I really wish I was anything but white. Really.

I mean yes I get that there is more racism and bias towards the other races, but when people actually act racist towards me it would be nice if I could complain about it without being told it's not racist because I'm white.

And I would like to be taller. And maybe have a different hair color besides blond.

I don't look very intimidating. Im short and blond people don't get taken seriously.

If I shaved all my hair off and got a devil tattoo on my scalp and a nose piercing and wore all black all the time I think my life might be better.

No I'm really not kidding.

But my mom wouldn't let me get a devil tattoo on my scalp plus I have a lot of moles on my head and I would cut them off if I shave my head so I can't really do that.

And every time I get my ears pierced we have to take it out and let it close up because something bad happens so I doubt it would be any different for my nose.

But I think I could talk my mom into letting me dye some of my hair blue. And there's fake things I could wear that don't penetrate my face so I could look badass and not die at the same time.

Im also really tired of people being shocked my boyfriend is black/a year older than me.

"You just don't seem like the type of person who would date a black guy."

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? IS IT JUST BECAUSE IM WHITE? IS IT MORE THAN THAT? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG THAT INFLUENCES THEIR OPINION OF ME?

You know how the people in my chemistry class are all loud and stupid and racist?

They found out my boyfriend is black because we were holding hands and Cory saw. And Cory was like "oooooh is that your boyfriend?". Why would I lie about that? So "uh yes."

"OH MY GOD HANNAH IS DATING A BLACK GUY!!!!!!!!" :O

And now all the people who previously accused me of being part of the kkk and shit want to talk to me and actually shut up when I tell them Steven is not being an asshat just because he's white. Now I feel confused. I just want to finish my work.

Oh and at my high school if you're in a relationship everyone assumes you make the dirty dirty frickle frackle in the school bathroom.

People do the no pants dance in the bathrooms. Except the one by the cafeteria. That's the bathroom people don't do drugs or graffiti or the dirty electric slide in because you just don't. Too many people could walk in on it and it's too close to the office. You can be a hoodlum in a different bathroom.

The teachers know it happens. The students know it happens. Teachers see boys and girls walking out of the same bathroom together and they don't do anything.

Like theirs this law they tried to pass in Houston so people had to respect gender identities of others and let trans people use the bathroom they identified with but it didn't get passed, because people were concerned about sex offenders.

Here's the thing; you are assuming that a sex offender is 1: straight 2:willing to lie about their gender identity 3:wants to attack you while you pee 4:actually cares about the law 5:Is willing to pretend he is a woman

Rape is about power. They want to control people. To feel masculine. To call yourself a woman would probably not make him feel very powerful. Just sayin. Shitfuckers. Plus if he's willing to pretend to be a woman than there are ways to make yourself look like a person who was assigned female at birth and he could just walk in there anyway. Plus how many places do you know where there is a security guard for the bathroom? If he really wants to be in there there's really not that much stopping him.

I recommend you carry a can of wasp spray. It will burn peoples eyes, has better stream, is less expensive, you could clink someone on the head with that, and it kills wasps.

I sometimes fantasize about living in a camper when I grow up that I just tow around the country with me. I would ask random people if I could park my house in their yard for the night. I would have an actual house just in case, but mostly live in the camper.

Also anyone know any canonically queer characters in television or books? Especially those who are asexual? Like an asexual THAT EXISTS AND IS A DECENT HUMAN BEING WHO REMAINS ASEXUAL throughout the show or book or whatever it is? But you know just generally shows with queer characters?

In one week I will make an update with all the responses I get about queer characters and the ones I already know and which shows their all from because this is a really important thing and everyone deserves to have someone they can identify with.