I really want to know why I always end up thinking of the most depressing shit and crying when I can't sleep.

This entry isn't as depressing as the other ones though, I promise.

I've been feeling better these last few days. Not great, but better. I'm probably not going to be at the top of my game again for a while, but at the very least I'm not in the mental state I've been in for the last few weeks.

I still think I'm going to stick with not trying to make any new friends though, since the fact that I keep losing friends is what has been pushing me into my fücked up mental cycle lately.

For now I think I'll work on making characters to keep my mind off of everything. I need to keep my brain busy and that seems like a great way to spend my free time for now.

I'm starting up my DND campaign again Tuesday, so that'll be fun. It'll get me out of the house a while, so that'll probably be good for me. Hopefully it goes better this time. Last time too many people were flakey about showing up, so it was hard to keep everything going smoothly.

The only thing I'm kind of upset about with the restart is the loss of the old campaign's OTP lol. My friend spent all of the last campaign trying to get this NPC to love her character and she was getting close.

Well, that's all I have to say for now.