's statement chuckling. Val turned red and frowned as he looked at me. "Why? I'm good looking, what else does a dude need?" he asked. "I don't want to talk further" I sighed as I started walking away. "MIKAYLA!" he screamed behind me.

I didn't want to listen to whatever statement he was going to say. My sickness is returning and I feel like I should just go and get some rest. Enough socialising for today. "MIKAYLA! THE FLOOR!" he screamed. But it was too late- I slipped and I felt my soul leaving my body. Can't believe I'm going to die without having my first kiss. I closed my eyes in acceptance, I've always dreamt of this day anyways. I hope I find peace.

Then I felt someone catch me in their arms. I let out a small gasp. Is it going to be Val? If it's going to be Val I'm going to squeal cause if he did catch me that means I'm a freaking disney princess and I'll get a huge ball gown and a castle. I opened my eyes to a pair of blue eyes with rectangular spectacles on, it was Novah Henderson.

"Are you ok, Michelle?" he asked as he helped me get back on my feet. "Yeah I'm fine" I said awkwardly as he helped me get back on my feet. I adjusted my bangs as I thanked him. Why is my life so dramatic today? Usually it just involves sleeping, eating and studying. "Yo!" Val said as he spanked Novah and those two had started talking to each other. I really hoped Val would get jealous or something.

I walked alone in the dark corridors of Hogwarts, and I reached the Gryffindor common room. I entered into the scene of Jared, Judy, Lily and Lysander playing UNO. They seemed to be having fun.

I saw Judy and Jared being a lovely sweet couple. I saw how Judy and Jared were cuddling and smiling together, sharing smiles and playful slaps. I'm telling you Judy is basically a Gryffindor, she lives in our common room and all the students have accepted it at this point.

Maybe if Val and I can't share a relationship like Judy and Jared, I wish we can at least share a sweet, friendly relationship like Lysander and Lily.

I saw Lysander and Lily were trying to cheat by trying to look at each other's cards and pick a fight with each other as they would bicker, curse at each other and get violent. They're so cute together. I wonder how happy Lily gets when she gets shipped with Lysander, after all she has pretty much loved him so long.

To build my friendship with Val, I should probably start by correcting him that my name is 'Michelle' and not 'Mikayla'.

"Michelle!" Lily called looking at me as she waved as I walked towards her. "You ok? I heard you were sick. You ok now?" she asked. "I'm fine, sorry to disturb, I'll be on my way to the dorm" I said as I smiled weakly and was about to go up to the girls dorm.

"Baka, play for me, if you make me lose I'll bald you" Lily threatened Lysander as she handed her cards to him and came to talk to me. "Michelle, sorry I didn't visit. I actually came to see you but you were with Val so I thought you guys could spend some alone time together" Lily said. "It's fine Lils, thanks" I said with contempt.

"Did anything happen?" she asked. "Well we talked a lot" I said. "And?" she asked, looking at my thinking face. "He called me hot" I said, smiling. "WHAT? OK I NEED THIS TEA" Lily said excitedly. "But he didn't actually mean it" I said disappointed. "It's fine, at least it's a start" Lily said in an encouraging tone.

"Finish the game, I'll tell you, bye" I said as I pushed her away. "I'll come in 5 minutes after beating up Scamander's ass" she said. I went up to the dorm and laid on my bed. I closed my eyes and remembered HIS smile, the look in HIS eyes, HIS clueless cute face, He's just so- I blushed as I hugged my pillow and kissed it wishing it was him.

Then my cat came in with a letter, how weird a letter at this time of the day. I took the letter and saw the sender address. 'Novah Henderson' I read out. I wonder what he wrote to me- Maybe it's about how he saved me from falling?

I opened the letter to read:

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Dear Michelle,

I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry if I made you flustered or made you feel uncomfortable with my actions and I hope you're ok, I heard you were sick.

Get well soon.

With Love,
Novah. H

P.S: You look like a cute little brown owl 🦉

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Ok so, what is the chance this guy is hitting on me cause no jokes, yesterday I dropped my books and he helped me while Lily and Diana were just laughing cause I slipped on parchment.

Also during detention he kept eyeing on me according to Diana and I also heard his Hufflepuff friends mentioning my name along with his.

It's going to be so cool if Val and Novah fight over me, that means I'd finally have an interesting life. Imagine two good looking guys fighting over an average kid like me. Oh gosh. I suddenly felt a hype and excitement to look forward to in my life.

Lily entered the dorm and screamed, "SPILL THEM ALL TO ME!" as I started explaining my conversations with Val and we were trying to assess whether Val likes me or not and the possibilities. It was so thrilling!

Ok, my first goal for tomorrow is to start a sensible conversation with him and tell him that my name is, 'Michelle' for the millionth time.

I wonder how Mr. Perfectly fine is doing after breaking my heart and stitching it back up together. 

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