So, I haven't been updating recently. At all.

I know I've said this a million times, but I am extremely busy with life and crew. However, this isn't the entire story. No matter what I say, a lot of my inactivity has been me. Ever since the school year started, I've been in high school, a new environment filled with immensely talented people and while I've learned a lot from them, I've also been extremely anxious and apathetic the entire year. I know it seems odd that someone can feel so intensely about things and yet be completely apathetic about basically everything at the same time, but I assure you it is possible and it sucks.

I spend a lot of time going through DeviantArt galleries of my favorite artists to see where they were at at my age, comparing followers with people on here constantly, looking through national winners for a contest I entered (Scholastic). Nothing I write or draw is really good enough and I find myself stopping 100 words into projects. It takes me half a week to write chapters that should only take an hour.

Basically, my self esteem is bad and I am actively making it worse by comparing myself to other people. Add that to my schedule (I get up at 6:30, go to school at 7:30 and do not get home from crew until 7, upon when I need to do homework and shower, so I won't be ready to do anything for myself until about 9) and you can kind of see where it's all coming from.

I do believe that if I took the initiative, I could absolutely do everything I've been trying to work at. I don't think it will be easy but I think that I need to snap myself out of this somehow. I only ask for your continued support because heck otherwise I'm probably going to give up two days in.

MARCH MADNESS-

In addition to WattyWarriors adminning and my other current commitments (one contest), I will be posting...

-Broken Souls every other night for a total of 16 chapters.

-Double Rainbow: Retold every other night between that for a total of 15 chapters.

-1-2 DC Spoofs every 2 days (15 minimum).

-2 new Canira daily in the Directory with 300+ word backgrounds.

-10 drawings at any time this month. 

As you can see this is a crazy amount, but I really do think I need to be working on more and this is the best way to do it. Wish me luck (or better, just freaking comment. I mean seriously people always underestimate how much this means to writers). 

Oh yeah! Daily Doodle for tonight.

I'm going to count this as my first daily doodle out of 10, but yeah the others will probably be more polished and some may be digital. I just got my tablet working yesterday (I have a school laptop so I had to go in and get drivers installed) but then I was busy all yesterday AND today (as seen above). 

So this is also just a fun 900 thing in general. A lot of people on clash have asked how I looked and I ask them how they think I look. My favorite answers include "like a Californian beach babe" and "like a cat. maybe a tabby. i don't know your life". 

Before you get too excited, I'm not posting a picture. A friend of mine who's a far better artist than me posted a drawing of herself on Insta that is somewhat similar to this and as her fanbase is much bigger (and she hasn't magically been tracked down) I'd imagine it's safe to post whatever this is. 

I can not human anatomy (and the picture is slightly idealized because I really don't stare at myself too often). I plan on trying this again eventually when I can actually art though.

You have been warned.

(also the picture is slanted because phone. rest in peace)