I was scolded before and at that time it seemed like my uncle said something that offended my honor and at that time I was angry, then I cried because that sentence literally touched my heart, and that sentence That is seriously untrue.Besides that, everyone didn't do anything and laughed at me and said I was weak, then I ran up to my room and then my mother called me down and said that running up without permission while talking to an adult was a mistake.

 I was unpolite to adults and my mother punished me.After that, I was so angry that I broke a few pens to vent my anger, but my brother saw and played tricks on my mother, and then I was punished again. At that time, I was so angry that I didn't want to do anything, I just thought I would die. go and finish. Then I sat on the bed and thought about everything that happened and I blamed myself and that made my emotional turmoil at that time even worse and I sat thinking like that all night long. and no one noticed that I was still awake. 

After that, I was about to turn on the phone to watch to relieve stress when my mother woke up and saw me, then she punished me for playing on the phone at this hour.I'm so angry but I just can't do anything and all I can think about is suicide, overthinking and then I feel like the world around me is strange and I start hallucinating. , at that time, everywhere I looked I saw white shadows and some mutated humans. 

And I looked at my mother who was sleeping and hallucinated that there was blood flowing there and the hallucinations got worse day by day. At that time my head hurt so much and I just wanted to sleep but when I closed my eyes I had many hallucinations again. more sense. It didn't stop until around 3am. At that time, I seemed to have fallen asleep and the next morning I felt like I had lost my soul.

That's just the lightest of my past---quote from philosopher---