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A/N: Hey guys so I kinda unpublish sweet but psycho temporarily and there are so many issues T_T So let me know if the sequence of the chapters and everything seem alright. Also make sure to re add my book to your reading list cause again- Thanks guys. I love you.

— LILY —

𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐒, First days are exhausting, I was so sleepy. I love potions, I love the subject but the professor is just too annoying for my liking. The screechy voice and voice cracks. Either way! I'm a N.E.W.T.s student now! I have to focus, my goal is to beat Lysander Scamander. He secured first place in O.W.L.s but I won't let that happen for N.E.W.T.s, I got a bit distracted with the whole Keres shit.

Lysander, my mind lingered to him. That bitch, that fucking psychotic hot bitch. I hate the fact that I like him but I shouldn't. I shouldn't, it's not right. Imagine liking someone who was 90% the reason why you're in this condition. Like bro, that's such a terrible way to impress a girl and that too a smart girl like me who has abilities to see right through you.

Then I got a flashback of THE DAY. His wet hair, his neck, his COLLARBONES, our lips so close... ARGH! I turned pink. I rammed into the table and hit my head on the desk. Oh shit I'm day dreaming. Lifted my head up to the scene of many people looking at me concerned for my mental health.

Diana patted my head and asked, "Are you ok?" in a serious tone. "Yeah I just- Never mind" I said in an annoyed tone. That bitchy Lysander has been stealing half of my dreams, he's overtaking my mind, all my thoughts are about him, I can't even focus on a single class. I turned around sneakily to take a look at Lysander.

I saw him and Val talking and giggling. His elegance, his smug, his classy look, that daydream look in his mesmerizing eyes. I liked how blank and mysterious he looked but those small detailed changes in his expressions mean so much more. Look at him casually enjoying life and living another day while I'm here overthinking about the incident, overthinking on what I would have done if he kissed me, wondering about the endless possibilities of me and him.

I wonder if he even thinks of me. I feel so useless, here I am thinking about him every second of my life and him just moving on to his priorities, I'm so stuck up. What if he is just a playboy who doesn't even care about all this and what if it was just another normal day for him but I'm the one who is overreacting to the whole situation.

I just feel so confused and I feel so lost- I really want him but I can't because my ego and pride won't allow it. Every time I next to him my heart skips a beat but my hand involuntarily grabs the pen knife to chase him away. I just want to die. I'm exhausted.

I suddenly got reminded of how I accidentally pulled up a knife on him when he was actually just trying to give me a letter and my stomach was growling from my past mistakes and embarrassing moments. My heart was slowly dying. THIS IS CRUEL, WHY DO I ALWAYS MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF IN FRONT OF HIM? WHO DO I THINK I AM HUNTING HIM DOWN USING A PEN KNIFE-

Then I felt someone glare at me. I turned back to see Lysander intensely staring at me. I looked at him, he still didn't flinch, HE'S BACK TO HIS PERVERT PERSONALITY. I HONESTLY THINK HE HAS SOME DOUBLE PERSONALITY DISORDER CAUSE LIKE ONE TIME HE'S ACTING LIKE THE SWEETEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD AND THE NEXT TIME HE'S LIKE, 'BABY LET ME KISS YOU' AND TOUCHING ME AND MAKING ME FEEL DIFFERENT.

I crumpled up a paper ball and threw it at him and he seemed to snap out of it. He gave me a glare and went back to writing his notes. That pervert, he first gives me creepy looks and then he glares at ME? I glared back and went back to trying to focus on my notes.

The bell rang after 5 minutes, what a relief! Michelle was copying off my rubbish notes, my handwriting is so bad, maybe that's why I got only second place in O.W.L.s also I have taken a new oath, I shall not utter 'The L guy's name' so I'm going to call him, 'HE-WHO-MUST-NOT-BE-NAMED'.

I went straight up to him as he lazily got up and walked, I grabbed his robe and he turned around to face me. "Can you STOP looking at me in class?" I screamed at his face. His friends looked confused. "I just zoned out, I was never looking at you. You startled me with that paper ball" he said with a straight face and I saw Val and Lorcan laughing uncontrollably.

AGAIN- WRONG CALL, HE MADE A FOOL OF ME. "You're lying" I whimpered, hoping I would win this argument. "Potter, it's better to back out. You can't prove I wasn't zoned out but I have proof I was zoned out, right Val?" he said. "Yeah" Val said, grinning. I frowned, "You and your minion will only support you, how will they hear the plea of a poor girl" I argued.

"I'm not going to have this pointless argument, you won ok? Be happy, I was staring at you" he said rolling his eyes as he walked away. I felt an itch in my throat. I'm an idiot, I'm the reason he's doing all this. I should just straight up ignore him from now on.

I have to calm down and cut some slack. I took a deep breath, just because I'm not a pathological people pleaser doesn't mean I'm not straight up cruel. I have to take a chill pill. I'm giving him what he wants, I need to think like him and resolve this issue and the first step is to maintain a low profile and play according to the situation.

-ONE WEEK LATER-

It was a beautiful Sunday morning and it was the most beautiful day ever. The sun not burning the world down, the clouds protecting my pale skin, the bees harmonizing and the white-blue sky. I was skipping around the hallway. I felt so high today! A week of Hogwarts had passed and it just felt peaceful. I was humming a tune of one of Michelle's favourite songs which I didn't know the name of.

I felt so clear after this week of not looking at HE-WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED, I realize that I was searching happiness in people and in my social life but turns out, I enjoy being alone as much as I enjoy parties or at least at this moment I feel like all this quiet and peace is addictive. I just want a sweet drizzle and lay on some fresh green grass just to dance.

Even though, deep inside, I really miss him. I really want to look at his expressionless face and laugh as his friends tease him. I miss his company, I miss annoying him, talking to him, ranting and just clinging to him knowing he's just going to roll his eyes. I hate the fact that he's becoming one of those boys-

People are just exhausting to deal with. I'm better off alone. Even though deep inside I have grieves of loss. I lost my sweet boyfriend, I lost my best friend, I lost my reputation, I honestly feel I have nothing else to do. This is the most perfect time to restart after a long exile.

Maybe then I can find someone real to themselves, someone who is a fiction of my reality, dressed in my white shirt, sun warm skin who can cuddle me. I ran into the viaduct courtyard and ran through the bridge and ran down to the boathouse so I could find some peace by the water.

Then in the mossy staircase down I was stopped by a brown haired boy, "Hey, Lily right?" he asked as he awkwardly placed his hand behind his head. "Yes" I replied hoping he would move on with his life and I can get to the boat house. "I told your friend to give you the letter in the Hogwarts express, I thought you would open it up and meet me that day but you didn't show up" he said.

"Oh- I'm sorry I was just busy" I apologized. So he was the one who sent me that letter to meet up with me. I thought it was one of, HE-WHO-MUST-NOT-BE-NAMED's dirty tricks. "It's fine- I casually wanted to meet up to ask you if you were doing well after the whole scandal" he said, smiling awkwardly.

"I'm fine" I replied blandly, who is he to ask about my well-being? "Oh! I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Collin, Collin Creevey the second" he said pulling his hands in for a handshake. "OH! Your uncle was a hero, nice to see that his soul exists in your form" I said, giving him a sweet smile. "Well I didn't expect to see you here" he said. "I have to be-" I said as I was going to walk past him and he held my hand-

"I need to talk-" he started. "Leave my hand" I ordered with a stiffened voice. "Yeah sorry" he said leaving my hand. "I know you're not ready for it but it's been bothering me for a long time" he started and then I heard a voice, "Long story short, I love you" the voice completed the sentence for Collin. I frowned. It was You-Know-Who.

"We need to talk" he said, acting all arrogant. "I'm not in the mood" I said, crossing my arms as I was going to walk away. He came to grab my arm and dodged it. "Potter!" he called out. I ignored him. I can't- I can't look at him for more than 5 minutes- I came this far, I have to throw him away.

He grabbed my shoulder. I tried to shrug it off as I ran down the stairs. He ran down chasing me. HE'S BACK TO CREEP LYSANDER, I MEAN CREEP YOU-KNOW-WHO AFTER A WEEK. He was getting closer, then I felt him tug the back of my uniform. "Leave me alone" I said. I felt him pull me, I turned back to get his hands off my uniform and I took a step backward and stepped on the edge of the last stair. I slipped.

FUCK, I'M GOING TO DIE.

— LYSANDER —

She ignored me for a week, I got desperate to just exchange a word with her. At this rate, my plan will fail. I need to poison her with my presence. Why does she keeping running away from me? She usually charges back at me. She figured out how I use her impulsiveness to make her mine. I have to change my strategy too. I can't let her hate me, I have to make myself irresistible.

Currently I am chasing Potter down the stairs, I mean it's normal for friends to fight and then have this silly fight and eventually get back together right? That's what I'm going to do, I'm going to fight and make things right. I need to get things straight and maybe stop with the flirting as it seems to scare her and use a new strategy.

I thought getting rid of Keres was hard. Girls are just too complicated. One day they're like, I LOVE YOUUUUUU and running behind you with their heart pupils and flirts and the next day they're like, MOTHERFUCKER GET AWAY FROM ME.

I grabbed Lily's shoulder and she tried shrugging it off but my grip was strong. She dragged me down the stairs along with her. I grabbed the back of her uniform to stop her and this seemed to be effective until she turned forcibly and pushed my hand away.

I saw Lily lose her balance as she fell backwards. Her arms reached out for me as the fear of death creeped into her green eyes. Her red hair was slowly fading its vibrance. I so close to grabbing her hand but her hand slipped- SHIT-

Then her hand grabbed my tie- FUCK, SHE'S BRINGING ME TO HELL WITH HER. I lost my balance, it was too late. I was falling over Lily.

Lily would crack her skull and I'd crush her if I try pulling out my wand right now to save us, that's right! WANDLESS MAGIC! We were going to hit the ground as I almost crashed right into her chest and she was about to hit the cold hard ground.

I opened my palms and trusted my instincts, my wandless magic skills were still work in progress. Please work, I begged and I casted the levitation charm on her and right before she hit the ground she hovered an inch above. I was going to fall right over her and my reflexes activated and my right arm stretched and I was in the position of doing a one hand push up.

I made sure me and Lily didn't even touch each other even the slightest, I was already on bad terms with her for being touchy. Lily was still petrified as her eyes were shut tight. She eventually opened them softly to be haunted by my gray eyes lingering right over her presence. "I- You- have-" she started as she held my shirt and turned red looking away to break eye contact as she tried helping me get up. "It's fine I-" I started as it became awkward as I almost went dashing on to her again.

I managed to roll over to the other side and lie down on the ground beside Lily. "Quite a scene you made" she said, catching her breath. "You made it happen" I corrected her. "Shut up, if I really liked you we would have been married by now" Lily snapped as she got up and started dusting off the dirt from the white shirt.

— LILY —

I opened my eyes in fear of pain and death, was I already in heaven? I opened my eyes to look into a pair of icy blue icicle eyes clouded with gray flecks and impurities of wickedness, I was in hell with my sweet demon. My cold heart sublimated rapidly as once again it started beating for the one I want to assassinate FLAMBOYANTLY. I was levitating an inch above the ground as I suddenly had a hard landing which was of tolerable pain.

Lysander's hair was falling downwards, I saw his valiant eyes gleam through his messy dirty blonde hair, his black roots were visible really good from this angle. He was so hot, I felt so comfortable and safe as he maintained his boundary. My heart starting throttling. I could see his ♡ COLLAR BONES ♡ from his white shirt.

He looked so hot in a white shirt and blue jeans, he's usually dressed up in black reminding of a cute stealthy arrogant cat which secretly loves my pats. Now he looked like a cute golden retriever. I swear to god, this boy is just-

I gulped in fear as he tried getting up, hoping he wouldn't crash on to and land on me kissing me, MY HEART WILL LITERALLY EXPLODE, NOT LIKE HIS PRESENCE IS NOT ENOUGH TO KILL ME, ALREADY OK MY IMAGINATION IS TOO WILD.

I held his shirt to give him balance as I tried helping him but he told me to stop as he rolled right beside me. His icy eyes looking in mine were still stuck in my head. I turned red as I closed my eyes in embarrassment.

WAIT- WHAT AM I DOING? I'M SUPPOSED TO SCREAM AT HIS FACE NOW.

— LYSANDER —

"Bro, I just bought this shirt. You- you dirtied it" I angered her. My size kept growing over the past few years and finally I convinced my dad to get me the correct size and now it's muddy- I hope some magical bleach will erase this. "You made mine muddy too! LOOK AT MY NIKES! THEY'RE BROWN AND FYI THEY WERE ORIGINALLY WHITE" she yelled back.

"Enough bickering" I said annoyed with a straight face. "Can you stop? Like really quit this whole drama" she said as she picked up her book and started walking away. "Drama? You 're the one complicating things by overthinking and misunderstanding me" I replied. She stopped dramatically and gave me a glare.

She took a U turn and walked towards me and started adjusting my tie as she straightened my collar. "Repeat that for me, would ya darling?" She asked flirty, I almost turned pink even though I knew her statement was full of sarcasm. "I said you misunderstood me" I repeated.

CLAP!

Lily slapped me tight on my face as she adjusted her bangs and melted me with her green glare. I just looked down with my face turned to the right looking at the lake still in shock of what had just happened.

"Misunderstood? Do I look like a joke to you? You're making it so obvious and you're just going to deny it" She asked as I slowly faced her with my blonde messy bangs over my eyes. My blue eyes glowed as my glare pierced through the forest of my hair. I had no right to be furious, she was right, I deserved this.

"I-" I started but I couldn't explain myself, I could feel blood gushing to my cheeks to recover from that tight slap. "Go on" she said as she crossed her arms and looked at me sassily. "I went overboard, I- I'm- I- It just happened ok?" I said. "You did this, you ruined us. I just wanted someone to trust and I thought it was you, I really trusted you" she said.

"Why are you ignoring me? That's the reason I wanted to talk, I wanted to know why" I asked. "It's just that- I-" Lily started and said, "Let's sit down" she said as she removed her shoes she dipped her legs into the cold water of the lake. I joined her as I sat next to her.

"Look, Just look into my eyes and swear on something you love that you didn't play mind tricks with Keres to break me and him up" Lily said. "I swear on my 1989 deluxe version Taylor Swift vinyl that I didn't do it" I said, who cares about the deluxe version, I got my 1989 Taylor's version so I don't care if that vinyl gets done with bad luck.

"Just be truthful for once" she said. "Lily, who cares about all that? Why do you care? It's all in the past and firstly how is me doing all that going to affect you in any way? It's not like you are in love with me so you're doing a background check on me, also how the fuck do you think I'm responsible for Keres' break up with you? That jobless bitch just wanted you to suffer twice, he knew we both were close and was always jealous, you're falling for the trap that he created" I defended.

"Oh, so you expect me to believe Keres did this? For my misery? Look Scamander, Keres is not a psychopath, he ain't that big of a villian to think of such plots and schemes" She said with a straight face. "Yeah, never underestimate people who are too good for their own good" I said dramatically. "So you're telling me that you're a good guy who Keres framed?" She asked, raising her eyebrow.

"Yeah, you trust that Keres is innocent, why don't you trust me?" I asked and she started laughing hysterically. "YOU? INNOCENT? YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME" she said still giggling. "I don't know why you make me look like a Villain, what did I do to you which makes you think I'm some evil kid?" I asked.

"WOW! I was just waiting for this day! Ok so where do I start? Firstly, do you remember when you accidentally threw Lorcan's beach ball in the ocean and framed it on me, I looked like an idiot in front of aunt Luna and then you made me look like an absolute idiot and a jerk everytime, every slightest chance you get. You're also super rude to me. You also embarrass me every single chance you get. I mean what? Let it pass bitch. You also keep ordering and commanding me around and threatening me and-" she was going on when I exclaimed,

"Shut it! I get it ok? But these were silly things, nothing seems immoral. Why do you think I'll make the effort for YOU, you're so average" I said nonchalantly with a blank face and she hit my shoulder, "OI! SEE! AGAIN! INSULTING ME WHEN IT WAS ABSOLUTELY NOT NECESSARY" she said. "You really think I'm capable of pulling off such a stunt? For the concept of love that I despise?" I leaned towards her and she pulled her wand and pointed it.

"Don't come so close to me, I also left 'demise' in my dorm so don't make me curse you with some fancy blood curses I learnt from the restriction section" she said. "You're so overdramatic" I chuckled. "Yeah, yeah it will all seem like jokes now, until I stab you right on your back" she said, smiling cruelly.

"This is so exhausting you know? Like- We always fight and then we make up" I said looking at her hair blow in the breeze. "Who told you I forgave you?" she glared at me. "We're talking, I consider that as a huge achievement" I said. "I really miss talking to you and annoying you the way I used to. Your blank face with those cute expressions which change slightly but they mean so much" she said smiling as I looked at her.

Her green eyes squinted as she smiled. "I just really miss talking to you and dumping about my shitty life on you" she said. "You barely rant to me" I said. "Trust me, you're probably the only one who has seen me cry and just imagine my condition, you're the only one I rant to and that too I rarely do it. The feelings dumped in me are just too much don't you think?" She asked.

"You can talk to me whenever you want Lily, really. I'm always here, I'll never say no to listening to a rant, I love listening to people talk" I said looking at her sorrowfully. I feel bad, I feel guilty, I really love her but I didn't want to lose our friendship, our dorkiness and silliness is what made me like her.

"I just didn't want things to change between us" she said as she leaned on my shoulder and I felt warm. "If that's what you want- I'm ok with it" I said as I looked at her eyes and she looked right back into mine, we stared at each other both of us hopelessly in love with each other but scared, adamant, arrogant, stubborn and egoistic to admit it.

"Really?" She asked. "Cut the chase, I don't want to be doing this right now" I said rolling my eyes. Look, I know it seems like I have gone back to step one but I have a plan, I just have to time it and execute it perfectly without stuttering and freaking out.

"We'll always be friends, it's a ride or die ok? If we're going down we'll jump together" she said.

— LILY —

I felt quite reassured when he said we can be just friends. But I hate the fact that I didn't like it, I don't wanna be just friends but I have to. The main reason is that I want to love him but he broke my trust. He's selfish. Now he'll start by manipulating others. One day he'll manipulate me or leave me stranded for his pleasure and I can never face that. I think it's better to take the struggle and cut this growing affection while it's still tender.

BUT IS IT STILL TENDER?

I leaned on his shoulder looking at the lake. I felt eaze once more, my heart was beating for him but I couldn't- just for short time happiness I can't- I'm scared- I'm just scared to fall in love again, I'm scared to face a break up and live in fear of breaking up. That's the problem with me, I keep focusing on the future and I forget to live in the present and the castle crumbles.

Tiny fishes were tickling both of our feet giving us a free pedicure. "I really love you and I don't want to lose you" I squeaked looking at him tired of my yapping. "Moron! Are you listening?!" I asked getting angry at him for ignoring me. "I'm listening" he said blandly. "YOU DON'T SEEM LIKE IT" I snapped. "What do you mean?" He asked as he lifted his eyebrows slightly, losing it.

"You're supposed to say something nice back to me" I said. "You wanted me to listen so I was listening and now you get mad that I'm not talking seriously. What is your problem?" He said. Ehhh, maybe I am making this conversation boring, I know exactly how to celebrate the happiness of our weird ass friendship.

I playfully splashed the lake water on his face all over his clothes as he got soaked. He just sat there giving me a blank stare cursing me in his mind. "Seriously?" He asked. "Tis I, the water spitter" I said, giving myself the silliest name as I started splashing again as I used my legs to paddle.

"Potter stop" he said as he tried getting up. I held him. "You will die" I said as I pulled my wand out and made a huge ball of water and splashed it on his face. "Let's see who dies" he said grinning as he pulled out his wand as we started attacking each other with water bombs and deflecting the splashes.

This is probably one of the best things ever, I just love fighting with him and pulling his nerves. It's nice to see him so determined to defeat me. We both later quit the whole quirky water splash fight as a professor walked into the scene of us being TOTALLY IMMATURE which questioned our professional and mature reputation we display in school.

We both walked with our shoes hanging in our hand to a secret spot under the castle since I knew a secret corridor on how to get there with the help of the marauder's map. Grandpa, I LOVE YOU.

We both sat next to each other sitting inside the secret cave under the castle where the lake's backwaters were suttle and was of glowing emerald green and icy blue waters. It was so enchanting. The glowing creatures in the water lighting up the lake water with neon colors.

"How's you find this place?" Lysander asked. "I know many things you don't, this is one of them" I replied proudly. We both sat together right at the surface of the lake as I started yapping about my life. I told him everything- everything I wanted to tell someone- about how I don't to be just a smiling doll, on how I feel like I'm weak, on how I feel like I'm troubling everyone, I even told him how I felt about him- I told him straight up that I liked him, but I'll never be able to love him even if I wanted to.

He gave me some small pep talk and advice in the middle. I can't believe I have gone to such a stage that I'm asking Lysander, the dude who escaped from the mental asylum for life advice. But to be honest half of the advice he gave was like, 'Kill them', 'I'll murder them for you', 'Bury them alive', 'Just be brutally honest with them and give that savage reply you thought of'. I mean it's easy for you cause you hate people. I like people and I want them to love me but I don't like it when they dig on to me and provoke me.

He also criticized me for many of my silly and crazy mistakes like how I dated Jameson cause I liked Princeton and I wanted to make him jealous and well- that ended up in chaos because Princeton's girlfriend liked me but Jameson and Princeton's girlfriend somehow ended up together and I got mad at Jameson and tried breaking those two up but then I found Keres.

We probably talked for over an hour, I didn't even feel time passing. He just listened and I just talked.

— LYSANDER —

I love everything about her, her playfulness, her smiles and of course I loved her fear, embarrassment and awkwardness. Her dark delusional schemes for killing me are my most favorite. I really miss the presence of 'demise'.

I loved watching her talk and listening to the voice of her sound and the expressiveness of her. I was just enjoying myself looking at her eyes and her red hair. She's just so irresistible. It's hard being just friends with someone who constantly looks up to you and annoys you. I mean I honestly have nothing in my life entertaining or fun except her.

I love all her complications, it's irritating but it's fun how she gives a twist to always solving the equation for her. I just watched her lips move and turn into smiles, I want them. Her red hair bouncing in the breeze, I want it too. Her eyes make my heart explode, I want to gouge them out for myself, I want her soft skin on mine. I want her charisma, I just want every part of her. Call me selfish, I don't care, I want her to love me and own me how much I love her and own her.

Usually I'm always looking at my watch waiting for the day to be over but when I'm with her I just wish time stops and plays back so I can spend more time. "Ok I should stop. I'm talking too much. I'm getting thirsty and tired and I'm boring you" she said. Our shirts had already dried up and it looked so weird filled with brown spots and splashes and mud.

"We're such a mess" she said. "We're both just so lost, confused, lonely and fucked up in the head" I replied with a chuckle. "It's ok we're the best of friends" she said as she hugged me and wrapped her arms around me. I slowly brought my hands to hug her back and she put her wand on my throat.

"I can touch you, hug you and do whatever I want but you should never lay your hands on me. You're mine but I'm not yours" she said as she glared at me. "Stop acting like my toxic girlfriend" he said. "I am your toxic girlSPACEfriend" she said as smiled in the comfort of his chest.

I don't understand why her ego can't allow her to try me. Literally she dates the most idiotic people in Hogwarts but she's scared of me? Come one Lils, you're a playgirl just try me once, if you don't like it we'll stop.

She just knows me too well because if she says yes to me she knows she'll be dying in my cruel love towards her. But she does understand how much I NEED her.

—LILY—

"It's hard you know- being friends with someone who doesn't act like your friend" he said as he brought himself closer to me. He's at it again, I should have known better. I pulled away from him as he neared me. "You're really going to do this again? Scamander- I-" I started and my heart started racing again as he placed his fingers on my lips to shut me up.

"I don't understand why people use drugs like cocaine, weed, meth and all let's be honest you're way more addictive and powerful than them" he said in a low sexy voice my face was burning, that was so fucking romantic.

He stealthily closed up and wrapped his hands around me, one on my shoulder and one around my waist which titillated me. "Lysander stop" I said as he just looked at me blinded and hypnotised.

My heart was pounding, my cheeks were red, Lily pull yourself together, don't fall for his traps. "Reward me for saving your life" he muttered as he leaned closer and our noses rubbed.

Reward you? Oh, yes I will. I put on a sly smile and put my arms on his shoulder as I moved closer. "Pick your poison, kiss or kiss" I asked as I turned on my seductive voice and gazed with a flirty expression. He chuckled as I gushed forward and our lips rubbed against each other.

His lips were so soft, softer than my memory foam, I really want him but maybe in my next life, so should I kill him? Or should I kiss him and kill him? Revenge or self pleasure and revenge? Nah, he doesn't deserve my lips, let him die and suffer alone in hell.

I pressed my nails into his skin behind his neck as I was intoxicated by his cologne and I mumbled onto his lips as I crashed my lashes with his, "I swear, I never wanted to do this to you, I always saw you as my friend" I muttered.

—LYSANDER—

My tortured heart skipped, her pink delicate lips rubbing on mine as she mumbled into them. I wanted to taste her. Her sweet smelling lip gloss made me want to bite her lips. Can we fuck this friendzoning for a minute and take the moment and taste it.

When she said she saw me as a friend, I knew that she wanted me to bait me to make me think it's going to be a kiss. Plot twist, I'm smarter than her.

Her fingers running behind my back as they slid below my collar to feel my collarbone I felt an urge and tendency to just-

"Surprise" she mumbled as her nose and forehead rubbed against mine and she pulled me in for a kiss and right before our lips pressed- she pushed me into the lake- I saw this coming- I grabbed her shirt collar and pulled her in the water with me.

The water was only around 6 feet deep. My legs hit the rocky bottom and I pushed myself upwards and stood in the pool of the backwaters. I could stand on my tip toes to keep my head above the water.

Lily later came floating upwards as she swam towards me and started straggling me as she tossed her arms around my neck. "PSYCHO!" She screamed into my ear as she started smiling and laughing. "We're friends, if we go down we go down together. You said it" I said as I adjusted her hair and tucked her wet dripping hair behind her ear.

"Murder attempt unsuccessful" she said as she grabbed my head and forced it inside the water and drowned me in the water. I pulled her hair and she left my hair, "MY HAIR" she screamed. "MY LIFE" I screamed back at her face.

"QUIT THIS FUCKING DRAMA" she said. "Friends don't know the way you taste" I said as I grabbed her shoulder and pulled her closer, "I can't deny that but- I don't want you" she replied as she played with my hair and I felt her poke her wand in my back. "Stop pretending, come to reality. You'll die for me" I said with a smug smile.

Her nails sunk into my back and he scratched me, my sweet cute orange cat was sinking her nails into me, my skin burned as she scratched down my back, "Just consider yourself lucky" she muttered into my ear.

"Lucky? Mercy is overrated and also is forgiveness, just give people the karma they deserve" I said as I placed my face on the nick of her neck as I kissed her neck. "I'll give you love for my blood, Karma is corrupted" I muttered as she grabbed my hair and tried to break my neck as she tried pushing me away. She sunk her nails harder-

—LILY—

Blood trickled into his white shirt as some faded away into the water. Why isn't he backing away? "Leave me, I'll stop" I said as I secretly enjoyed his snuggles on my neck. Then I felt his teeth sink into my neck. FUCKING VAMPIRE-

JUST BEACUSE HE DRESSES UP LIKE A VAMPIRE DOESN'T MEAN HE IS ONE.

I pulled his blonde hair and grabbed his face and pushed him away. I pulled out my wand and I ascended from the water. I reached the ground, I ran like an idiot, soaked running in the corridor in my uniform trying not to slip, I didn't dare to turn back and check on him.

I went up to the prefects bathroom and dried myself up and blow dried my hair and I turned myself into a new Barbie doll in an hour. I touched the part where he bit me, a mark, probably temporary but every time I touched it I felt light hearted. His wet blonde hair, his wet shirt, he was just so- soothing I want him- I want him so bad- I guess I'll enjoy this as we play cat and mouse until he eventually gives up.

His heavy breath on my neck, his warm skin. I layed on my dorm bed thinking of today- thinking of him- Imagine wanting something so bad- You need it so bad- You have the money- But- Ok this is a bad comparison, I can't think of a proper comparison.

His fingers- I want them to tease me. I touched the bite mark- "DUDE WHAT IS THAT?" Michelle asked, looking at my neck. "I uh- well a dog bit me" I lied. "A dog?" Diana said grinning, she knew. "Who is he-" Diana asked. "I swear it was a golden retriever, I was sitting by the lake and it just bit me" I lied, oh gosh I feel ashamed to call this a lie.

"Hogwarts has a stray golden retriever? Next time you see one, please kidnap it for me. My mom won't get me one" Michelle said, actually believing this shitty lie.

Diana glared at me. SHE KNEW.

—LYSANDER—

Sometimes, I just feel like a ghost. People keep running away from me. Here I am alone in the lake like a complete idiot. I walked through the secret corridors to Gryffindor tower when I was met by Val and Jared on the way.

"Dude, what's wrong with you? You look DRIPPY" Val said as he started laughing at his own joke and I just gave a blank stare. "Ok, what actually happened though?" Jared asked. "Well, I tried helping this orange cat as it was stuck on top of the tree and it fell into the lake so I rescued it" I said and then he looked at the back of my shirt with a few blood stains.

"Am I supposed to be concerned about that?" Jared asked horrified. "That fucking orange cat scratched me, it was pretty as fuck though" I said. "Don't go telling that around when Sugars is around, she'll get jealous" Jared said and laughed. "Let's go to the dorm and get you fixed up" my sweet MOMMY JJ said as we walked to the dorm together after a long day.

I really love Lily, I love her so much- I just want her to cooperate with me for once. So she can make us both feel alive. Because without her love, I would be needing stitches for my tortured heart.

—LILY—

I looked at the mirror, I adjusted my hair hoping Lysander would appear behind me and hug me so tight and crush my ribs. I saw 'demise' on the table. I smiled, I want to torture him- I want to torture him so much- I want him to go crazy and hate me- I want all his aggressive love too-

I'm crazy-

But don't blame me, love made me crazy and if it doesn't

YOU AIN'T DOING IT RIGHT-

—X—O—𝐿𝒾𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇—X—O—