I very much appreciate this picture, it does not only give me a little blue inside the tortured soul I try to hinder but also something helps to make me realise how much feeble effort I used to waste for the past. Someone will hiss, actually, they do not even give a shit to feel how much pain I am in now, they just look for a while, wonder why on earth I need to write in English about such a kind of picture caption. I do say I wanna hide my real feelings, ahuh? I write like this cos some may read but some do not. It fulfils my own purpose. You see in the picture that even you are the only one somebody cares for, you still run the risk of being blurred by odds and ends. To be frank, I wanted to set my camera on the left flower, as you see more sunlight there, don't you? But by some mysterious ways, the right one also jumped the chance of being caught in the shot. Yay maybe you will say it does not make sense, not at all, or run wild rubbishing my methods of having a pretty good pic to post, it does not matter. I do not bother to mind those things. The message I want to convey is whether you are an important person to someone, or even you are the whole world to someone, there is nothing to be sure, nothing can tell you that in the future, you still get the same position. It is not a warning honestly, it is an experience, by some ways of feeling and undergoing suffocating cases, I do want to stay mirthless, keeping a wry smile always, flinging myself into countless no-name activities, with a view to running away from the idea that I have been refused. There are plenty more fish in the sea, it is a saying I do not like really, why, woa, I don't want to look for "replacement" when I am down, I am a girl and unlike some kinds of girls, running around saying hello to boys and randomly pick up one to be their "contemporary lover". In my case, I need time to calm down, to think over and free myself from unsaid things, not to look for somebody else. I used to hold the belief that if you get a new one, who is much better than your ex, it will be like sitting pretty, you are the princess happily hand in hand with the perfect prince. Then, then what, that's it, ending. I do change my mind now, the slogan "From now on, boys do not exist" surely continue to stay firmly in my thoughts, but hopefully to look ahead, in the far future, please bring me someone I can lean on, care for and love till the end of life, please God.