____One week earlier____

"You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen,"

She blushed as he said that to her. Holding his hand, she felt she was safe. And most of all, his presence was enough to make her feel safer than ever. 

"Look into my eyes Hana," he tugged at her hand and she only looked down because she was shivering with excitement.

Her crush.

Her best friend.

Her childhood crime partner.

Her role model.

Her bias.

Her bias wrecker.

Her heart throbbed as he ducked down to meet her gave. She withered as a chill ran down her spine and he chuckled.

His bunny smile, her most favourite part of him.

"Do you feel the same Hana?"

"I do," she murmured as her eyes were closed.

"Do you want me to kiss you?"

"I do!" She giggled.

"Do you want me to come closer to you?"

"Please Jungkook," she gulped. "I do,"

"THEN GET YOU' ASS UP CUZ YOU'RE LATE!"

"What the-" She yelled as Namjoon, her brother, pulled the duvets from her. "Oppa!"

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She scrolled through the pictures as she munched onto the cereal she was having for breakfast.

"You still looking at your influencer friend's pics?"

"She's beautiful!" She was enchanted by her best friend. "I mean she was beautiful before too but damn these 5 years and she might be having a queue of guys outside her apartment," she zoomed into her pictures. Her account with 1.7M followers, her aesthetics, figure, fits', everything just seemed top tier.

"Mom and Dad called," Namjoon shrugged as she kept on watching her pictures again and again, watching with amusement in her eyes and excitement popping in her veins becuase she was so excited to meet everyone today.

"What could have possibly happened in these 5 years? What do you think Oppa?"

"I guess your friends changed but you didn't,"

"That's mean. They just," she tilted the screen as she took a closer look. "Found new activities to keep them busy I guess. But damn," she smiled. "Valerie did grow. Like I'm already fangirling," she smiled before replying her best friend on her story for the 5th time.

You're looking so pretty Val! Reply me when you find time.

"Isn't even replying to you?"

"Well, she's an influencer and she also starred in Jk's music video last year so, a celebrity protocol?" She defended and Namjoon rolled his eyes before,

"Mom and Dad called. They were asking if we were fine and all,"

"After abandoning us?"

Namjoon looked at her for a while before continuing his breakfast.

"Gimme a break!" Shaking her head in disappointment she clicked back and onto the profile of her 1st best friend, her crush, just by the mention of his name, her heart skips a beat.

Jeon Jungkook.



Hana's POV:-
If someone calls my 13 year old 'love' for Jungkook, 'infatuation' then they should look out for themselves becuase Jungkook has been the love of my life for over a decade now. I'm sure you all can relate.

It's been 5 years we all are uniting again for SNU. Everyone's dream University. These past 5 years there was no to little trace of Jk in my life except that I was always on his social media account. We lost contact because Jk developed his passion for music and he started an Instagram handle under the name Jk's_jazz. Yes, you guessed it right. I was his number one supporter!

After school our blocks got separated because we were getting the SEX-ED classes during that tenure which in a co-edcuation system got a bit too out of the hands. Cuz boys and girls would just pass eachother paper balls writing nasty stuff which was a problem. So, now after five years,

TODAY

IS

THE

DAY!!

I was so beyond excited. I picked out my most favourite dress, tied my hair into a half pony and looked at myself in the mirror with a smile. But as vivid moments, some flash backs from my childhood, from my 'life' basically flashed before me, my smile dropped.

Why?

Well, ever since my mother conceived me, she had thought to abort me because my Dad's a miser and he blamed my mother for not being properly on control. Trust me, a parent telling their own child themselves that they wanted to abort it, how hurtful it could be.

I've always run low on acceptance and love towards my own self because I've never been familiar with such things. I got bullied, I got verbally abused many a times, my parents don't cooperate and cuz of their negligence I belong to a deteriorated family structure. They didn't want to live together so my mum went back to the Netherlands and my father runs a small local business in Maldives where he makes a living by dealing with tourists every month.

In conclusion, me and my brother live here together but no benefit I have of it cuz my brother is either 'too busy' with his work or is always out with his friends.

No one cares about me at all. I used to feel so insignificant at times that it lead me to be where I am today. I don't really care about judgements anymore cuz I know either way, I'm gonna get judged. Whether it's how I look, what I wear, wherever I go, I only get negativity. Taunting me every time upon my family, or how my brother is always caught in a case. My life's a mess and I want to escape it.

It's not that I can't defend myself. I can and I have tried it too. Thing is, I've low acceptance towards my self which is why I let them do their thing with me. Aaaannd then yes, I cry my heart out to myself. I wish I would be more like Valerie, she has always defended me, been there for me when I was running low, I'm thankful I'm blessed with her friendship otherwise, no one prefers me. Lol, my own parents didn't want me and I was just a 'mistake' to them. There was a point in my life where they were putting me up for adoption to my Uncle.

And internally, I prayed 4 nights in a row for him to adopt me. But guess I'm not even worth an adoption lol. Sometimes, I feel so feeble that if a 3rd person talks to me softly, calmly I get tears in my eyes because that is something I rarely get. Either it's degradation, judgement, mocking, bullying or abuse.

And that's how Jk came into my life with comfort. He eased my life when I only wanted it to be ended. Trust me, the only reason I try one more day to be alive is Jk. I love him so dearly, wholeheartedly that even if he asks me to give him my life, I'll readily dissolve into that momentum because there's no point of my existence anyways. It's not 'hating my self' it's just 'traumatic'.

All my life I've always seen fights, issues involving my birth and the finances. How they never wanted me, and how I've listened stories about my mother wanting to abort me because my father distanced himself from her after my birth.

Now about Jk, we met when we were 5 years old. He used to be my neighbour and was a friend of Namjoon. They both used to play outside and I only watched them both play whereas I just stayed inside to avoid the judgements. I don't know if it was Jk's character or curiosity but he literally asked me to come play with him. I remember I was shocked at first because no one ever asked me to join them. I refused but he literally insisted and took my outside my house where we played tag and that was my first ever game as a child.

He gave me some of my childhood memories that I want to cherish forever. Where partly my own people were taking my childhood away from me, Jk kept on giving me a part of it. He celebrated my 15th birthday along with Valerie, Kate, Amis, Hoseok. I could never forget how special that moment was for me or how I used to feel around him. I had always felt that there is a connection between me and him, he fills the voids inside me and I may not fight for myself, but I've always fought and defended Jk in his absence because to me, he's someone who gave me a part of me.

My love or my 'want/craze/obsession' is so enormous for him that I started to fall in love with people calling me names like 'Dorkie Hana' because in that way, I'd get a taste of his defence for me. Trust me, seeing him do that for me made me 'get familiar' with how it feels like to be appreciated.

Whenever I was subjected to bullying, it was Jk who shielded me. Jk had that character; that strong character who everybody loved and admired. He was a friend to all. And he was good in everything as well. But he was very different with me in terms of friendship, he was always super delicate and soft to me. Maybe because he knew people tried to put me down, or how fragile I am from the inside related to stuff that just now feels like a routine.

There were numerous moments in my life where I used to dress up like those pretty girls from commercial so that I can match Jk's style but everytime I saw him, that point in me just gets hesitant to proceed. I can obviously never keep up with his style and charisma. But I did reduce my weight during these 5 years that gave me an edge towards other things I'd like to opt for.

I looked at myself after all those traumatic thoughts and sighed before grabbing my hair in a pony tail. Just as I was about to capture my hair in a pony tail I instantly heaved and placed the pony before me. I smiled to myself in the mirror as I settled my hair, my skirt and my upper.

"It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. I can and I will. It's my choice too after all," I repeated those thoughts before grabbing my bicycle and riding off to SNU. All the while my heart racing against my chest, my lips couldn't stop curving upwards and just as I reached, light shivering began to expose itself to me.

Even before Jungkook at this point I just wanted to run and hug Valerie. I missed her so much during this course of time. It's been a year I haven't gotten in contact with her. After her Instagram hit a million followers and her lifestyle completely changed, we hadn't gotten a chance to talk properly.

Priorities?

Nah,

The hectic schedule ig.

I walked through the corridor recognising old faces, recognising even people who were rude to me throughout my school life.

"Hey Moss!" I waved but she passed me a stare before continuing to talk to Joshua.

Weird.

She wasn't one of the meanies back then. She used to he Val's friend and that's how me and Moss came into contact but that's very weird.

After searching here and there, my eyes landed on a petite figure. With the top tier fit for the day, wrapped around that gorgeous frame I instantly knew it was Val!! Ever since she became a media personality, her fits' never fail to amaze everyone. She is the best dressed person yet in our circle. Maybe that's why she's considered as a style icon, a fierce fashion threat.

"VALERIE GEORGINA ROY!" I shrieked excitedly before running through the lockers and hugging her. "I missed you so much!" I broke it before looking at her. "Oh My God! Look at you!" I admired and she settled her top.

"Your hair," I looked at the dye that really suited her face.

"Thanks for ruining it," she smiled before settling it as Summer held the mirror.

"Haha," I let out a nervous laugh as I touched my hair which I didn't tie today. Seriously, it wasn't close to what she was having. "You think I should tie my hair? Or let them rest on my shoulders?" I asked her and she didn't respond as she was settling her lipstick.

"Val?"

"Uh yeah?" She looked at me. "So, you lost fat?"

"Yeah!" I smiled. I felt confident over my curves too ever since I lost weight. "Now we both can participate to be cheerleaders!" I did a wiggle with my hands imitating shaking a pair of pom-poms and she just hummed.

"Looks like we found our cheerleader for the team," upon that voice everything surrounding me just came to a pause. A silent pause. Everything blurred out and my La La land in which me and Jk have 73 children just appeared.

"Hana?" His proportionate perfect voice called my name. My name sounded like honey from his tongue.

"H-Hi....Jungkook" I smiled brightly and he stood before me, wearing his black Jersey.

"Wow look at you!" He cheered and I touched my hair as I was concerned about them untied. "You look so healthy and fit!"

"R-really? You think so?"

"Ofcourse! You look really pretty Hana" he smiled and I don't know why my breathing just picked it's pace.

"Thankyou so much Jungkook. You know I....n-nevermind that's dumb,"

"Nah ah. Nothing is dumb. Say?"

"I missed you in the past time,"

"And still you couldn't manage to call me?"

How should I tell you how hard I love you, how shy I am to you.

"By the way," I pushed my hair behind my ears. "I saw your music video. I'm so proud of you for giving your talent a chance too. You're just too good for anything Jungkook!"

He chuckled that bunny smile I melted for. "Thankyou. Couldn't have possibly done it without my number 1 supporter. Thanks for believing in me,"

"Anytime!" I was quick. "And Valerie?" I looked at her who had her arms crossed under her chest, listening to our conversation. "You slayed in Jk's MV. I can't believe you even got a chance to be in Jay Park's mv. You were killing it girl!"

"I know right," Jk smiled but I got a bit vividly uncomfortable when he snaked his arm around her waste. "She sure is one slayer,"

She smiled as she looked into Jk's eyes which were lovingly looking into her eyes. "You look pretty,"

"You said that to Hana,"

He chuckled before leaning forward and kissing her cheek. "You know what you mean to me babe,"

"Bro it's our call!" Jin called Jk and he rose a forefinger before,

"Can't take my eyes off of you babe," he pecked her lips. "Meet you in 45 minutes,"

My heart cracked and literally my mind went 'BOOM'.

"Bye Hana!" He ruffled my hair before running to Jin.

"Summer! Penelope!"

"Valerie?" I caught her wrist. "What was the meaning of this??"

Tears? Nope. A whole tsunami was standing at the brim of my eyes.

"Hana me and Jk are dating. It's been 8 months,"

"You didn't care to inform me even? You didn't care about my feelings Val? Only you out of everybody knew that I had strong emotions for Jk. I shared everything with you. You even used to ship me with him. What the fuck is this!?" I cried out loud in anger and frustration.

"Don't need to raise your vo-"

"Shutup! Do you even have the slightest idea of how absurd and wrong this is from your behalf!" I cried out. My tears now leaking like a waterfall.

"Only you knew about me Valerie. I can't believe you betrayed me that easily."

"Betrayed?"

"Yes! You knew how I wasn't working well on my terms with my family, you knew I worked part time for months so I can save up and gift Jk something big each year for his birthday. I used to starve even just so I can save little by little and gift him his favourite branded item. I used to plan it out from the start of the year and I did it all with my heart. My heart! I poured my heart and soul into him!! You knew how much work I was putting for him! You knew what he meant to m-"

"And still he chose me?" She scoffed. "Hana," she placed her hand on my shoulder. "It's time you learn that your misery is just your misery & that only you're gonna deal with it. Neither it will work as a sympathy card-"

"Sympathy!? You think I'm doing this for sympathy!?" I yelled and Kate and Amis came forward. "You know how much possessive I am for Jk!"

"Who is my boyfriend!" She yelled emphasising the word 'my' and I went silent just staring at her. She wasn't someone I knew.

"After Jk's music video, we both clicked. Our collab was one big success and we celebrated it by confessing, oh and..." she acted to blush before, "and he gifted me this," she showed a delicate bracelet. "Isn't it pretty? Plus, that night I also got to know how good of a kisser h-"

"Just shut up! You stole him,"

"He was never yours Hana. It was only your delusion. And just by losing some extra inches and wearing something from a thrift store-" She pretended to irk  and her minions; Summer and Penelope laughed. "And this," she yanked my untied hair before instantly pulling her hand back with an,

"Eww," she was mean as she pulled out a sanitizer. "You think through all this you can score the hottest guy in our institution? Who's good at everything? Who has a huge fan base? Whose voice is to die for?" She mentioned everything that I loved about Jk.

"You!?" She snorted. "Out of everyone, happens to believe that she can have a chance with Jk? My boyfriend!" She shouted. "The next time remember about who you're referring to okay? I'm his girlfriend and I won't tolerate a desperate girl fantasising her 73 children with him," she targeted personally.

"If you guys," she pointed to me, Amis and Kate. "Wanna like him, love him, chase him, please do it. I'd have so much fun knowing other girls want him, need him, chase him but," she smirked. "He has eyes only for me. I love this feeling Hana," she smiled.

"I love this feeling that many girls want to have a chance with him. And I know that just by opening his Instagram DM's for fun. I love this feeling that girls are literally trying to woo him away but his eyes are only for me, his heart is locked by my name & we all know Jk will prefer to die but won't ever go beyond his principles to cheat,"

I was a crying mess. My tears were leaking as I only took in her words, staring at her as how she just changed into the devil diva.

"W-why?"

"Why not?" She started to count every nice and polite trait Jk held in his character. "And the best part is you," she smirked.

"Me?"

"Yeah. Knowing you love him strongly and he loves me the strongly. I know I am going to have so much gun this year,"

"Why would y-"

"I can stop Hana. And I'll only stop torturing if you'll keep yourself away and distant from him. I don't want you to embarass yourself after all," she pitied. "I was even feeling second hand embarrassment with all your little giggles, smiles, blushes, your stupid hair untied as your rolled your finger into your locks while talking to him. Made me sick,"

"Valerie? We gotta catch our class,"

"I hope we're clear now," she stated firmly before grabbing her Louis Vuiton and turning around but I grabbed her hand.

"Why would you do this to me? What did I ever do to you? We used to be so close, we were such good fr-"

"I was never your friend Hana." She yanked her hand out of my grip. "And please don't ever touch me again like that. Summer? Sanitizer"

I just stared at her as to how disgusting she made me feel.

"And it's Valerie. Not Val. Now we're clear!" She clapped two times before she turning around and walking away with Summer and Penelope.

"Hana?" Kate and Amis both just hugged me as I cried out heavily.

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So that is what happened 1 week ago and I can't get it out of my head. Well, whatever I still have college.

I got ready quickly and asked oppa to drop me to the University but he refused because he wanted to go somewhere.

It's strange that my oppa never lets me drive the car. I doubt Oppa fucks girls. So I took my bicycle and again I was ridiculed that even though I'm rich I come on a bicycle.

I went inside and walked towards my two friends; Amis and Kate. They both were with me when Valerie ditched me.

Kate: bubbly, naïve and cute. She's a bunny but when she gives an advice she seems the smartest. Is annoying sometimes but supportive.

Amis: a baddy, savage and has a lot of tattoos on her arms and neck. She's a goth and she sometimes gets too sassy that it hurts but she's really cooperative and compromising.

"And here they come," Kate rolled her eyes and we three stood at the side as the 'Kingka and Queenka' of our college were walking through.

To everyone Valerie and Jungkook were a power couple. They both made a cute couple to everyone but to me they were just disgusting because the foundation of their relationship started with deceit. All the girls and guys were desperate to be their friend because they were 'social-media' famous and the edges they had. Valerie was getting offers from brands for modelling, she even starred into Jay Park's mv and that provided her an edge with her followers.

Similarly, Jk's MV for 'seven' was an amazing hit. He was getting recognition for his incredible voice that he even featured for a performance with Charlie Puth so obviously their craze in our Uni was understandable.

Even the centre table of the class was decorated by their fans or oppertunistic friends, as I'd put. I sat at another table and they both sat in the middle. I looked at them sadly when Jungkook waved at me.

"Hey Hana, you can sit in front of me. And also we haven't talked since like two days and we can talk too" Jungkook winked and I smiled but when I saw Valerie I refused as I'll get bullied again. And I don't want to embarass myself by making her 'think' that I'm crazy for Jk. I mean I am but why show it to her?

I peeked at them from time to time as Jin was teasing the couple. He was talking about some tattoo Jk wanted to surpise 'Valerie' for Valentine's day, on his muscular bicep, and Jin he kept on pulling his arm to which they were unitedly teasing Val.



And Valerie's fake blushes and acting all shy was making me puke. I don't know, I was still protective and possessive of Jk because it didn't seem like Valerie loved Jk for himself. It just seemed she loved him for his fame and edge while the way Jk looked at her, it was like he was enchanted by her, his gaze was telling me that his intentions were pure for Val and that he maybe had strong set of feelings for her? But it's just my assumption.

Time skipped and the class was finally over. I took my books to the locker. They were really heavy and I was having difficulty holding them.

"Mind if I help?" Jungkook arrived and I flinched and dropped the books.

"I-it's Fine. I can manage" I smiled and kneeled down when he knelt down as well and our hands touched. He just chuckled while his touch, at least for me, is a medicine. I bit my lip trying to hide my sorrow.

"No Jungkook you must not" I argued but he rolled his eyes with a small smile and held my books. Well, even if Valerie isn't here still her spoons are hiding and spying on me.

"Let me do this." He purposed gently and held my books. I started walking with him to show him my locker.

"By the way, why did you ignore me when I asked you to sit in front of me?" he pouted cutely.

"I don't like sitting at the front" I reasoned out immediately so to not look stupid.

"I remember." he smiled genuinely. "Also I remember the part where I used to pull your seat out in class and always protected you from meanies" he chuckled and my heart melted right there and then. I was at the verge of tearing up due to the thought that he's Valerie's now but I controlled.

I hope you defend me against a much bigger meanie; Valerie: specifically your gf.

"T-thanks" I blushed and rubbed my arm and we arrived to my locker. He placed the books inside my locker and I had my back touched to the lockers.

"Make way!" A loud scream was heard and it was prolly the basket ball team running after their win. Jungkook placed his hands on either side of me and pressed his body against mine. My cheeks heated up in that moment.

"I'm so sorry" he smiled showing that bunny smile which I love. I wonder if our kid would have that smile. Argh! Not again! Damn those TV serials.

"Hana? Hana?" He called and I came out of the La La land in which me and Jungkook have 73 children.

"Ah yeah I'm alright" I smiled.

"You know why don't you come have lunch with us?" He asked, placing his hands in his pockets.

"Us?"

"Me and Valerie?"

"Oh ah.....nah I'm good. Thanks by the way"

"Oh come on. It hurts me to see you sitting in the last corner.......please?" I was about to reply but he doesn't know anything. I don't want to break his heart.

It is true, your love for someone can make your loathe yourself.

"Hana? There you are. We were finding you everywhere. Sorry Jungkook give us a minute" Kate and Amis arrived and excused to another direction, making me flee with them.

"Oh sure. Bye I'll be waiting" he ruffled my hair and they pushed me into the bathroom.

"Oh My God! You two are life savers!" I let out a breath and they chuckled.

"You were so drooling girl!"

"Well, it's not my fault he's so hot. I wish Valerie didn't exist. If we exclude Valerie then me and Jungkook result into infinity!" I dreamed.

"You know what else results in infinity? Your weight" Valerie entered with her spoons behind and I immediately shut up.

"I saw you with Jungkook! What did I tell you? To stay away from him so you must obey my order! Summer, Penelope" she smirked and clapped.

Summer and Penelope came near us and snatched my lipstick and Valerie broke it into pieces by smashing it under her stilettos. Same was done with Amis's Rolex Watch and Kate's aviators.

"Losers! And if you now come near Jungkook then I'll announce the whole school that the reason behind your weight loss is your eating disorder" she smirked and I gasped.

"You won't, Valerie"

"Then do what I say" she commanded and I nodded like a peasant. "No need to join us on lunch"

My life is much more miserable than Ellen's past story.

Ok no, wait- that ain't a sequel to anything.

Ellen's past story = Ellen DeGeneres's past story.

What are you guys? Focus on my life okay so where were we?

Oh yeah,

Jk and Valerie so,

******

After that on lunch time when Jungkook invited me I refused and he looked upset and was pissed.

Finally after a long day of college when I reached home I decided to open Instagram. I bit into the apple as I opened Jk's story and the bite almost came out of my mouth when hurt started to engulf me watching him take Valerie on a date.

Bae, me & my heavy bike on a twirl~



At his heart side, Valerie was tagged. "Why Jk!" I clicked my tongue before watching Valerie's Instagram story and I'm ngl, she looked bold and hot af!!



"Except for a beautiful figure, charismatic personality, sweet voice, top tier fashion sense, proportionate height, healthy brown hair what does she have that I don't?"

Urgh. I instantly closed Instagram.

I opened Jungkook's Facebook watching pictures and videos and there he uploaded a status which had me choking and had me puking. Almost my banana choking me to death.

"My step brother is returning tomorrow 😒"- it read and I fainted for a second.

J-J

No...

J-Jimin?!

B-bully?-

"PARK JIMIN is returning? This can't be more worse. My childhood bully! My life's going to change from now on!" I cried the whole night as nightmares of Jimin taking the chainsaw and ripping my hair off, were in sight.

He, is the bully Jk defended me from guys.

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"I'm coming baby" 😈-Jimin, the devil.

Y'all this shit gon' be gooood~.