^ i cannot believe they made such a GORGEOUS music video holy sHUCK!!!! ITS AMAZING!! also i found out this song was written to address anxiety and depression and mental illness so it really strikes something in me and it's such a good song i highly recomendar it for anyone struggling with anything i said above ❤️

okayyyyyyyyy ahem

well today was kinda rough but what's new

so it was one of those days where the first half was amaz but the second half was kinda depressing

so this morning - afternoon was AWESOMEEEEE

five youth got baptized at church! WOOO!!! i got to lead worship for the youth baptism bash which was super fun except in the beginning of the event barely anyone jumped to our fast song so it was kinda awkward with only me jumping (most of them were like athlete dudes so they were kinda shy ish im pretty sure they all thought i was weird lmaoooooooo ) but i got a majority of people to jump at the end so yayyyyy

then church was fun this one dude kept kinda "annoying" me aka he was more like teasing me lmao like he pulled on my hair which was random but he also texted me to get off my phone to make me laugh and then he kept doing that kind of stuff so that was funny (he's my dabbing partner does anyone remember 😂😂😂)

(oh but also maddie- was sick so i was sad ;-; but she's a bit bette now i think ahhhhhh don't die on me)

ok so yeah theeeeeeeennn afterwards i got boba (ehehe) with one of my retreat leaders and she's so awesome anyways i shared a lot with her and she prayed for me and it was so good ok anYWAYS

then i went to get lunch with my bro and dad and saw a SUPER cute dude and omg i think he caught me staring oops but then i caught HIM looking at me so :)))) but then he left before i could talk to him oops

SO THEEEENNN

i got home right

and i was like ugh i need to do homework

and this is when the day turned upside

i went from being super energetic to super super super super unmotivated

if you've ever listened to dodie's song called "down", i love that song because i get a lot of those days and it sucks because there's a feeling of "it's like walking around with a stone for a head, people swimming in honey as your life falls apart" and "but there's things to do,there's a life to live, must ignore my stupid head" AND this feeling lasts hours for me and it sucks really badly because i can't do anything and my parents don't understand

i tried playing guitar or piano or watching some graham norton or oscars to like stimulate my brain but it didn't work so now i'm doing my homework at 11 yay fun times

so that was my crazy mood swing day

anyways

QOTD: do yall ever have these days? if so, any advice for what to do?

ohmyhaylee kalopsiascity teamsophie- EchoAllison the_talking_sword EarthsMightiestMoron ororotchalla hero-ish Hellcatpat radicaliz tribecky tomsbella -varchies bowtruckIe Iaufeyson achromous yuerise citystruck @ anyone else!

AOTD: yep i get a lot of them. and my advice is that i need advice so YEET (or i mean just like try and text people or something that you know helps because you know your brain the best) for example, something that KINDA helped was saving a lot of pics of jamie chung wooooooooooo and i also listened to that song i posted above and it really helped because like mental stuff

ALRIGHTY THAT WAS KINDA A BIT ON THE SAD SIDE

SO LET'S HAVE SOME HAPPY STUFF

^ I LAUGHED FOR FIVE MINUTES AFTER I SAW THIS

^ yep 😂😂😂

^ GENOCIDE OH GOODNESS

^ 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

^ same

^ HAHAHAH

^ THIS IS SO TRUE

^ awww bby

^ I MADE THIS AND I LOVE IT TOO MUCH

OKEEYYYYYY I LOVE YOU ALL MWAH MWAH 💖

BYEEE

PS: ill try and update LETTERS later this week ☺️