(I'm back again, I was thinking of updatin again yesterday but didn't so I will now )

I laid on my bed trying to sleep but the silence was killing me, not one noise was heard ever in my house..

Well not anymore.. But that's a different story, I gave up and got up slowly from my bed rubbing my eyes I glanced over at the clock

3:13am

Again? I groaned putting my face in my hands "why can't I just sleep?"
Maybe I was afraid of the dark? Had a bit to much coffee? I don't know..
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Mathias's pov---

I sat in the corner of my room with my head against the wall thinking about nothing really... Again

Wait there's something...

--flashback--
He an Lukas were sitting in living room of their shared home

"Hey Lukas what do you want to do today?" He looked over brightly smiling at the Norwegian whom was reading a book

He sighed closing his book and set it beside him " Jeg vil at du skal forlate"

His eyes widened "w-why? D-did I do something wrong?"

Lukas frowned at him "yes, you talked to me, touched me, met me, and you were born.. your annoying, loud, obnoxious and i cant stand being around you " he pointed towards the door

He looked down sadly "but I don't want to leave you..." Lukas stood up "I don't care I told you to leave now leave!" He snapped

Mathias got up ad went to the door opening it slowly "sorry.. Bye Lukas I'll see you around " he left the building, tears flowing down his cheeks out of nowhere
--end of flash back-- ((shortened it))

He put his hands on his face "I need to get over that.. It happened a long time ago why do I care anyways"

He put his hands down and slowly got up "why wouldn't I care.." He went over to his desk and picked up a picture frame and looked at it

It was a picture of Lukas and himself, he was smiling with one arm around Lukas and his other in front of him he was making a thumbs up , Lukas had a faint smile on his face and was looking at Mathias also making a thumbs up

It was their 8th grade picture.. If your curious they were chosen for best friends, they each got to keep a copy of the picture

He wasn't sure if Lukas kept it or not, he highly doubted it but there was a small chance he had it at one point then threw it away

He put the frame back down and walked into the bathroom digging his blade out of the drawer

Maybe a couple more than yesterday.. More marks less pain he smile and began to cut

Again and again