I'm cutting again.....

I like seeing the blood.......

I also found a very sharp razor blade so that will be fun ^^

Why do I do this to myself?....

It's all because one kid...

Kelvin Diaz......

If it weren't for my stupid actions I never would have been traumatized by that kid....

Why did he have to throw it at my head?.....

Now I suffer from depression worse than I already did and now I cut.....

Kelvin, if your out there, thanks for tearing the scraps of my humanity that I've been trying to build back up from every damn death I ever had dealt.

Every time someone makes fun of me because I'm stupid they say "ur so stupid no wonder you got hit with that rock" and every time they mention that event I just break down crying...I literally was diagnosed with PTSD because of the compact.... it hit my temple....

So much blood....

It was in my eye....

Blood was everywhere....

On the road....

My pants...

My vision hazy.....

The rock split into pieces when it hit my head.......

And then I got bullied..... and everything just went more downhill from there.....

Everything dies on me.....

I hope my boyfriend excepts me for being this crazy psychopath that has become of me....

11:50Pm

Saturday, June 1st, 2019