"You joined Miyagi Do?"

"Well, yeah." Demetri shrugged as he looked at Sadie, "I was going to go to Cobra Kai but Mr Sensei almost broke my nose."

Sadie stayed silent a moment, still a bit numb to the feeling after her break up with Eli earlier, "Okay."

"Okay?" Demetri asked in disbelief, "You're not mad? You don't wanna hit me or bite me?"

Sadie looked over at him in disbelief as a flash of hurt went across her eyes, "You truly think i'd do that to you?"

Demetri seemed to panic slightly when he realized what he said, "No, of course not."

"No, you do." Sadie said in disbelief as her eyes glossed, "You said it the night of the tournament and clearly still think it no matter what I said. Don't you?"

Demetri sighed as he looked away, "It's fine, Sadie. You get angry sometimes, I think it's just how you communicate."

"Right, because i'm just some animal?" Sadie went back as Demetris stood up quickly, "I get angry and attack people that deserve it. Not the ones I care about and love! I'd never hurt you!"

"Well, you said you'd never hurt Sam either." Demetri had to say it, had to finally get it off his chest, "So i'm not really sure what to believe."

Sadie looked more hurt then angry, her mouth slightly gapped with sad eyes, "So basically you walk on eggshells around me now because you're worried i'm gonna get angry and hurt you?"

Demetri hesitated but nodded.

Sadie laughed at herself as tears rolled down her face, "I'm gonna leave."

"Sadie, I didn't mean-" Demetri tried to save himself as he followed her toward the door. He jumped when Sadie turned around, only to be met with tears. Like Eli, he found it weird and scary to see her cry.

"I'm so sorry I made you feel that way. I was a bad girlfriend and you deserve better then then that." Sadie spoke as she whipped her eyes and pulled her bag up her shoulder more, "We're good together but we can't be together if you're scared of me, you don't deserve that. I'm sorry."

Before Demetri could react, Sadie was out the door and sprinting toward her car.

Annalise hadn't known her daughter well at all. When she called the LaRusso house that night, panicking because Sadie hadn't come home, Sam realized that. She always thought Sadie was too hard on her mom until now, until she didn't even know how much Sadie hated Sam and Daniel.

Sam left her house after Amanda told her. She had a good feeling she knew where Sadie would be, especially after what Demetri said about what had happened. Sam assumed Sadie would result in anger first, yet it didn't seem to be the case when she showed up at the old store she use to steal candy from in middle school. Sam saw her, on the curb, a small pack of carmel's and a soda by her side.

"Sadie." Sam called out as she got out of her car, running over, "Your moms freaking out, she said you didn't come home."

Sadie stood up immediately and walked quickly. Sadie was expecting her to jump back, to keep her distance or beg Sadie to stay away. But Sam didn't, because she wasn't scared of Sadie no matter what she did. Instead, she wrapped her arms around her and let her cry. Sadie sobbed into Sams neck as she held her, "It's okay, it's okay."

"I'm so stupid." Sadie cried as Sam tightened her grip around her, "And a horrible person!"

"You aren't a horrible person, and you're not stupid." Sam said sternly as Sadies tears rolled down her neck, "Are you okay? Did you get hurt?"

"No." Sadie cried as they pulled apart. Sam stared at her with wide eyes as Sadie took shaky breaths and cried again, "Eli got with Moon the second he thought we broke up and Demetri is scared of me."

Sam hadn't known the full story, only that her and Demetri had split up. Sam sighed as she used her palm to whip Sadie's tears. It's something the pair of them seed to do often. Hate each other so much but the second the other was in pain, the were suddenly the same best friends they use to be.

"I told them it was a bad idea." Sadie sniffled as she sat back down on the curb, "When we first got together. I told them I was difficult and I wasn't good at all of this. I should have listened to myself, I should have known i'd mess it up somehow."

"You didn't mess anything up with Eli. He's a idiot and you don't need to be with someone that gets with someone else the second the two of you split up." Sam spoke quick and with annoyance and anger. Not because she was annoyed or angry at Sadie, but because she was angry and annoyed at Eli for hurting her like this, "And for Demetri... we all make mistakes, and that's not a excuse. But things happen for a reason, maybe this is one of those things."

Instead of answered, Sadie brought her hands up and cried into her palms, "I miss them."

Sam scooted closer and rubbed Sadie's back, "I know."

"It shouldn't have happened in the first place." Sadie shook her head in disbelief, "I shouldn't have trusted myself like that."

"God, just stop it!" Sam snapped at her suddenly, "You're too hard on yourself. Not all of this is your fault, okay? You made mistakes, so does everyone else. I know relationships are hard for you, I know. And then you let your guard down for two guys that didn't deserve you in the first place. It's the first time you've let anyone in, and I know it hurts. But you didn't cause all of this, you aren't the blame always and I wish you would stop doing that to yourself."

Sadie looked over at her, whipping her face, "That wasn't the first time."

"What?" Sam spoke in confusion.

"You said they were the first time I let my guard down." Sadie repeated Sams words with a minor shake of her head, "They weren't the first ones I let in."

Sams face softened slightly at Sadie's words, "I didn't think I still counted."

Sadie laughed as more tears left her eyes, "Yeah, you still count."

Silence took over them a moment as they sat on the curb infront of the store. Sadie gave Sam one of her caramel squares before the LaRusso girl spoke up again, "Break ups suck, I still hurt after mine. I know how your mind works too, I know you're gonna keep blaming yourself and acting like you aren't capable of loving people. But you are, i've seen it."

Sadie scoffed, "You're wrong. Not everyone is a hopeless romantic like you that open their heart up to anyone that looks their way."

"Maybe not." Sam agreed, "You're not like that, i'm well aware. But you can love, and when you do it's sudden and tough. People can love you, too. They can love you no matter how much you put on a act like you're somebody else because they know who you actually are under all that."

"Sam-" Sadie began, suddenly feeling like she was being spoken bad about.

"And they won't care that you're so difficult to love because they want to do it anyways. They won't care that you come with so much bagged that it pushes them away constantly, they won't care at all." Sam began listing on as she stared at Sadie with wide, bright blue eyes, "And they won't care that you lack certain emotions because they know it's how your father has ruined you of feelings certain things. Someone out there is going to love you for everything, and they're gonna see past all the things you've done. You aren't loveless, you aren't incapable of having someone fall completely in love with you. You're just a little harder to crack."

Sadie stared at her, glossy eyes as her tears stained her face slightly. Sadie blinked, her dark lashes holding beads of tears, "I know I pretend to hate you most of the time, but I don't."

Sam stared in disbelief at Sadie's words.

"I want to hate you most of the time, and sometimes I convinced myself I do." Sadie went on with a nod, "But then I think about the fact that after everything i've done to you, all the amount of pain i've caused you, you're still the person that shows up when I think the worlds ending."

Sam gave Sadie's sad face a small smile, "It's who we are."

"I guess it is." Sadie agreed, handing her another caramel square and standing up, "I'm sorry for hurting you the other day."

Sam shook her head, "I know it's not you."

And with that, they went their separate ways with no clue if they were doing to hate each other tomorrow or cry in each other's arms again.

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kylie speaks

damn. all the
feels just coming
out tonight.