I wearily looked at the bowl in front of me white rice, egg, pork cutlet. It made my stomach churn in an unpleasant way. "Come on Yuuri it's really good!" Victor sat in front of me along with Yurio who still wasn't fully awake yet. Victor grabbed the chopsticks from the table and grabbed a pork cutlet with a little of everything else bringing it toward my mouth.

I scrunched my nose and turned my head away. "Victor I can't." I whimpered. "Yes, you can! I know you can!" He encouraged me. "Hey Yuuri, if you don't eat neither will I," Yurio said, I gasped and looked at him with wide eyes. "Y-you wouldn't." I stammered. "Yes, I would." He glared at me with a scowl as he pushed his full bowl away. "If you're going to keep on doing this we'll just follow your example." He stated in a hard tone, Victor looked at him with wide eyes along with myself. Did he really care that much?

I looked away from him and stared down at the bowl in front of me, Victor took ahold of my hand and rubbed soothing circles on the back of my hand. "You can do this Yuuri." He said softly. I took a shaky breath and reluctantly nodded at him. "I can," I stated with determination and grabbed the chopsticks from Victor, I grabbed a pork cutlet and reluctantly brought it to my mouth.

My hand was shaking, why was it so difficult? I brought the cutlet in my mouth chewing into the meat. It was tangy and hearty, it was...good. I swallowed and felt it rest in my stomach. "Let's all eat together now Yuuri, I know you can do it." Victor sat beside me linking his hand with mine grabbing ahold of his own bowl.

I looked at Yurio and Victor who happily began to dig into their meal, my heart swelled once again. Tears blurred my vision, Victor turned to me and gasped, his eyes going wide. "Yuuri! What's wrong are you hurt? Tell me where it hurts." He was suddenly holding me in his arms rubbing my back. "I'll make the pain go away." He hummed, I giggled and wiped my tears away, well I tried to.

I was just so happy, I pulled away from the embrace and smiled at Victor. Yurio was wearily looking at us but turned away when I met his gaze. "I'm okay Victor," I reassured. "I'm okay thanks to you." With that said we all ate. I tried to, my hands were still trembling. "If you keep shaking Yuuri I'm going to feed you myself," Victor smirked and grasped onto my chin forcing me to look at him.

I dropped my chopsticks into the bowl and blushed when he leaned forward our lips brushing against each other, a pillow was thrown at us Victor was hit in the face with it. "Can't you see I'm trying to eat!?" Yurio growled. I laughed as Victor lied on the ground in defeat. "Yuuri I've been wounded! Maybe a kiss will heal me?" He grabbed ahold of the pillow and pulled it close to his chest and looked at me giving a small pout.

I rolled my eyes and crawled over to him giving him a small peck on the nose before going back to the table sitting crisscrossed. "I think Yurio is jealous." Victor playfully teased him. "Shut up," Yurio grumbled and turned away with a frown. Victor sat up and scooted close to me snaking his arm around my waist and pulled me close. Without any more disruptions, we were able to eat again, I only got to eat a couple more bites before pushing the bowl away and resting my hand against my stomach.

The food settled at the bottom of my stomach along with a sense of dread and a wave of nausea overwhelmed me, I was afraid of this. I clamped my trembling hand over my mouth and hunched over. "Yuuri!" Victor gasped and seemed to understand what was happening since he pulled me into another comforting embrace and rubbed my back as I fought back the urge to throw everything up.

A new set of tears blurred my vision as my hateful thoughts insulted me. "You're going to get fat again." "You really think Victor will love a fatty like you?" "You're disgusting.." I squeezed my eyes shut, I felt heavy. I scampered out of Victor's arms running toward the kitchen but was stopped by arms wrapping themselves around my waist and pulling me down.

...Yurio was hugging my waist as he bit down on his lip with his eyes shut, Victor joined along with him. "V-Vic-" He shushed me. "Let it pass, you have to keep your food down Yuuri." He said in a weary voice. "I can't, I'm disgusting I feel heavy." I whimpered. "Shut up!" Yurio yelled angrily. "I'm hugging bones here! I want that to change, I want to hug something soft and loving." He hid his face.

"I want...I want a happy you." I could hear his voice crack, Victor looked away, he was shaking. Seeing these two I came to the realization, they truly loved and cared about me, I mean I just made them cry! I gave in and lied there on the ground. "Oh gosh..I really am messed up huh?" I muttered and grasped onto both Yurio's and Victor's hands. "Yeah, you are totally messed up," Yurio grumbled.

I sighed. "But it's okay though," Victor added and looked at me with a glum smile. "I think we're all messed up." And in a way he was right. I was a ball of anxiety and self-hatred, Victor still had many secrets that he kept to himself, and Yurio oddly never talked about his parents which worried me a bit. I was happy though because I could tell that we all relied on each other for support like...like a family.

We stayed silent for a bit before my mother walked in and gasped at the sight in front of her, we all looked at her. "H-hey, mom." I stuttered out with a weary smile. "Mrs. Katsuki what a delight to see you." Victor gave her a charming smile before getting up from on top of me along with Yurio who dusted himself off. "Ah...I see that you all must be..busy." She giggled. "And my Yuuri has some rice on his face. Its been so long since I've seen such a cute sight." She gushed happily; she has taken notice of my change too.

I sat up and wiped my mouth. "Mom.." I looked at her only to be interrupted by Victor wrapping his arms around my waist once again. "I've come to a decision." He started catching both Yurio's and my attention. "What is it?" I asked curiously which earned me a mischievous smile. "Tomorrow we'll begin yours and Yurio's skating performances." My heart dropped at his words. "We're not going to compete are we?" I didn't want to hurt Yurio nor did I want to become his enemy. "No of course not, but...there has to be one." Yurio frowned. "I did make a big scene and all." He admitted guiltily. "Yuuri..let's compete." He looked into my eyes.

I was held in a trance. "I..I can't." I stammered out. "Why not?" He asked. "Because I don't want to ruin what we have," I answered heartily. "I'd rather lose as a winner than win as a loser," I stated, my words seemed to catch Victors attention. My mother was at the kitchen playing with Makkachin who jumped at her lap. "You're really beautiful Yuuri..marry me already!" He whined and hugged me tightly pressing our cheeks together.

Yurio sighed and smirked. "Listen, no matter what happens on that rink I'll never abandon what we have." He extended his hand out to me. "So...let's skate like we're skating together okay? It'll be fun." I was left shocked, where was the sassy boy I met not too long ago? Had holding him somehow changed him? Was that all he really needed? Love and affection?

I laughed to myself if that was all it took for Yurio to change then me and him are no different, along with Victor as well. I grasped onto Yurio's hand and smiled at him, nausea I felt earlier was now a numb feeling, I smiled at him. An actual happy smile. "Okay Yuri, I'll skate with you. Let's compete together." Victor kissed my cheek and linked his hand with both of ours. "Let's all work together as one like...a family!" He laughed seeming to now understand what I saw within us.

Yurio was blushing. "F-fa.." He couldn't finish his sentence. "Whatever." He huffed and looked away, a warm feeling filled my chest. Was this what true happiness felt like? It felt so good in my heart. Nothing seemed to ruin this happy mood, I hoped for this to never end because nothing bad could ever happen...

Right?