I'm on my bed sobbing right now. My bff Fynn once told me I have perfect tears. I think of that every time I cry. So, an ex friend i have is just talking to me and we're just kinda arguing and it's kinda hurting cuz I still love them, ya'know? So, I'm just out her sobbing. Is it manipulative to express your emotions? I don't know anymore. I think I'm just not good at knowing when to express them. Yeah, that's it. It's the times when you cry that may seem manipulative. Bad thing is though, I don't know how to control my tears. I hate this. I'm sorry. I don't know how to fix this. I'm sorry. I still love you man. I love you a lot and you're probably reading this thinking I'm lying and manipulating you but I'm not and I don't know why you can't believe me. I don't think I've ever manipulated you ever and if i have I'm sorry. Why won't this end why won't this end why won't this end why won't this end?