*Brendon POV*

*a week later*

The sun shone through the window blinds. Ryan was fast asleep beside me. He was still. He resembled a sleeping beauty in my eyes. What a breathtaking human being he was. I had to get up. Even though I didn't want to, I had to.

As soon as I left the bed Ryan woke up. He asked, "Where are you going, Bren?"

"Just getting my morning coffee, babe."

He nodded and rolled back over. I was about to leave the room when he groaned, "Make me a cup please. I'll be down in a few."

I left the room and knocked on Patrick and Pete's bedroom door. The door slowly opened. The bed was empty. I asked Ryan, "Did Patrick and Pete leave?"

He scratched the back of his head, "Not that I know of. Hmm peculiar."

I nodded, "Yeah. Hmm."

We walked downstairs together to make that coffee we both spoke of. I said, "Should I call one of them?"

Ryan nodded, "Yeah just in case."

I started calling Patrick. He answered after five rings. I counted so intricately. Patrick said groggily, "Hello?"

"Hey where have you and Pete been?"

"I think we accidentally fell asleep on the beach last night?"

"You two went to the beach...again?"

"Umm yeah, long story. To shorten it I just really wanted to go for a night walk with Pete. Like we did last week."

"Okay well once you get home we should start getting the rest of all our belongings from the apartments."

"Sounds good. See you soon."

Ryan said, "So we have a little while longer for the house to be just ours?"

I nodded, "Just a little."

I put my hands on his waist. I whispered, "Why?"

He kissed me. I was definitely in love with this man. This beautiful human being. We started pulling off our clothes and blasting music. Our bodies moved rhythmically to the beat. We pulled down our pants. We were ready, but my phone started ringing... I left Ryan's touch, sadly. I answered with a sigh, "Hello?"

It was Patrick's mother. She said, "Brendon! I haven't talked to you in so long! How's my favorite other son?"

I smiled. She was such a sweetheart. "I'm great! How are you?"

"Good! So I was wondering if we could plan a surprise party for Patrick? I heard he got a job at the club you work at. Maybe we could have it there?"

The one thing about what his mother said is that Patrick's birthday is in April. It was July. Sometimes I wondered what was in that woman's mind. I said, "Patrick's birthday is in April, Pat."

She laughed, "I know, honey. You don't think I would remember such an occasion? No I just want a surprise party for him. It could be for any occasion and that's the surprise. I just miss him so much and I want to throw him a party."

"When will the party be?"

My body shifted awkwardly, knowing I'm half naked. She said, "I was hoping tomorrow maybe?"

"Tomorrow is Wednesday the club is open then. So we can't have a party there."

Pat said, "Okay well when are they closed for us to use the place?"

"Mondays and Tuesdays. So it would have been yesterday and today."

She exclaimed, "Today it is!"

"Wait what?!"

"Don't worry I got this! I'll plan everything! Just talk to the person in charge and then get Patrick to go there! See you later!"

Oh god. How the hell was she going to pull this off. I hung up. "So Ryan, it looks like we have a surprise party for Patrick to get ready for..."

"What?!"

"That was his mother apparently she wants to plan a party for him."

"In a few hours?!"

"That woman will surprise you. She'll get it done one way or another."

He still seemed shocked. I started putting back on just my pants so I could call Sarah quickly. She answered, "Hello?"

I said, "Why isn't it my favorite manager?"

She immediately said, "What do you want?"

I chuckled, "You know me too well."

"Yeah, too well. So spit it out. What do you want, Brendon?"

"The club for the night."

She laughed, "You expect me to just let you borrow it for a day?"

"Maybe?"

She sighed, "What's in it for me?"

"You can come to the party...?"

She giggled, "Not like I have any other plans. Sure why not."

I smiled, "Thank you so much!"

*****

At the moment all four of us were getting ready. I told Patrick we were doing a dress rehearsal for Saturday's show so he was obligated to dress up. I wore an all black shiny suit. Ryan wore the same thing, but his was gray. We matched so that I wore a gray bow tie to match his suit and he wore a black one to match mine.

We walked down the stairs in style. Patrick was standing in the kitchen wearing a tuxedo. He even wore his fedora. He looked amazing. I have never seen him look as good as he does right now. Pete wore a casual suit with the blazer unbuttoned. He also looked nice, but I think Patrick wins for most good looking.

It only makes sense anyways since this is his special, whatever this is, day. We piled into the car to meet Pat at the club. I wondered who the hell would she even invite. We walked inside and all the people jumped out yelling, "Surprise Patrick!"

A lot of the faces looked familiar. I think she invited his entire family. Then there were also the faces I didn't know. Pat ran up to Patrick and hugged him. He said, "Um mom what's going on?"

"A surprise party!"

"For what?"

"For you, sweetheart!"

He chuckled, "Fair enough. So who are all these people? Besides our family."

She said, "Wait one minute! There's someone I want you to meet!"

She scurried away. I said, "Does she know about Pete?"

He shook his head, "Brendon, she doesn't even know I'm gay..."

"Oh shit."

Pat came back with a young woman. She had dark curly hair. His mom said, "Patrick this is Elisa! She is my friend's daughter and a very lovely woman. I thought maybe you two could hit it off!"

Patrick sighed, "Mother...I'm gay."

She started laughing.

Oh no...

But then she said, "I knew it. All of these years, I knew it. I've been waiting for you to tell me."

"Mom!"

She smiled, "So are you and Brendon dating? I've been waiting for that too."

Then I said, "Pat!"

She whispered something in Elisa's ear and Elisa walked away. Patrick introduced his mother to Pete, "Mom, this is my boyfriend, Pete."

She hugged Pete tightly. She was a hugger. Then I introduced Ryan, "And this is my boyfriend, Ryan."

She also hugged him. She asked, "So how did you and Pete meet?"

Patrick began telling the story. I said, "If you'd excuse me I need to go look for someone."

Ryan also explained the story when I walked away. I was looking for Sarah. She probably didn't know anyone here. I noticed her at the bar with a mojito in hand. She looked stunning with her long strapless red dress. I smiled as I sat beside her. "Hello, gorgeous."

She smiled, "Brendon! Wow you look great!"

I smirked, "I know."

She rolled her eyes laughing. Then I said, "But not as great as you."

She blushed. I leaned against the bar, "So do you know anyone here?"

She shook her head, "No one except you and the guys."

I held out a hand, "May I have this dance?"

She nodded and took my hand. She had a really pretty smile. We swayed side to side and I twirled her around a few times. I asked, "So why didn't you bring a date?"

She sighed, "My boyfriend dumped me..."

"That wasn't my question."

"Well that was my answer."

I smirked, "A little sassy aren't we?"

She cracked a smile as I turned her around into a twirl. She twirled back into my arms. Our faces were so close and our bodies were unbelievably closer. Our lips neared each other. Luckily she back away. My impulsive self was coming out. She coughed awkwardly, "So how's Ryan?"

We continued swaying, "He's good. Really good."

She asked, "Aren't you um gay?"

I shrugged, "That's what I used to think."

"Used to?"

Ryan interrupted, "May I cut in?"

Sarah nodded and walked back towards the bar. I felt bad for her, but even worse that I had almost cheated on Ryan... What was I thinking? I'm gay! But she looks so beautiful though...with those black curls bouncing as she walks away. I was arguing with myself in my mind. What the hell are you thinking?! You have the most perfect boyfriend smiling in front of you.

I kissed Ryan. He started laughing, "Woah that was out of nowhere."

I laughed awkwardly, "Yeah haha ha ah. I just uh I love you."

Ryan kissed my cheek, "I love you too, babe."

I felt really guilty. I've never seen my self being with anyone other than Ryan up to this point. So why would I almost kiss Sarah?

I was so confused. I wanted to talk to Patrick, but he'd yell at me. Plus he's talking to his mom with Pete while greeting people. Ryan and I continued to dance. Until Sarah came up to me, "Hey would you two mind playing your song from Saturday? Pat is requesting it. Along with Patrick and Pete to sing."

Ryan smiled, "Yeah sure!"

I nodded slightly. Ryan pulled me towards the backstage. Ryan handed me a sheet of paper from his guitar case. He said, "Let's sing this. I wrote it a little while ago. Let's get this party started."

I looked at the title, "Time To Dance". I nodded, "Do we need accompaniment of other intruments?"

"It would sound better that way."

"I'm going to go drag Patrick and Pete on stage."

I left and asked Pete and Patrick, "Will you guys help us play our song?"

Patrick smiled, "On one condition."

"And what is that?"

"You two help play for our song."

I nodded, "Of course!"

We all went backstage. It all worked out perfectly because Ryan played guitar, Pete with bass, and Patrick and I could switch in singing and playing drums.

There's always extra instruments here from other bands so we had the drum set and bass covered. We quickly set up. By quickly I mean about twenty minutes.

Patrick twirled a drumstick in between his fingers, "I have a good feeling about this."

I smiled because I agreed. I started by talking, "So is everyone ready to get this party started?"

Everyone cheered. Then I continued, "Because it's Time To Dance!"

The beat started going and then I sang, "Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention. Cause that's just ridiculously odd. Well, she sure is gonna get it.

Here's the setting: Fashion magazines line the walls now. The walls line the bullet holes. Have some composure! Where is your posture? Oh, no, no.

You're pulling the trigger. Pulling the trigger. All wrong."

I turned around and smiled at Patrick.

I loved it.

I loved the rush of a full band. There were parts where I'd serenade Ryan, Patrick, or Pete. I noticed Sarah dancing around. I caught myself singing right to her. Then I quickly turned and sang to Ryan. The song ended. Then Patrick handed Ryan and I a sheet of music. So Patrick and I switched places to play Pete and Patrick's song, "The Pros and Cons of Breathing".

After looking at the sheets we gave Patrick an assuring nod that we were ready. The song started and Patrick's sweet voice echoed, "Bury me standing under your window with the cinder block in hand. Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again. And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you. I must have dragged my guts a block... they were gone by the time we (talked)..."

All of our harmonies and instrumental accompaniment worked out flawlessly. I kept catching myself staring back at Sarah. The song ended and we all met with her backstage. She exclaimed, "You guys have to form a band!"

We all just laughed, but she said, "No guys I'm serious! You all would be a hit together!"

I shrugged, "I'm down for it."

Ryan said, "I'm in."

Pete nodded, "Yeah let's do this."

Patrick exclaimed, "We're forming a band!"

I smiled at her. She started blushing. I think she might like me. I was happy, but also guilty. Oh so very guilty....

Patrick asked, "What would we even name the band?"

I took his arm, "Don't worry about it now. Just enjoy your party!"

We started walking. He rolled his eyes, "Yeah my party that has no point to it. Why the hell would she have a party for no reason?"

"Because she's your mother and that's what Pat does."

He said, "Yeah, but if I know my mother there has to be a reason..."

"Maybe she's proud of you?"

"Or maybe because she misses me and wants me to move closer to home..."

"Yep. That's probably it."

Y

He sighed heavily. I gestured for Pete to come over towards us. I took his hand and put it in Patrick's. Then I clapped my hands, "Okay now dance!"

Patrick's mood changed. He was much happier now. Someone tapped on my shoulder. It was Sarah... She said, "Do you mind going on a little walk with me?"

I shrugged, "Sure why not."

We walked outside into the Chicago night air. Always brisk, but also warm. We started walking. I said, "So what was it you wanted to talk about?"

Out of nowhere she kissed me... Oh god no... Then I kissed her back...

The worst part was...I think I liked it. We let go. I stared into those deep blue eyes. Oh how beautiful she looked. She asked, "So you're not gay?"

I kissed her again. It was 110% out of impulse I swear.... I said, "Does that answer your question?"

Then it all set in.... What the hell have I just done?!

I cheated on Ryan, the love of my life. The only one for me. I threw him away like he was nothing, but white trash. He's everything to me. I had to get away from her. I couldn't be around her. I couldn't be around anyone right now...

I just had to...

go.