"Feel, wholeheartedly,
with every part of you"
-Harpreet M Dayal

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"You know you like to point out how different we are but here we are looking at a backyard wedding" Brie spoke, and I rolled my eyes.

"There is a major difference between my venue and yours. Yours was in the backyard of a lodge, mine is on a vineyard." I pointed out which led to her rolling eyes too before both of us laughed and continued listening as they explained to us how everything would be laid out for my special day.

We were in Napa Valley, a place which had always been like a second home to Brie and I and it would be the place where I would be becoming Mrs Orton. I decided to just take his last name instead of trying to decide between my last names or having an extremely long one. He had been delighted with that idea of course because it meant I was fully his and he had his possessive tendencies. I guess he should be lucky they turned me on more than off.

"Do you know when you want to reveal your pregnancy to the world?" Brie questioned as we were left alone. We had decided to take a tour while my mom, Nana and Lola went for lunch.

With Johnny knowing about my pregnancy, due to work, there was no way I could hold out on telling my mom. So we had delivered the news to everyone while heading to the airport on John's tour bus. Alanna was asleep during the announcement of course, which I was grateful for. She had missed the whole ordeal with Randy being hurt and I was so happy cause I hadn't wanted her to witness something like that even if she grew up watching her dad fight.

"With the wedding coming up, the world doesn't need to know just yet. They don't know that I was planning to get married this year so they could so easily twist things. As for anyone else besides you guys I wanted to first tell Alanna which I'm not sure when that will be" I explained as I didn't need any negativity from the public towards my life.

I could deal with the jealousy from Randy's fans who thought he could do better but when it came to my pregnancy I doubt I would be able to so I didn't want to have the world know that yet. I was only 6weeks along and definitely not showing at all so I had time.

"I thought you told her before she went home after Summerslam weekend" She sipped on the complimentary champagne while I just opted for juice of course.

I shook my head, "I mean I didn't doubt that the WWE doctors were right but I just wanted to be certain before telling her, you know?"

"Are you nervous?"

Was I? She was Randy's only child so it would be a huge change for her but she was a sweet little girl. Randy always hinted that she wanted a little brother or sister so I was sure she would be happy. She loved Aria and Viv so she would be good with our little Viper.

"More excited because I know she will be overjoyed but I also want her to feel like she isn't going to be cast aside. I mean we see her every few weeks and I want to change that, especially since I will be at home more." I spoke aloud about some things I had been thinking about in the month since we had found everything out.

I would be Ally's stepmom on paper once I said my 'I do's' to Randy and while I never wanted to cross lines with Samantha. I did want to be more involved in her life, we had a bond and I just wanted to strengthen it and not lose it once I had my own child to take care of.

"So you and Randy won't be moving out to Tampa then?" She concluded from my words which would be correct.

"I have thought about it and the more I do I realize being in his hometown will be better. He already feels conflicted, I can see it cause he loves my family but his is there. So after we get married, he will be my main priority and this baby so I just want to make sure we can see Alanna as often as possible. Moving out to Florida would be unrealistic for us when his daughter is there"

She nodded with a small pout, "You have some valid points, I was just looking forward to us spending more time together, especially with the pregnancy. I don't want you feeling isolated over there, and I can't fly out a lot with Aria. I want her to have stability."

I gazed down knowing it would be an adjustment but in the last few years we had spent less time together. Due to my affair with Hunter our bond had been strained and with her then being pregnant we saw each other even less. It was just apart of life I guess, we had spent our entire lives doing literally everything together and life was pulling us in different directions. We had never been closer despite that growing distance though.

"I love how selfless both of us are sounding. Its weird, we have clawed so much for a decade and now we're just settling into being housewives" I teased knowing we were far from it but I was interested to see how she would react to it.

She half glared at me, "We are not! We are just taking a break, I still have our vision board in my head. We have facetime and everything to keep our creativity going, Nicole. I mean we both love our guys but we can't let them run the world alone"

I giggled and hung my arm over her shoulder, "That is true. The Bella Empire needs to keep growing, we won't let them forget about us just cause we aren't in that ring anymore."

"John and I were actually speaking about what our five year plan is.." She spoke as we went down a different pathway and I hoped we wouldn’t get lost but then again, our family would probably come searching for us in a couple hours.

"Of course you were. You guys are insane with all your planning" I shook my head as I honestly wasn’t surprised that they mapped out their future. What amused me was that they planned so much yet she had an unplanned pregnancy just like I currently had.

"Anyway, I want us to grow our name apart from the wrestling business. I mean we have the Bella Army and they are so supportive of everything we do so I know they will continue to follow us in whichever direction we go" She shrugged and she had a point. It made me even more proud of our time in the WWE cause if we ever felt like we didn't make an impact we could just look at them and see the lives we had changed.

"Yeah they will. We can focus on whats the future of the Bella's once my wedding is over though. Now all I wanna do is put all my energy into this wedding because its probably the last selfish thing I will be doing for awhile." I mean it wasn't completely selfish but I wasn't going to hold back with it. I would be making my dream come true and I wanted it to be special. Once our bundle of joy came into the picture I would have to prioritize my life around her more.

"As if, I know that you are taking in everyone’s ideas. But what I am happy about is that you are choosing this as your venue because I know its not you trying to please anyone"

I nodded as I had questioned Randy if he had any places in mind but he said it was solely up to me. He had basically said that what he would do was show up on the day which I had just not responded to, "Randy is amazing. He just wants to make sure I get my fairytale, like sometimes I feel like maybe he is just over it. He has been married before so he doesn’t see it as important but then I'm like 'no Nicole you are just reading too much into it' and looking for something where there isn’t"

"I'm happy that you caught yourself before spilling it to Randy because that would probably hurt him. He is excited I am sure but I think he probably doesn’t want to give too much input because he wants it to be your day more because this is your first wedding"

What I liked most about not being on the road is that Brie and I were connecting like we had before I started closing myself up to her. And yes it should have probably been a reason to be closer to her but like all relationships I think absence made our hearts grow fonder, "Exactly. I am learning to not overanalyze everything and I feel like I say that a lot but just saying it helps me too. I will actually sit and weigh my thoughts, especially when it comes to Randy and decide internally if it could be true or if I'm just being irrational about things"

"Must be the little Orton growing in you letting you know to cut their dad some slack" she mused.

"That makes a lot of sense cause there are loads of times where he just annoys me more than usual. And I just have to be like is this the hormones, what are my emotions even" I shook my head.

She giggled, "and that’s when they are happy that they only see us a couple of days out of the week."

"Yeah, he has been home a bit more. It also depends on his appearances because he still isn’t cleared. He has gotten used to it and is sort of able to tell when he has really upset me or if I am just being overemotional"

"Its amazing how annoying he used to be to me personally and I find I get along with him so much more now that he is with you. He is so sweet and I can tell how both of you have changed each other in every good way. I think that’s how you know two people are truly meant for each other, you know? When they make you a better person"

"Definitely" I smiled, "I got some vow inspiration from you over there"

"Oh please steal my words, I will feel honored!"

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"You look great" Brie spoke as she sat on the couch while I stared at myself in the mirror.

Since I was spending most of my time at my home with Randy I wanted to ensure that we could get as much done as possible when all of us made the effort to fly out.

So we were all currently in a small boutique and by we I meant the ladies of the family. It was a dream come true having all the important women in my life with me to look at the dress I had fallen in love with online. I hadn’t been sure if I would have enough time to physically try on many so online seemed like the best option. That was because I had thought I would be travelling the world with the WWE but plans changed, however my dress choice didn’t.

"And the nice thing is that it flows out so in a couple months time whatever size your bump may be it wont be visible" My mom pointed out as she stood up to look at the detail.

"That is definitely the main priority. I love it so much and I'm even happier that I'm only trying it on now because I wont have to wait ages to show it to him."I watched myself in the mirror as I ran my hands over the fabric and smiled brightly as I was truly one step closer to marrying the man of my dreams.

I remembered being in a similar spot and being the one watching Brie as she picked out her dress. I had seen the emotion in her eyes then and I had loved it but couldn't help but envy it. She was planning a wedding with her knight in shining armour when what I had thought was mine was stringing me along. I had watched with mixed feelings, mostly great sadness because I believed it would never be my moment.

"You look beautiful, Nicole." Nana smiled which tore me from the sad memories of a past before Randy showed me what it was like to be truly loved by someone who knew your worth. I did a curtsy before they brought a veil to go with it which made it even more real.

I reached for a tissue and hated the fact that alcohol was off the table to strengthen me.

"Now you are going to have all of us crying over here" Brie shook her head but stood up to stand beside me as I pat my eyes.

When Randy had told me he would give anything to see my emotions when I wore my dress for the first time I had rolled my eyes and told him I wasn't as soft as Brie. I guess I should have been happy he couldn't see the dress before the wedding...

"It happens all the time so its perfectly fine. That’s why we have plenty of tissues on hand" The shop assistant smiled.

"Do you think Randy will cry when he sees you walking down the aisle?" Lola questioned.

"He better" I giggled and wiped the rest of the tears before they could fall and ruin my beautiful white dress, "I'm kidding I don’t know, he doesn’t really show his emotions, that we know. I mean it would be a beautiful moment if he did but I'm not going to be holding out for him staring at me and shedding a boat load of tears"

"I think he will" Brie shrugged. "He likes to surprise us and he has done a lot of it in the time we have known him with you."

I wasn’t going to argue those words but I meant when I said whatever he did wouldn’t have a major impact on my day. I knew him and knew how he wasn’t a fan of vulnerable moments so I didn’t need them to be displayed.

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"How did the appointment go?" My mom questioned as we finished off dinner after quite the busy day.

I had been holding Randy's hand as I laid down and saw our little Viper show up on the ultrasound. There was a baby inside me, the one that everyone considered least motherly because of the Nikki Bella persona. The surprise of finding out and having my return taken away had all just not mattered once I heard the heartbeat. And even though Randy had denied it I saw his eyes glistening when he heard it too.

I smiled, "It went great, I'm about six weeks and everything is fine. She was laughing at me because I was freaking out a bit because I was putting longer hours in the gym at the time and I had rehearsals at Summerslam"

"But you guys didn’t do anything extreme though" Brie shrugged having watched my rehearsals with the women.

I nodded, "Luckily not. I wanted to but then Hunter was like no we should save it and bam three hours later Hunter is frantically trying to track me down"

Brie giggled and I elbowed her as she was still amused that my ex-lover who I had dreamed would be the father to my kids dropped that bomb on me. I mean all of us had found it amusing afterwards but that was our twisted humour. A humour only those who had been let in on the journey over the last few years would enjoy while the rest of my family would never know that.

"I'm just happy they realized it before you went out there and did dives and things like that" Lola cringed slightly at the idea.

"I don’t even want to think of that anymore but yeah my baby is all good. Its weird right? The fact that I'm going to be a mom and a wife by this time next year" I glanced around the table at the women who had all been wives and were moms.

"It is but its amazing too. We’ll officially be the mom squad" Lola winked and raised her glass of champagne for us to cheers.

"To the MILFs!" I giggled but saw the slight light reflect onto the table due to my phone being faced down.

"Its my baby daddy" I smirked as I turned it to see a picture of the two of us as he tried to facetime me.

I hadn't spoken to Randy all day because I left it up to him to contact me when he was on the road. I didn't want to be blowing up his phone while he could be at work.

"I was wondering when he would be calling" Brie smiled while I stood up. "You know I'm sure he won't mind us eavesdropping."

"I haven't spoken to him in two days, I mind" I rolled my eyes before smiling and leaving the table as I answered.

"For a man who isn’t wrestling you sure look tired" Was the first thing that came out of my mouth as I had caught him in the middle of yawning.

He chuckled as soon as he realized I was on his screen, "Hello to you too, Nicole. Yeah, I don’t like sleeping without you next to me which is the truth. You look beautiful"

"Don't I always?" I narrowed my eyes before I smirked. While spending the last week with my family had been great I just couldn't wait to fly out and see him at home.

"Of course but I figured I have to say it since I can't physically show you how that beauty is currently affecting me" he shrugged and glanced past the screen.

It was clear that he was at an airport with earphones in to make sure he could hear me, "I'm just trying to get all this shit done so I will be able to make it home this weekend."

"What do you mean make it home? I thought you’d be home by Friday?" I frowned as I had extended the girls week so that I wouldn't have to wait around too long until I could see him again.

He pouted slightly before shaking his head, "That’s what I thought but I might have an appearance that I can't get out of Saturday. It would just be more practical to stay in New York where I'm flying to right now."

"Well, that sucks. I'm leaving here Thursday morning and heading home so I was going to do things that needed to be done. I wanted us to just head out like a normal engaged couple, do some cake tasting" I shrugged feeling the sadness consume me at being apart from him for possibly another week.

"Why don’t you fly home with Brie then? I'm sure she is keen on some company with John filming a show and all"

"That’s the thing. John rented a home so they could be close to him and she’s not in that big house all by herself. And you know how annoyed they get when I crash their plans" I had given Brie the whole speech about wanting to remain close to his family so I couldn't go back on it now.

"So now I'm the bad fiancé for leaving you alone in our house?" He raised his eyebrow while I knew he didn't have much choice in the matter.

"No, I just miss you that’s all. I didn’t get to see you before you flew out cause I had to be here. Now I will probably only be seeing you next week which sucks" I glanced away as he drove me crazy at home but I loved having him home.

"I miss you too. How did the dress fitting go?"

"It went good" I shrugged as I didn't want to reveal too much to him and he knew it.

"You cried, didn't you?" He smirked while I remained silent but couldn't help the smile that fought its way out. "I don't blame you, you probably imagined yourself making your way to me. Then you pictured me in a tux and cue the waterworks "

"I have seen you in a tux before" I shook my head, " But something like that. It just made it all feel more real. You know if you are having doubts you should probably tell me now before..."

"Well it's too late now, I already knocked you up" he chuckled while I raised a middle finger to the screen.

"I meant about the wedding, not me!"

He laughed which caused my anger to disappear as I saw the amusement all over his face, "I have never had any doubts with you before so I definitely won't be starting now, Garcia"

"When you're so sweet it just makes me miss you even more" I groaned.

He sighed heavily and I knew he wasn't sure what he could say. "It does? At least I know you will be even happier to see me though. My plane is boarding but we’ll talk soon. I love you, Garcia"

"I love you too, Orton"

I sighed and hung up but chose to just look up at the stars instead of heading back inside to join my family.