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Neil

"Oooh god it's too much" my voice came out as a loud groan, I jerked up my head away the spot it was buried in her chest and panting hard I was upright on the matress.
I just kissed her on her....damn how could I do such grave!

As soon as our eyes met I realised, I shouldn't have crossed that line whereas her comfort zone should be my first preference.
Even I didn't have proposed her yet.

Avni looked at me all perplexed, gathering back her breath. That was got caught her inside few seconds back, by my involuntary actions, I could say. Causiously propping her arms both sides she straightened up, brushed her hands over her disheavled hair sobering them down. She was breathing hard as I was.

"Do something to turn me off" I blew out few erratic breaths, ran a hand through my hair tugging them into fist and another one rested on my hip. My eyes snapped to face her. Should I apologise to her for my act instead.

"What!!" Her eyes narrowed, forehead creased. I looked away.

"Yes, say something c'mon" my voice beseeched, I was walking back and forth rubbing two fingers over my forehead.
It took her some seconds to comprehend, that I was highly turned on and need to be diverted. There was a tint of red her cheeks spread and it was nothing close to any help. God I can't take this anymore.

I shouldn't have got carried away in the first place. Shit what came over me, that I took forward that step! She must be thinking of me pervy. Even she could have contended me. Why didn't she! It's so frustratingly awkward.

"I....I kick you out of this room"any how she spoke through her stammering phrase and I jumped on my jiggling feet. My thoughts broke, gaze fell on her. she faltered, bit her lips looked away.

Nothing was more turned on than that at the sight when my gaze fall on her lips, few minutes away they were inside my mouth. I tore my gaze away that dangerous spot. Here I am struggling through every ounce of my nerve to dissolve down my turned on state, and there she is doubling it, making everything more difficult biting her delicious lips infront of me being all innocent. Fucking crap.

"What the hell! its not working" I groaned, baffled, walked towards the bed and thumped my ass on the mattress, sat there for a while silent and then dropped on my back. I draped my face,talked through my hands. My voice came out, like I'm talking from some enclosed space. It was muffled.

"Neil" her voice worried. Avni was sitting to the headrest, my head was just few hands away her knees. She leaned to me,put her hands on my shoulder but there wasn't any movement I made. My palms were still over my face.

"How dare you touch me, you made me feel slut" her words came out gnawing, Avni made another attempt to get me out of that state. That caused my hands pushed away my face and I shot my eyes at her. My jaws flexed. How could she use such shitty word for ownself!
I felt my chest tightened, something outrage was building inside me.

She succeeded diving my state into something else but it was in a worst way.

"Okay stop. that's enough" I pulled my body up on the mattress, my hands clamped the bed edge.

"Is it!" Though my back was turned to her, I know Avni was biting her nails at that moment, she always do the same in her nervousness. She had noticed my hard face.

"Don't say it again. I didn't like it" my tone was hard.I stood up on my feet and silently walked across the bed, moved to my side. I settled a pillow down the headrest, prepared to lie down there. Her eyes followed me, I looked up and she lowered her gaze.

"Yup I know. Sorry" she quitly replied, fiddling with the hem of her loose Tee.

"You shouldn't have used that word god damn" I hollered, couldn't keep my temper in control, threw the pillow that was in my grip, harshly. It hit the space between us and sit there. Her shoulder flinched, she looked up. I looked away scrubbed my face roughly. My breath raised in rage and I brought back my stif gaze at Avni.

"It just slipped...." she looked away, couldn't stare at my piercing gaze over her. My teeth clenched, jaws pained.

"Even I can't see you feeling sorry, for anything over me" I groaned in exasperation. It's a sick feeling thinking of making my girl scared of me. God what would I do with this girl.

My temper subsided, my body softened looking at her constricted face. I huffed running my fingers through my hair before taking the seat down on the mattress and resumed speaking letting out another harsh inhale then exhale. This time my voice held care.

Avni

Even I can't see you feeling sorry, for anything over me.

His words made my stomach flattered, my eyes went up, stopped at his face.

"It's 1am. We need to get up early tomorrow. Let's grab some sleep" he looked unfazed not as furious as he was few minutes before. Then I saw Neil opened his arm to take mine into his palm over the soft matress.

"Come here" he reached out his arm to touch mine.

"it's okay" my voice shook a bit, I looked away. But not much longer, I could look away his such gentle full of love gaze. Is he in love with me!

I shrugged off my irritating heart's uncertain words knocking to me. My eyes darted back at him and he retorted "No it's not. Come here, I said" there was a authorative hint in his voice. But still it wasn't close a bit intolerable or overpowering not to obey him. That I always do, I obey him. I bit my lips took a breath much heavier. My hand moved towards him hesitantly.

"Now everything is okay" he held my hand tightly and beamed. Neil pulled his legs up on the bed and motioned me through his eyes to lie on my side, he adjusted my pillow before I rested my head on it. He is so sweet most of the time. My eyes didn't leave him.

He pulled the duvet over my stomach and I pulled it over my chest. He halted a bit, his lips pursed a smile. My eyes slightly knitted in response at his smile. He was leaning to me a hand space afar.

"You don't need to shy around me I told you. Be comfortable." Saying those words his eyes fell on my chest and went back to my eyes.His smile grew wider.
I know what he is talking about and so I'm not into conversing a single letter with him about that topic. Please god not again. I prayed, gulped hard.

"I.....I am comfortable" my cheeks flushed, hiding them I grumped and clutched the fabric close to my face. I looked away, felt goosebumps over the back of my neck.

"It seems not you are" his eyes fixed at me full of concerned. He should stop this convo right now or I would smack across his face. I swear.

"Bachha it's not healthy" He scooted closer, my neck stiffened I moved back ward. How the hell he knows all this girly stuffs! I got tensed but leaving me surprised his hands went upon my head.he slowly ran his fingers over my hair. I realised I have told him few minutes back before kissing him, there at that room.

Who could say, he was just so close to loose his temper few minutes back and now he is all adorable!

"I said.I'm alright" I looked away, bite my inner cheeks. It's so embarrassing.

"Then why didn't you let me sleep in that other room" I snapped back my gaze at him. My brows creased, showed my discontentment.

"Because someone else sleep there" there was a hint of playfullness in his voice but he kept it much serious.

"Who!" I almost attempt to get up. My forehead snapped deeper. Who the hell he is talking about.

"A girl with long hair and twisted legs" he made his voice low, intimidating, his eyes went at the closed door behind me. My eyes widened. Wait what!!

"Neil" a shriek came out of my throat, my heart beats raced. That's spooky.

"Yes she is there, must be sitting on the bed now" he answered casually. He laid beside, adjusted his head on the pillow, his amused face straight at me.

"Don't say all these creepy things" I warned him, swallowed taking a quick uneasy glance to the door. And stupid me scooted closer to him; to the man who made me freaked out just now, I'm shifting closer to him. Fucking helplessness of mine.

And he chuckled. Nerve of him. my fist balled, I just want to tear off that irritating mirth off his face.

"I hate you" I was about to turn my waist other side being really very agitated at the same time scared. I don't like to discuss those creepy things. I scared of them a lot, a lot means to the extent. That's why I always avoid watching horror movies. They are just horrible.
And he immediately gripped my arm that was on his side.

"Hey, Don't" his smirk disappeared, instead his gaze held something inexplicable. I felt squeamish with this sudden change of his expression, playful to extreme serious.

"Avni!!" his tender voice caused butterflies flapping wings inside my stomach my agitation blew away in a secon. This man never fails to give me those stomach churning effects. Just with his simple voice calling my name.

"Okay, I'm sorry. but I'm not" I grumbled, closed my eyes and reopened. His eyes softened.

I pulled my hands reluctantly to his face, rubbed my thumb on the skin slightly at side of his lips. He leaned to my finger tips, his beautiful eyes stared mine. I love him.

He heaved a deep sigh, his hands go back caressing my hair. It was still there, he only had stopped stroking them. He shifted slightly to put the light off. He had already left my hand few minutes before while talking to me so I slipped my both arms inside the pillow.

"Good night" he kissed on my forehead before moving to his side and I instantly missed his warmth.

"Goodnight" I pulled my hands out of the comforter and wrapped them around his arm to my side and a smiled lined on my lips closing my eyes shut.

"Shit" within a minute a yelp came out of my mouth before I pressed it shut on his shoulder.

"What happened" he panicked, almost moved to put on the light. But I stopped him. "Please don't" I yelled, my voice trembled,my eyes shut, heart racing faster.

He shifted a bit I felt. Thank god he had switched off the light already or I would have embarrassing mess by now.

"What happened, why you cursed then!" He queried in dark. I can feel his bewildered gaze over me.

"Nothing" I quickly replied.

"Are you sure!" He concerned.

I just hummed in reply.

His shoulder moved away my hands and it went to my back over my waist. Hell.
He pulled me to his chest. And I can feel my bra is moving upward to my neck that has unclasped by my movements few seconds ago.
Shit. I sinked my head inside the comforter.

Neil

I felt sorry for Avni. Because of the late ticket booking, our seat parted. She threw a surly gaze at me standing there letting a couple to get inside their seats beside her.

I was two row away her at the other side. It was 6:45 in the morning, our flight will be take off around 7:00am, by then Mom has already gave me 5calls and sent 4messages telling me to call her once the flight about to take off, she will send the driver. My home is half an hour driveway distance from airport.

"Every night with her is different experience. Those few she has spent at my place" A light chuckle blew out my lips watching her that pouty face when a beautiful air hostess requested her with her professional overly sweet tone to take her sit, while Avni was busy looking for me over the row.

Pushing my only luggage, that a medium size sling inside the luggage cabin upward, I settled down on my seat next to an elderly Man. He wore a black business suit. He looked much reserved. We share a simple greeting smile as our gaze met and next moment he got busy, gluing his eyes into his macbook. I averted my gaze.

Avni asked me about my luggage last night. I told her I have plenty of clothes already there at my home I don't need some more to carry along.

Mom keeps shop for me every month. That's the reason I hardly carry clothes leaving to my home apart only that sling of mine, my only luggage.

I took a glance around before leaning against my seat and shoved my hands in my pocket to pulled out my iphone.

•Hey• putting my ph in flight mode, I texted Avni as soon as we got into floating.

•Why didn't you tell me I'm gonna sit this far away you• Her immediate reply came. I chuckled inwardly, I can actually imagine how petulant she looked while typing.

•When I had booked my ticket, I didn't know we will be together• I replied along a smiley.

•When did you book it• she surely frowned.

•A week before I asked you to come with me•

•That's not true. Is that!•

•It's because of the rush, it happens this month every year• I tried to explain.

•Ooh• her reply came.she might have huffed clicking the send button.

•Are you hungry• I asked, though I have already assumed her answer shall be.

•Nope. We had the breakfast few minutes ago at the airport right!•That's what I assumed. Yes we had around 6:30

•Still, if you want some kind of freshners, some fruit juices• I insisted.

•Get some if you want, not for me• That's a fretful reply. I suppressed not to chuckle biting my lips.

•Later• And I sent two smiley along.

•Are you sleepy• I texted.

•Why•

•Actually I got really struggle waking you up in the morning today, so I was wondering you must be feeling sleepy• a smile crept on my lips recalling her face when I wake her up around 4 in the morning. She sat there on the bed few minutes, her eyes closed, her face dropped, with my another call from the door way
"bachha!!!" she got off, unwillingly walked to the washroom with her eyes half closed. By then I had almost brushed my teeth and grab my coffee mug after putting her share of hot milk in therma. She just had to add sugar and coffee pouring it into the mug.

• then let me tell you, it wasn't morning. It was dawn. Accuratly 4 am• few seconds back her reply came with that eyes rolling emoticon. That made my grin broadened.

I was grinning looking at my ph screen.

•Now can I ask you something• my grin slightly lightened. I felt a chill blow passed through my spine. I adjusted my back a bit on my seat, took a quick glance at that man beside me. He is still immersed reading something on the macbook screen.

My eyes landed back on my ph screen close to my lap. There wasn't any reply came from her side. I craned my head to take a glance over her, she was ahead me. And she did the same. She whirled her head behind,looked at me. Our gaze met. I smiled slightly as if assuring her for my next texts. She smiled back. I can feel from that far she was a bit bemused.

•Ask• she straightened her neck back, immediately replied.

•How long you are crushing on me!• before I pressed the sent button, I felt my heart beats rose up.

•What do you mean• her reply came fastest. I don't need to see her to say she is surprised as much as I am, from my own sentence.

•I just want to know the time span• the curiosity growing higher inside me.

•Yeah I got you•

•So•

•So• she mimicked me, replied the same.

•Please. Don't play• It was quite visible, how desperate I was to know, through my each text.

•Ohhhaky okay• a relief sigh blew out my nose my body relaxed looking at the words she sent as a reply within a second. Seems she has stopped pushing me.

•Go to your ig dm request..• it took me time to register in my brain what just she wrote. I quickly sent her
•Did you send me dm texts! Did you!• I felt my heart skipped with some unknown possibilities. breath caught my throat.

•See it• she replied back even more quicker and sent her username along.

She cut my call. Instead her text caused flash my screen."Hey why are you calling me!!"

•I just want to kiss you. Right now• I frantically typed and it showed seen immediately it got sent.

That's what I felt reading all her messages since last fifteen minutes or definitely some more than that holding my breath don't know how long. I read all of them, she had sent me untill my this birthday. That's something pulse throbbing, exultant. Though it got me struggled finding her dms among those crowd of huge bunches of request messages my fans keep sending me. Most of them I didn't accept and also the reads are pending.

I realised I haven't yet started following her in insta and her account is private.

She waited, didn't send any more text asking me if I have seen all of them.
I read all of them.
Probably she had commented in all my stories I have posted long back, those no more existed. I wish I could have remembered all of them, exactly what I had posted. So many wishes she had sent for my birthday every year, so many texts are there congratulating me for my various upcoming events that I have had shared through my insta stories everytime.

Damn. She follows me.

"It all has been started playing the time killing, never knew it will end up something breath catching" that's all I can say going through her messages over and over again.

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Sometimes I think I explain too much;))))))

Love MoN.