Cinders POV

I wook up to some moveimg around on the celling I turned on my side and Thomas was there inches away from my face it was still dark out his eyes started to open "Cinder" "yes" "I'm sorry" "ii" "I can't help my self" I kissed me and pulled me on his lap then he turned around and pressed me against the wall he pulled away "I forgive you" "good" he kissed me and sat back down I sat on his lap "do you no I really love you" I asked "yes but I really love you I wouldn't no what I'd do if I lost you Again" "then why why didyoukiss Teresa" tears were treating to poor one did just one tear one single tear that one part of me that had to let go "I don't idontno" he said fast "tell me why" "causeiloveherto" that was it the last straw I couldn't help it I was done with him "you love her" he shock his head "Thomas I can't do this anymore" "please don't" he was crying now he helped me waste tight I was standing now "I can't Thomas" I backed up "I can't talk the pain I wisperd" "but I can't lose you" he said quietly "but i.. I can lose you I already did" I looked away and started walking "please don't walk away" "I have to I'm wicked and you no it" I walked away into the other side of darkness into the dusty storm I walked to the other building and kicked the wall and screamed and started to cry how could he say he cares but didn't show it I thought I loved him I trusted him I trust him and my dad the people I loved the most they just hurt me I screamed at the sky and cried into my hands my knees in the ground I sat there and cried I felt a hand on my shoulder "what's the mater love" IT WAS Newt he said it in a worried voice he sat down and I just hugged him and cried sown I fell asleep maybe i loved Newt but how could I love my best friend.