A/N: Uh, hi...again. A quick warning, if you are sensitive to any themes of suicide, DO NOT read this last arc. If you are suffering from suicidal ideation or thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline asap. I won't rewrite the arc, but just a heads up, if you decide to go ahead with reading it anyway, I made some VERY poor decisions while writing the dialogue. Reader's discretion is advised.

I collapse as I lose myself to the last thing that I will ever do. That's it. I'm done. This is beyond unforgivable. Eloc has taken possession of my body long enough to ultimately annihilate Peridot for good. Now she's gone.

I hear footsteps approach me. I don't care anymore. If it's Bismuth, I'll gladly poof for hers and my own sake. "Amethyst?" I look up. Eyeball stands over me, her face in complete shock. She creates a loud groan. "I've had it! You need help!"

She puts out her hand. "Take my hand. We need to talk." I stare at the small, red hand for a moment. "Please." I have no choice. I feel like I will just do anything at this rate. I just feel so dead inside. It's weird.

It's been nearly two weeks and I already lost myself to myself. I no longer feel the same way I did back then. I feel less like me and more like Pearl. Or Peridot. I just don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like I've already died.

I take the hand and Eyeball helps me up. "Come on." We walk out of the barn, holding hands. I look down at the ground as we walk through the fields. I'm so done. With everything. I need to go. It's the only way.

"Amethyst, you've done so many bad things."
"Pfft! Yeah, no kidding."
"But I understand. I did some things like that myself. Please, listen to me. You're not alone. Look at me." I don't look at her. "It all started with Homeworld."

Silence. She takes a deep breath, softly nudging her finger on my hand. "I was made and then I was sent to Pink Diamond's court back during the Gem War. I was in her court as just another soldier. I had no rank, no story, no nothing.

"There was nothing to me. I was just another Ruby guard. One day, I was assigned a mission with two other guards. We were told to protect a Quartz. A special Quartz. Rose Quartz.
There she was, the future traitor to our Homeworld.

"She was smiling and she said to Pink Diamond that she has some very important business to attend to. We guided the Quartz over to the most powerful, the most mysterious, the most feared of the Diamond Authority. White Diamond.

"As we made the journey, I was talking to the two Rubies that were with us. I asked them things. Casual things. Like how they were doing, how is their job, did they do anything interesting yet? The two just stared at me like I was crazy. Like I wasn't...normal.

"So we were almost there. That's when Rose cuts us off. Alone, in the secret palace, at the very core of Homeworld, Rose whipped out her sword and she points it at us. She warned us not to follow her or attempt to stop her.

"If we did, she would destroy our physical forms and then shatter us. I stepped up to her. I yelled at her. That she was crazy. That she shouldn't be acting that way. I wanted to help her. Something was obviously bothering her. Now isn't that funny?"

I look up at her. She's blushing. "A Quartz and a Ruby? Yeah. That's never happening. When I did that, Rose smiled. She immediately darts towards us and I brace myself for my incoming fate. I take out my chisel, ready to fight.

"But as soon as I did, I hear the slashing and clanging of her sword. I turn around and I watched as Rose stomped on both gems. They were shattered, seperated into shards. She bubbles them, chuckling to herself.

"She taps the top and she sends them off. I watch in horror as Rose just walks away, she was heading towards White Diamond's Court. The next thing she was going to do was talk to her. And you can never talk to a Diamond.

"I followed her as she approached the throne room. I stayed at the doorway and I kept a close eye on Rose as she steps into the room. I could only wait and find out what her true motives were. The first thing she did was make a casual greeting.

"'Good evening, White Diamond.'" She then takes out her sword. The Diamond didn't gasp or make any reaction to her insult. She was slightly taken aback though. "'What is the meaning of this?'"

"'I'm here to question your authority towards the Gems of Homeworld. What you are doing is wrong and I believe that some Gems should be treated equally. You need to stop this tyranny and be more rational with your decision making.'"

"White Diamond was clearly insulted. However, unlike the other Diamonds, White Diamond doesn't take any obvious action. She waves over her Pearl and she snaps her fingers. It's a secret gesture for a silent order for the sentence. Rose left the room.

"She said that if she tries to stop her, she would only come back stronger. She notices me as she leaves, giving me a smile. I flinch as she runs away. The place that she was going to next, was Pink Diamond's Court. You know what happened after that."