Hey there, Surely everything is fine, right? I hope so.I'm still trying to understand my feelings, know who I am, and not cause trouble to people around me as much as possible.I still struggle every day, every hour, every minute, every second. I always feel like I'm trying or sometimes even failing to make a difference and find a way out for myself.

Recently, I have had to take quite a lot of medications, including depression medications, bipolar disorder relapse prevention medications, vitamins, and brain supplements. It seems like the pills have become grains of rice for me every day when I take the pills at every meal rather than eat rice.

Through that time, I've always wished I could have a few "normal days", up until now, where I have a moment to catch my breath and see the view around me a bit without trying to think about the work.

Every day I beat myself up, so exhausted that just breathing makes me tired to death. It's unreasonable, I don't do anything to make myself exhausted, but I can't even hold a cup, even sitting up and walking a few steps makes me tired, every morning I wake up disheveled, my clothes are messy, and my hair is messy. My mind is always foggy...or should I just disappear? This disease doesn't make me think normally, my brain is damaged, and these drugs make me dependent on it.

When will it be the last time? Until then, I will quietly leave and wish you a peaceful stay. Eat enough meals, get enough sleep, do things you like, and live happily.

Saigon, 

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