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I was trying to ignore Miller during the summit. Yet, the more we talked with Madam Tsu, the heavier his aura became. That's why I decided to make an excuse to leave the room. I have never seen him breakdown, 'yung tipo ng breakdown na naubos na talaga ang battery niya para makipag-socialize. I have no idea what he will become, but I definitely don't want to see it.

"Where's your next appointment?" Miller asked me as he sighed.

He sounds so tired and done with all that socializing. He even looks scary when entering the elevator. To me, Miller seems to be preparing himself into a fight.

I know Miller is not the extrovert type of person. He has a limited time around people he barely knows and what's more to strangers. Kaya nang maramdaman ko na umiinit na ang ulo niya kay Madam Tsu, I already know that he was close to his limit.

"Appointment? No, sweetie. I no longer have an appointment."

"But you said you ha– oh, so that was a lie. Uh, are you tired? Do you feel hurt somewhere?"

I'm definitely not tired yet. "No. I decided to go home because I can feel you are reaching your socialization limit. Anyway, it's not only about me." I touched his cheeks as I looked at his eyes. He sure seems depleted with all the people around him.

"No, I'm not but... well kind of. But I'm fine since I'm also done with dealing with those old women."

"Miller, are you okay?"

"Yes I am."

For a second, his eyes brightened again. Pero hindi pa rin nawawala ang isa pang bagay na napansin ko sa kanya kanina.

"Because for me, you still seem mad." Right. I still can see the fire in his eyes. And it's not the same kind of fire that I wanna see in bed, but it's the fire of jealousy and anxiousness.

Bumukas na ang elevator. Nauna akong lumabas habang naiwan naman si Miller sa loob. He must be wondering what I am referring to.

I turned over my shoulder to call him when he was already walking towards me.

Hindi ko alam kung saan sya galit. Even if he said he's okay, I can feel it by the way he walks and his jawline is tense. He is preventing himself from feeling something.

Napapaisip tuloy ako kung kaya ba talaga ni Miller na magpatakbo ng bar. It's a bar after all where people go to drink and talk. I wonder if he'll be able to talk to them without wanting to leave the conversation.

Should I hire more staff for him?

Hays. Right. Miller is the owner, not me. That's up to him to decide. I guess I have to trust his past job in the host club where he also needed to talk to various ladies who were complete strangers to him.

Alam ko naman na kayang makipag-usap ni Miller sa ibang tao. He doesn't have any disorder or anything severe, it's just his personality.

It took awhile before Miller could respond. I don't know but he seems to be assessing himself.

"I... I don't think I am mad. Siguro ay ito 'yung naiwang tensyon dahil sinusubukan kong makisama kanina sa iba without, you know, blowing up." He stepped closer to me and asked, "Do I really look stern?"

I giggled. He knows what he's doing. He is very aware of himself.

"No, darling. You look handsome," I assured him as I kissed his cheeks.

Sasakyan niya ang gagamitin namin. I have the company driver to take care of my car while this guy prefers to ride by himself. So, if we want some privacy his car is the best choice for that.

"Are you sure you're going home early?"

"Yes. Sure na sure." He took care of the door for me while I quietly slid inside.

Pagpasok ni Miller ay agad niyang tinapon sa dashboard ang pulang journal ni Madam Tsu. That old madam is surely persistent. Kitang-kita sa mga mata niya na gusto niyang mapangasawa ko ang kanyang apo. I bet she was also the person behind those spontaneous interviews with the other madams during the founding anniversary.

I've known Madam Tsu. She owns several fashion lines, from clothes to accessories. She's known for only choosing the most in-demand, also known as, popular actresses as her brands' ambassadors.

"Hm. What could these women be?" Dinampot ko ang journal at binuksan ito. This madam has a high standard so I am raising mine also.

Yet, just as expected, unang-una sa listahan ang apo niya. The granddaughter even has a promising background. Too promising that this might be fabricated.

Harvard graduate, ambassadress, she's also a CEO of her own cosmetics company. She has a doctorate degree in Chemistry, she even published a book on Analytical energy. And she does it while being a model in a sexy magazine in the UK. Her page screams work-life balance. I bet all men would be too intimidated to date such a perfect woman.

No wonder Madam Tsu is so desperate to have me meet her granddaughter.

"Hm! Her granddaughter is not bad. Should I call her for business instead?" Sigurado naman ako na isa rin ito sa habol ni Madam Tsu. She wanted my audience to take one of his family businesses to my company.

I can't marry her granddaughter but I surely can have a partnership with them.

"All these women are fine. This might be a helpful journal. Wouldn't you agree, Miller?"

I mean, it could be helpful in a different matter. It's like a portable business connection device. I mean, a notebook. A business connection notebook. Nagmula rin kasi sa mayaman na pamilya ang mga babaeng ito. It's no wonder if they also have tons of networks.

"Don't you want to take a look, hon?" tanong ko ulit kay Miller. Yet, for the third time, wala akong nakuhang sagot mula sa kanya.

I turned to his direction only to see his ears reddening. His stern face also returned yet he calmly stared at me with a fiery look in his eyes.

"What's the mat– mmph!" I gasped as soon as he leaned on me and touched his lips to mine.

"M... Miller," Sinubukan kong kumawala, pero mas diniin niya lang ang mga labi naming dalawa. I felt his strong and warm hand behind my head, and his aggressive kiss on my lips.

Hindi na ako pumalag. I just stayed still and enjoyed the kiss.

Hey, I can't help it. The person I love is kissing me aggressively oozing with desire so why struggle?

"Ahn!" I moaned when I felt his hands grabbing my nonexistent bosoms.

"D-Darling. What are you doing?" He is obviously ready for some actions.

"I just miss you."

We sleep in the same bed and see each other every morning. How can he miss me this much?

Kinikilig ako, I admit. I want him to desire me more. I actually want to do it right now. But to act like this after today's event is just plain suspicious.

I held his shoulder as I gently pushed him. Then, I cupped his face with my hands while saying, "You are really mad, aren't you?"

"Hm... Hindi ako galit," he said while still trying to control his breath to calm. "Uhm, I just want to touch you." He denied. But I can see it in his eyes.

He can't even look at me straight while telling me those words.

"Hm-mm. Okay. But, honey," I wrapped my arms on his neck, "that's not what I see."

Umiwas ng tingin sa akin si Miller imbes na sagutin ako. Yet, I noticed his eyes focusing on a certain object.

Sinundan ko ang mga mata niya at dinampot ko ito tapos ay tinanong siya ng, "Do you want me to get rid of this?"

Miller was staring at the bachelorette list Madam Tsu gave me.

"No, you don't have to. Didn't you say you'll use it for networking."

"I actually don't need this."

At bakit naman siya magseselos dito? All of these are women. I can't be with women. At kung sakaling mga lalaki man ang laman nito, hindi ko pa rin ito papatulan.

Miller is the only one for me.

I held the journal and tore it in half. "See? Don't be jealous of these humans. I'm only for you."

At binigay ko na ang finishing touch para tuluyang maglaho ang pangamba ng asawa ko. A kiss. A deep and sensual kiss, enough to make my world spin.

Napasandal ako ng bahagya sa bintana ng sasakyan nang naging agresibo na naman siya bigla. I felt the heat on his breath.

"You're h*rny." He didn't reply but he grabbed my backdoor's cheeks. "Alright. Let's do it when we're home." I promised him.

"I'm sorry. Y-You're right."

Sometimes I got this thought that Miller has started to catch my h*rniness. I mean, look at him getting hot in the car.

Tsk. Kung gabi pa sana baka kanina pa namin ito ginawa rito. But the parking lot is a public place. And I always get tangled with dating issues in a parking lot.