There might have been a cup of tea with my name on it ... I might have swapped it out for coffee instead. There might have been a chocolate muffin I ate instead of having a peanut butter and jelly on white bread. There might have been good music to listen to and awesome things to watch. There might have been activities to do and mischief to entertain without being caught.

I might have spent my day being productive and smiling about my place in the world. I might have stood in the mirror today and noticed that I'm still that girl. I might have laughed at a corny joke, danced to my favorite song. I might have taken a nap that was way too long. I might have opened up a can of whup ass on my problems, fears and woes. I might have given it all over to God and been caught up in his loving throes. I might have written today out of a place that I tap into quite a bit. I might have tried to make sure those words were a perfect fit.

For all the things that might have happened today. I can say that I loved and enjoyed each and every moment of it and I pray the feeling won't go away.

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We interrupt your regularly scheduled programming to bring you this message...

Today is awesome! Now you may choose to carry on or read on...your choice.

You're gonna read on? Yay! 

Today is feeling real good to me. It rained a bit and that for some reason has cleared away the creative cobwebs and rejuvenated me. I said earlier on my social media that I could actually feel my heart thump, thump, thump away in my chest. Something I don't always feel – I mean, I know it does or else I wouldn't be here but it feels so strong.

I feel very aware of myself today.

My thoughts are clear, my breathing is rhythmic and my walk today is awesome. By walk I mean my physical walk...my steps are solid and intentional. My spiritual walk is feeling much the same. I feel like I'm in the lap of love. That close to God. With each breath that I take I get a sense of newness. With each blink of my eye I gain clarity of the things around me and with each step I take I get that much closer to my goals.

I want to do something massive today – something huge. I want to construct something with my hands and keep working on it throughout the day. This weather, my mindset and this feeling needs to be put to some good use. So what is it that's got me all gung ho today? Why and how am I feeling so connected to my life?

I don't rightly know. If I had to guess...I'd venture to say that this is what a blessing feels like. To be at peace with yourself and the decisions you make. To be at one with the person you are and to know that no matter what you do – you are doing it to the best of your abilities. To be calm at all that comes your way. Resolute in the things you are doing, solid and steady in your decision making.

I don't always feel like this. As a matter of fact, I'm much like jello the way it quakes when a footfall is too heavy. The slightest movement upsetting it and causing motion. ....Hmm........Maybe jello isn't a good analogy. Maybe I'm more like water falling on rocks? Chaotic and interrupted. Or maybe I'm like a leaf in a windstorm, tossed this way and that. I don't know...I just know that I'm really not this settled, I'm anxious about everything (which today is a good thing) and my resolution to these things is always to get busy ...relaxing just doesn't happen. But I'm relaxing today – I'm at rest in my life right now.

I even woke with a headache this morning...the start of a migraine but it was taken care of with the meds, my demeanor is cool...I almost sat in front of my webcam today to make a video but I had nothing to talk about. I felt and feel that good! I joked around today and told a family member that I would do a cartwheel. Well, the bottom half of me...let's just say...hmm...I'm not as young as I used to be despite the fact that I feel young today. I'm not trying to break any bones. Today my 25 year old self is trapped in a 40 year old body. LOL.

I don't feel like I can conquer the world...no, but I could conquer my small part of it. My music is on point today with keeping the happy flowing so I'm super good. Singing along and disrupting everyone's peace in the house is something I live for. It's funny how people ask you "What's wrong with you?" when you feel good. But doesn't it feel good to say...Nothing! Nothing is wrong but do let me continue to interrupt your regularly scheduled program.

Time for the motivates, the build ups and the feel goods!

You! Yes you! I love you! Yes, I do. YES, I DO! See....in the make up of the human heart there are chambers...four of them. Wait...let me fact check...Yes, that is correct. Four chambers – four rooms to hold all that love and in case one overflows there's another one to take it on. Okay look, I'm gonna go all philosophical and emotional here so don't look at me strange...just go with it Okay?

Your heart can hold as much love as you let it and more. Our hearts are meant to overflow with this kind of goodness. Those chambers can fill up and spill right over with love, wisdom, kindness and goodness. Let's look at this way – each chamber represents those four things and they all spill over into each other. When we experience so much of those things our hearts seem to swell to the point that we feel it and its overflow pours out through our eyes as tears. Those four chambers could very well represent love, wisdom, kindness and goodness. Those things are overflowing in me today and I hope that they are in you as well.

Have you ever been so happy that you cried? I have. Completely unexpected thing – the kindness of one human being did it to me. And then when my family came together to help me it happened again. My heart loves to experience these moments because they are so few and far between. So when I do experience them my reaction is true and sincere. Tears of joy.

But back to you!

You are worth every bit of success, every bit of love, kindness and goodness that you can handle and bigger than what you can handle. You are worth it all, you are priceless. The work you do, the things you come up with – your creativity, your wisdom, your hard working self...just astounds me! Can I be like you when I grow up?? Pleeeeaaasssseee????

Yeah?? Yay!

Listen, there will be others that will try to steal your joy, your peace, your time and your calm but don't let them. As the song says above...don't let them put out your fire! Will you make that promise to me? That no matter what happens or who comes your way with whatever crap...that you won't allow them to douse the fire within you? Oh good ...I thought I was gonna have to make the "unbreakable vow" with you...glad we could avoid that...but I totally would if I needed to.

You know what else....I think you know how special you are already, you're just humble. I love that about you. I think that's why I'm drawn to you ...ya know? Maybe you're a magnet of some sort?? One that attracts the good things in life. You should think so and you shouldn't waver in that thought. Speak life INTO your life. Speak life over sad situations, over yourself and other people and watch how that comes back on you. What you put out is what you will receive.

I consider you my friend. As a friend, it's my duty to see you smile and I take my job seriously. So much combats us in our daily lives that it gets hard to wear that smile permanently or even temporarily but don't let that stop you. You should smile even when you don't feel like smiling, laugh when you don't feel like laughing..sing and dance like no one is watching (yeah the internet says so..and everything on the internet is true! lol) and we should love like hurt doesn't exist! 

Love your life! Find something that gives you  life and submerse yourself in that! You draw? Draw to your heart's content. You write? Write until your fingers fall off. You sing? Give Beyonce a run for her money! You dance? Honey, dance circles and around that sadness and madness until it isn't there anymore!  Do these things, whatever you do...do them so well that even your competition has to sit down. And you know, your competition should always be the one that stares back at you in the mirror. Competing with someone else is craziness - but competing with yourself, is therapeutic. It's self betterment, it's growth and it builds you up. Self validation is the thing you want. You don't want someone else to tell you what they think about you - and if they do say give you a compliment meant to validate you - respond with "I know."

I'm telling you - it works!

Find your passion and get into it. Your passion doesn't have to look like everyone else's passion. It's unique to you! It's what gives you drive and hope. A sense of freedom and peace. Do all of that! 

Before I go, love the skin you're in. It's yours! Love on you like you are the best lover around. So when someone else wants to love you, you know what it's supposed to feel like. You know what it looks like and what it's supposed to be. Love on YOU! 

Then share that love without looking for reward or something in return. The reward you receive will be so much more than anything material that you can get. 

Now, I must go for now so practice these things. I will be back shortly. My fingers don't feel like stopping for the evening! When was the last time that happened?????

I will see you soon and thanks for reading!