I couldn't sleep at night. Everything that Greyson had said seemed to make sense, my parents if anything were not like me, although they treated me as their daughter but my brother never did. Until Emma came along he changed for the better but then when she died it was like he reverted back into his old self. My sister didn't like me but I had always felt that it was part of being sisters as we were similar in age. 

"Lilian Winchester" a voice awoken me up the next morning, i sat up on my bed and was quickly meet with eyes of a predator, I screamed. 

The said predator quickly shifted and covered my mouth and stared down at me, "Lilian it's me!"

i stared at my mate with disbelief, "what are you doing here?"

"Look, despite anything that has happened I understand what it is like to love someone else. And not the one destined to be yours." Blake began as his eyes glowed golden, his eyes showing how vulnerable he was and how much it pained him to just let me go. 

I couldn't believe how much i wanted my own mate to be my own, i hated being alone; but I couldn't bring myself to get close to Blake. No matter what but im tired of pulling away. I'm tired of having to be someone else. I am tired of being someone's second choice, and that was what i was doing with Blake. 

"We have so much to fix Blake, our relationship has been shitty, with you hating me and me telling you that I didnt love you and Gabriel coming into the picture." i said as i stared at him, placing my hand over his own. 

"I understand, it has been a wild rollercoaster, but I think it's time to talk it out? You've been pushing me ever since we met. And my wolf is growing restless knowing everything we have been going through. I'm sure you understand dont you?" he asked as he held my hand.

I nodded, it was time to accept my own mate. 

"Who is Gabriel?" he asked, as we sat in the kitchen as I made some tea, his golden eyes staring and playing with a stress ball.

"He used to be someone I loved, well I still do; but not as I had before. We went to school together, until he left one day. I was pretty much distraught but life moves on you know. I honestly thought I still loved him to the point where you smelled him on me." I started while handing him a cup and sitting down across from him, i tried to smile a little but even now I was still heartbroken. 

"What changed?" he asked as he blew into the hot cup of tea, his wounds still healing from the day before. 

"He told me he had found his mate." i said, my voice sounding with pain, i saw blakes eyes show pity but i didnt want it. " I relized that my love for him was not enough, he then said that she had her own life and rejected him. And i guess that is why he came back here."

He nodded, but stayed silent. 

"I can't say I was not jealous or that I am now. It's hard to hear that you loved him enough. But I want to ask, had he not found his mate or have told you the reason for leaving out of thin air would you have still loved him? " he asked after a few moments, I knew what I was going to say was going to devestate him a little.

"I wanted to be with gabriel, yes, but at the end of the day I know that he was domed to find his own mate. His own everything. But had he not told me I wouldn't be talking to you right now. That is my honest truth." i said while feeling guitly as his eyes flashed with hurt and betrayal.

"Do you love me?" he asked as he stared into my own eyes and held my gaze. 

I stared back, "I love you Blake, but our relationship needs to grow for me to love you like a mate should. I have to admit that all of my emotions have been all over the place, I really don't know what to do. I'm lost. I just want everything with my brother to be done with. I just want to settle down and have kids and have fun and live with someone. I'm tired."

He nodded his head," I understand, but you must realize that the mate bond will get stronger if you begin to accept me and sooner or later you will not be able to resist."

"Why did you come here, after everything?" I asked, i tilted my head.

"I may have told my mother about us, she said that love prevails against anything. That having a mate brings its challenges. That no one is perfect, not even the mate bond. But I had a choice of leaving you forever or fighting to be with you. Despite anything Lilian I love you. You are my mate, the same person who I met at the bar and the same person who we worked on the project together. Life has given us all obstacles, but love is given truly once. And I want to be with you. " he said as he stared at me, his eyes told the truth, his voice ranged deep within my core and opened up a feeling I've never felt before. 

This man wanted me.

He wanted the real me.

He is fighting for me. 

Something that not even Gabriel gave me before.

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HII :D

- sillychica