Hello.

In farthest reaches in my mind,

I can remember the bonds we had,

The memories we created together

My whole world revolved around you two,

And I couldn't have been happier,

After all, you gave me love, protection –

You were the first stepping stones

That brought me into a life like no other

I don't know what would happen

If I hadn't been blessed to your grandchild

We danced,

We laughed,

We cried,

Despite the distance

And circumstance, the bonds we shared

Remained intact

My life would not be complete

Without you in it

I love you more than

Any words could convey

Goodbye.

For three years you suffered, Grandfather,

From that poison, that monster,

Pancreatic cancer

You told us three months before you left,

But I didn't believe it, not truly

It didn't hurt when I found out you had it,

It didn't hurt when you finally had to stay at a hospital,

Alone, without your family,

It didn't even hurt when Mom told me you had passed

At 5:00 In the morning

On March eleventh,

But when we slowly walked into the funeral parlor,

To see for the last time,

It hit me all at once

I expected you to open your eyes,

To smile that warm, comforting smile,

To get up and hug me tight, to comfort me,

To assure me everything would be alright

But you didn't.

And it hurt.

I had lost someone who meant the world to me,

And I didn't get to say goodbye.

It was then your Alzheimer's started, Grandmother

I cherish the time we still have left,

I know one day you'll leave me too,

Or even worse,

Forget who I am.

I'll try to be strong for you,

Just as you have for me.

I love you Mommie.