If I could say the things
I want to say
I'd tell my therapist
Any day

If I could trust someone
Enough to talk
I wouldn't lose all of
My strength to walk

They say to tell someone
To call out,
It's not easy

Wish I could trust someone
Just to talk,
To help maybe

But still I'm just not ready
And I need to clean up
But my life is a mess
And I'm really stuck

I wish the voices
Would leave me alone
But I can't stop them
Not on my own
It's getting worse
Than I'd ever known
They say I'm better
No I've just been broke

Can't bring myself to wake up
Each day
Cant do anything 'cause I'm too
Afraid
I want to work hard but I
Procrastinate
And I'm slowly losing all of my
Good grades

Cut off from my friends
Yeah we're growing distant
The voices say that they would leave
My side in an instant
But I won't know 'cause they'll never
Stop and listen
They never care to hear all of
The words their missing

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I preformed this to my mom, but I doubt she would understand.

Maybe one day I'll record myself singing it.

But I judge myself too much to actually do that, so-