No. Not a Drake or CB song, but it fits 1000%. Take a listen, you'll like it. 😌
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*A MONTH LATER*

Mercedes POV

"I'm worried about her." I day to Dori.

"I am too. I ask her if she's okay and she tells me yes. Every time I ask I get that response."

"She tells me the same thing. I've never really seen her like this. I've been with her through multiple break ups and I've never gotten this. I'm really worried." I say

"The only thing we can do is be there for her."

"I just wish she would open up to me. She doesn't have Joe anymore, and she still won't talk."

"She hasn't said much in the last month about him. I know she misses him but it's like she refuses to talk about him."

"I think she thinks he's coming back. It's almost like she's in denial." I say

"She kinda is. She still talks like he's coming back and it's been a month. I told him that I would tell her after a couple of weeks but I really thought he would call her. The fact that he didn't is messed up on his part." She says

"It is but maybe he didn't want to talk to her. Maybe he just lied to get out. He probably had no intention of calling her, and he just told you whatever. And to be honest, that's perfectly fine. But she needs to understand, he ain't coming back so stop talking about it. She needs to get herself together and move the fuck on."

"I agree." She says. "I'm going to try to talk to her, tell her we're worried about her."

"I'm telling you, the bitch is telling us she's good. Meanwhile, she is spiraling on the inside, and it's only a matter of time before she explodes, sets some shit on fire. I know my cousin."

Shawnie's POV

It has been a month since all of that bullshit happened at the hotel. My dad flew in to help me move, and I have officially moved into my new home. I have been super busy with unpacking and decorating and honestly it has taken my mind off of lots of shit that I have going on. It has been a really good mental break that I am super busy with this and it's honestly been good for me.

I love having my dad here and although he isn't moving in with me quite yet, he will be moving in with me. He has a lot of things that he has to get an order before he moves, but we have started that process to get him here. He has the other master suite in the house and it's furnished. All we have to do now is get his things from Chicago and sell the house there. I'm so excited.

I am officially divorced. That actually happened about a week after he brought the police to my suite. I'm very happy that it's official and I am free. I am not bound to him anymore but I can't say I'm excited about it. When I got the news I was just like "oh okay". I wasn't jumping up and down or screaming or anything. I guess it was more of a relief than anything. It's been a long process and the last year and a half have been mostly hell. I am happy that that chapter is closed and I'm starting a new one.

Mercedes and Dori have been keeping me focused and they have been really good to me lately. I don't know exactly why I think they just feel bad for me but Mercedes is being the Mercedes that I always wanted her to be and I love it. She's very supportive of me right now and that's something that I need. Plus, she really hasn't had much to say about my personal life and that has always been an issue between the two of us. She likes to butt in, but I just chalk it up to she just cares about me and wants me to be okay.

Dori is such a good friend to me and she is definitely somebody that I'll see in my life for a very long time. She's been with me throughout this whole process and she's been amazing. I honestly don't have any complaints about anything that she's done because I feel like it's all been in my best interest and there has been nothing shady going on. I don't keep a lot of friends around me especially since Cassidy but she has shown me that I can still have good friends.

Aubrey really hasn't bothered me much lately. He's actually been very pleasant to coparent with. He brings Atlas over and he doesn't ask to come in or see the house or anything like that. He pretty much just stays in the driveway and we do the exchange, and he goes off, and does his own thing, whatever that may be. I can only wish things are going to stay like this, but I do see that they're not. We've had one incident where I can just write it off as him being jealous. I might've suggested I was seeing someone which was pretty much just a follow up of what Mercedes told him and it wasn't true, but he kind of went on a messaging spree and messaged guys that I was following saying that we were still together and for them to leave me alone. The overall situation was funny to me, but I guess I shouldn't have said anything, but in my defense, I didn't know he was going to do that.

Aubrey and I still love each other. I know there's nothing wrong with that but...... I feel like there is a part of both of us that still wants to be with the other one. It's not just him, it's me too. I don't want to see him being friendly and hugging or touching anybody else. I know he feels the same way. This divorce is new to us and it's a process. It's a mental process. So we are both trying to deal with it.

I have gotten to know my new assistant Olivia pretty well. It's not like I have all of this work to do and I really feel like I don't need her but she has been very helpful to me these last few weeks. I'm an organized person anyway, but she definitely has helped me get things organized around the house and business wise I have been gathering information and looking into practicing again. I have been getting a lot of offers for TV. They want me to do a reality show and I'm just not the reality show type of person. I just turn everything down. I love my privacy, and as much as I hate the paparazzi, I would take them over having cameras in my house literally watching my every move possibly 14 hours a day. They can keep that shit. So she's been a big help when it comes to things like that.

Something else I have been getting used to is my two new bodyguards. Let's start with Kevin, he is the type of person who doesn't really say much, but when he has something to say, it's pretty impactful and sometimes a little rude. He reminds me of Joe in that sense, and just like Joe, he's very nice to look at. Ben, he's super cool. I actually like him a lot and if I had to choose one or the other, he would be my choice. He likes to ask questions and understand why something is happening or why something is a certain way. You can tell he's just soaking up as much information as he can. He is more my speed.

A subject I have been avoiding for the last month is Joe. That whole situation that took place still bothers me. I haven't spoken to him, and that bothers me even more. I don't know the conversation him and Dori had but I know the conversation that we had and I felt something was off. I felt like he was quitting on me, but he told me he wasn't. Fast forward one month, he has definitely quit in my eyes. He just hasn't said anything to me. Dori and I have talked a little bit about the situation and she has told me a couple of times that it's not me, it's something that he has to deal with. He said the same thing but I still feel like Dori isn't telling me the full story. I don't like the direction in which things are going and I have sat back for a month and I haven't said anything to him but I'm getting to the point where I need answers. I cannot keep sitting in limbo, not knowing what's going on.

I think overall things are better with me because of these new beginnings that I'm starting but mentally I'm still a little clouded. I think my overall mental state is a lot better and I have been going to therapy and using those tools but I still feel like there's things that are bothering me and if I don't get to some type of resolution, things could blow up. I'm talking about things with Aubrey, and anything else that penetrates my mind that nags me. Right now, it's mostly Aubrey. It pisses me off because we went through a divorce. Everything is final and it's just like he's back to normal. He's acting like nothing happened at all and he's going to all these parties and partying with all of these models and porn stars and throwing parties at the house that we shared. I'm just pissed off about it and it seems like he does not give a single fuck that he had this huge lifestyle change.

Believe me, I know I shouldn't give a fuck about this, but it really bothers me and it has been the topic of my therapy sessions for the last of week. I know we're two different people but I just feel like he shouldn't be doing all of this. I pretty much hated him but I still feel sad that the marriage ended. I feel sad that we couldn't work things out and I definitely feel sad that my son has to grow up in a broken home. And let's not mention Genesis, it's kind of the same situation with her, but I wasn't married to her dad. And it's almost like I give Chris a pass because we weren't married and he can be with all of these different women and whatever, but when it comes to Aubrey, I'm livid. He didn't get a pass because he was my husband and he had a responsibility that he failed on and he didn't take it seriously.

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One night I was sitting at home scrolling on Instagram and sipping my favorite Irish whiskey. Mercedes and Dori were upstairs, Ben was out in the guest house, and I was sitting downstairs in my living room. As I'm scrolling, I came across a picture of Aubrey sitting at a private roulette table. I'm assuming he's in Vegas or something. He looks stressed. Maybe he's losing a lot of money or something. I don't know. We all know he has a problem with gambling. I know his stress isn't because of our situation, or maybe it is. I hope so. I'm happy I'm stressing his ass out. Maybe he will act accordingly now.

I keep scrolling and I begin to see pictures from people Aubrey knows. It looked like they were out or at a party and then I noticed they were at his house down the street. I guess he's not in Vegas, he's at home having a party. That immediately set me off.

"Partying?" I say out loud.

I found more pictures from this party and it's not enough photos for me to tell. So I went to his IG and looked at his story. Photos of him and all these different women, him and some of the guys, all kinds of pictures. I almost lost it when I saw a picture with his face between some woman's breasts. I know he's doing this to get to me because he doesn't normally post things like this.

I decided to grab my bottle and keys and take a little ride over to see for myself. This motherfucker is playing with me. We just got divorced and he's out having fun, acting like everything is all good. Acting like he wasn't begging smh pleading me for another chance. I got something for his ass.

I know I shouldn't care, but I do. I shouldn't go over there, but I am. I don't like that he just gets to do whatever he wants to do and I can't. I'm dating, well trying to, but I am not out acting like this. So I'm gonna go over there and set his ass straight. You got something to say? Fight me. I don't give a fuck what anybody has to say at this point. You can talk shit about me, but you can't do shit to me.

I got in my brand new $400,000 dollar Rolls Royce Spectre and I went to the nearest superstore. I parked my car in the parking lot and was about to get out when my phone rang. It was Ben.

"Hello?" I answer, taking a swig of whiskey from the bottle.

"Where are you?" He asks

"I have something I need to handle really fast. I'll be back soon." I screw the top back on the bottle and put it in the passenger seat.

"Shawnie, I don't want you out late like this. Plus you've been drinking. Please come back to the house." He pleads

I check myself out in my mirror, making sure I look presentable, adjusting my baseball cap. "When I'm done I'll be home."

"But—." He asks

I cut him off. "...I'll call you when I'm on my way home."

"Sha—." I hang up on him and get out of the car.

I walk into the store and go to the sporting section. I grab two wooden bats and head to check out. Once I get there I hand them to the cashier and he scans them. He kept looking at me and I was starting to become uncomfortable. I managed to basically get all the way through this without being noticed, now here comes the cashier being weird.

"Hey aren't you..."

"Yes. It's me." I swipe my card.

"Oh cool. Can I get a pic with you?"

"No." I say

"Okay, I'm sorry. Where's Drake?"

I grab the bats. "You'll probably find out in a couple of hours." I walked away before he could say anything else.

I get in my car and I head to his house. As soon as I turn on the street I see cars lined up on the side of the street. Yup, he's having a party.

I pull into his driveway and I'm stopped by security.

"Shawnie, what are you doing here?" Tim, one of his security, asks.

"I'm here for the party." I smile

"You are not here for the party. What do you need?"

I don't say anything else to him. I just roll my window up and drive up the long driveway to his house. I look at my rearview mirror and I see him pulling his phone out of his pocket. I'm sure he's going to warn them that I'm here but I still don't give a damn.

I finally get up to the house and park my car by the garage away from everyone. I take a couple more swigs of the whiskey, then I grab one bat and get out of the car. I'm walking up to the house and there are people around and they're just watching me but I don't see any of his security.

Once I get into the house, there are a lot of people around. The majority of these people are women and the majority of them are half naked, basically naked, or flat out naked. I'm a little disgusted at how these women are portraying themselves but I can't really talk much about them because I'm about to portray myself as a crazy person.

I walk through the house and outside to the back where I see people everywhere. There's a DJ, there are people dancing, in the pool, in the hot tub, and there's people just standing around drinking and talking. After standing there for a few minutes, I finally spotted Aubrey in a hot tub with about 10 other women. I start walking over to him, but I see Chubbs walking towards me.

"Don't talk to me." I say, trying to walk past him, but he stops me, grabbing my arm.

"Come on. Don't do this, he's not bothering anybody." He says

"He is bothering me. He's doing this shit on purpose and you know it."

"But so what? This shit ain't supposed to mean nothing to you." He says

"Get out of my way before I hit you with this bat."

"So if I move out of the way, you're gonna hit him with it and I can't let you do that." He says

"I just wanna talk to him. I wanna get him out of the pool with all of these hoes and he needs to talk to me." I'm getting angrier by the second.

"He was trying to talk to you the other week and you had Joe beat his ass."

"I didn't have Joe do anything, he got his ass beat because he was being disrespectful." I say, irritated.

"Well, I'm not letting you over there and neither is his security." He says, crossing his arms.

"Okay." I turned around and I walked back into the house and over to the bar. I take the bat and I start swinging, smashing everything behind the bar, on the bar, breaking up glasses, bottles, everything. I just start swinging if somebody was in a way I'm sure they got their lights knocked out.

Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy and thankfully I know Aubrey, so I know he took their phones at the door and they couldn't record. I didn't care, this was making me feel so much better.

"DOES THIS GET HIS ATTENTION NOW?" I yell. "CAN I SEE HIM NOW CHUBBS!" I yell

Aubrey's POV

I was chilling in the hot tub with about 10 different women. I was enjoying myself, and having a drink, when I heard some commotion, but I put it out of my mind because my security is going to handle that for me, but Chubbs came running over to me.

"She's fucking up all yo shit!" He says

"Who?" I ask, turning around looking at him.

"Shawnie."

I finish my drink and I smile. "Oh....she's here?"

"Why are you smiling?"

I move the girl that was hugged up on me and I get out. I take my time drying off and putting on my black and gold Versace robe and slides and I walk in and see her trashing my lounge. Everyone was standing around watching her in shock. She was taking a bat to everything. She broke up probably every single bottle that was on the shelves, including all of the glass shelves. There was glass everywhere.

I know I should be upset and surprised at what she's doing, but I'm simply not. I'm not even phased by it at all, to be honest. I'm happy she finally made an appearance. I've been trying to call her for a damn month.

I just stand on the other side of the room and watch her.

"Are you going to say something?" Oliver asks

"Nah, let her finish." I lean against the wall.

"You just gonna stand here and let her fuck up your shit like this?" He says

"Right. I'm gonna stop her."  Chubbs says, then starts walking towards her.

"You better not touch her." I say loud enough for him to hear me.

"What the fuck!" Oliver looks at me. "What is this going to do?"

"Let her get her frustrations out, then I'ma take her in the room and get mine out."

"How do they even relate to one another?" Chubbs asks

"She still cares about me. She wouldn't be here if she didn't. She's gonna come back to me." I say

They both look at me like I'm crazy, but I know her and this is exactly what I wanted. She sees me all having fun without her, seeing me with all these different women, and she doesn't like it. She thinks I'm not thinking about her, but little does she know, every move I make is to try to get her back. I miss my baby so much and I can't wait to have her in my arms.

I walk over to her and I just stand there.

"Oh, hey!" She says out of breath.

"What are you doing?" I ask

"I needed to discuss something with you." She smiles.

I chuckle and step closer to her. "So you doing all of this?" I smell the alcohol on her breath. "You're drunk."

"Chubbs wouldn't let me talk to you."

I look over at him and i know he knows I'm pissed. He's doing too much and I'm starting to get sick of it.

"That won't ever happen again...what you wanna talk about, Mami?" I remove the bat from her hand and I place it on the bar, then take both of her hands in mine.

She smiles and looks me in my eyes. "Tell everyone to leave." I know what she's doing. She knows she still has power over me and she's using it right now. I'm gonna do what she wants.

"You know I will, but only if you stay with me tonight. We can talk, but we have to try to figure this out." I say

She nods her head up and down.

"Seriously?" I ask, a little surprised .

"Yes." She says

I smile, "Hold on a minute." I say to her, then turn to everyone else. "EVERYBODY OUT AND IF ANY OF YOU SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS, YOU'RE DEAD." I yell at everyone in the room. "...and you know I'll find out." I add. "You can pick your phones up with security on the way out."

I see Chubbs and Oliver in a corner over there probably talking about me. I don't care, I'll talk with them later but right now I need to get my wife back.

"What?" I say to them but they don't say anything.

As everyone is walking out, I see someone catches Shawnie's attention and she loses it.

"Don't I know this bitch?" She starts walking towards the woman.

She doesn't know her, but she knows of her. This was someone that I was involved with during the time of our marriage and Shawnie met with her. I wasn't sleeping with her, but I was helping her out financially.

I was on some bullshit when I threw this party. I'm not even gonna cap, I knew she was in her house, which is only around the corner, so I invited all of my bitches. I knew the pictures would get out, on top of me posting some, and that she would be upset and come here. I knew exactly what she was going to do because I know my wife. I didn't expect her to come here and fuck shit up how she did, but it doesn't matter, she's here.

They were arguing back-and-forth for a couple of seconds, and then Liz walks past Shawnie, trying to leave and Shawnie grabs her by her hair and pulls her back to her. Liz swings and hits Shawnie in the head but then Shawnie punches her right in the face and drops her.

Shawnie starts laughing. My baby is fucked up. Liz gets up, and I guess seeing Shawnie laughing pisses her off because she lunges at Shawnie and they start going at it.

I yell for my security to break it up because I don't want anything to happen to my wife, but now this turns into a bigger issue. I gotta make this bitch sign another NDA and pay her not to do anything. Now I really can't see her anymore. She put her hands on my wife.

I laugh walking over to Shawnie. "I've missed your crazy ass." I take her hand and we go to my bedroom to talk.

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