I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure
I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times it's hard to handle but if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best~ Marilyn Monroe

Chapter 4: COOTIES!

~4 days later~

School has been such a drag so I was a little more than delighted when I received a call from Kai asking to take me out shopping and promising free food.

Hey, as long as there's free food I'm there.
I know what you're thinking, what kind of friend goes behind their best friends back and goes shopping with their crush?
I knew that Tash would do anything to be in my place.

I mean a normal person would've said no straight away to such invitation.
A normal person would not keep secrets and lie to their best friend.
A normal person would be having second thoughts.
I really fudging wish I was a normal person.

"We just went in this shop!" Kai moans as I drag him into a cute little boutique that we probably went to a couple of hours ago but I needed to get more clothes.
But everyone knows there's never such thing as too much.

The boutique was less packed than before and  that probably meant that all the good things from the sale was gone.

"Ugh!" I groaned.

"What?" Kai asks still sulking a little bit, chewing on his bottom lip, (he looked really cute when he did that) he bends down to re-tie the shoe laces of his black vans then looks at me waiting for a answer.

"Because we stopped at that stupid stall to get you a pretzel-" I start trying to scold him .

"Hey the monster in my stomach needed to be fed" he objects, holding up a long finger.

"Well that monster in your tummy made us miss the sale and I think I saw something really cute earlier!" I continued grilling him. I was upset because I haven't been to a proper party in quite a long time so I actually wanted to make a effort for once.

Kai looks at me closely with a smirk playing on his face.

"What?" I say getting irked because this is no time to be laughing.

"Well it just so happens that everything you picked up and said a nice comment about, in the millions if shops we went to, I reserved for you at each and every counter" he says with a satisfied grin.

"Even this one?" I say a smile erupting on my lips.

"Yup"
I fist pump the air then hug him, his sweet boy scent seeping into my nose. I quickly let go before I catch what kids call cooties or even worse feelings.

He walks over to the till and whispers something to the petite blond clerk who smiles and gives him a bag.
He hands me the bag and I look inside.
A black lacy underwear set. I don't remember picking that up at all.

"Not funny" I say giving him a mock death glare. If looks could kill, Kai would be six feet under the ground.

He chuckles "Although, I would love to see you in this, dig a little deeper"

I delve even deeper into the plastic shopping bag and pull out three items.
A black crop top with 'BURN IN HELL' in red fiery lettering, black distressed denim shorts with studded pockets and black thigh high socks with white skeleton bones on it.
I recognized these as the clothes that I picked out before.
I squealed with delight and noticed the clerk giving me the evil eye.
What was her problem?

"I'll take that as a thank you" he said sarcastically.

"Yeah, thank you thank you thank you" I say pulling him into a tight bear hug. 

This is the sweetest thing a boys done for me.

I dragged him towards the deserted changing rooms and ordered him to wait.
He immediately plunked down on the red waiting sofa and glued his eyes to his phone screen.
I walked into the small cubicle and started to change into the selected outfit.
Once I was done,I strolled out of the cubicle and struck an dramatic model pose. I expected him to look up at me with awe but instead his chesnut eyes were fixated on his glowing phone screen.

I coughed really loudly and tapped my foot, just to attract his attention.

"Wha-" His mouth dropped open when he saw me.
Now thats the reaction I was hoping for.

"You look. . .really sexy"

"Why, thank you kind sir" I say in a terrible southern accent.

 I was highly aware that I was blushing, like a beetroot went to holiday and forgot to put on suncream.

If it was any other boy that said I looked sexy I would've slapped them right in the face but instead when Kai said it I got tiny little butterflies breaking out of their cocoon in my stomach.
Ugh I even think cliché.

I turn to get dressed back into my clothes and I hear a crash and gasp behind me.

"What?!" I narrowed my eyes as I pieced two and two together. "Did you just try and grab my butt?"

"U-uh n-no of course not, I was just picking up my um phone" he stuttered scrambling for his phone.
I put my hands on my hip and gave him a 'I've sussed you out look'.

He raises his hands up "Okay you got me"
A playful smirk dances on his lips.
"But in my defense, your arse did look really nice in those shorts" I felt the urge to slap him but instead I decided to see the sweeter side and took it as a compliment.

"Oh please stop, you're starting to act like a fuckboy"

"What the hell is that?" He says laughing.
I noticed that whenever he laughs his eyebrows twitch up and down almost like their frolicking on his forehead.

"You" we both fell into a fit of laughter until the grumpy clerk announced that it was closing time soon.

I finished getting changed and we went to the counter to pay for it.

"Perfect choice, that'll be £51.78 please" the blonde clerk says batting her eyelashes at Kai and giving me an dirty look.

I was about to to fumble through my purse for some cash before a firm hand pushed my arm away and reached into a black pocket to reveal a wad of cash.

Both mine and the clerk's eyebrows shot way up.

"What?" He asks casually

"Nothing at all" I say returning to a neutral expression.

He payed and we left "If I do remember correctly, you did promise me food"

"Oh yeah, where do you want to dine?"

I thought for a millisecond before replying "McDonalds"

"I like your thinking" he agrees, wagging his finger at me
He grabs my hand and leads me out of the store and towards the fast food restaurant.

"Aww, young love" an elderly lady coos at us,bent over her trolley.

"No no no" we say at the same time, giving each other incredulous looks.

"You've got it all wrong we're not dating"
I then realized that Kai was still holding my hand. I awkwardly shook it off then began to explain to the woman but she was gone.

"Eh he" he awkwardly laughs.

We stand at counter waiting for our order to come whilst talking about the old lady.

"What was she on about" Kai says biting his lips nervously.

"I have no idea, she's just a batty old woman"
An awkward silence passed.

"Nicole, I really do like you" he looks at me through his eyelashes covering his big brown eyes, he attempts to hold my hand but I slyly push it away.

"Kai, I think you just like the idea of me. Anyway where should we sit?" I say trying to change the subject.

"But that kiss,you and I both know that it wasn't just 'nothing'" His promising eyes were pleading with me.

"Kai..."

"Okay, let's just find a place to sit" he styles a slight frown.
If I betrayed Tash again I don't think she would ever forgive me. I couldn't bear the thought of her and I not speaking especially if she found out.

Our meal finally came, two big macs, strawberry and chocolate milkshakes,two mcflurrys and some chicken nuggets. A meal fit for a queen and king.

We sat in silence except from the chatter from the people behind us, me chewing slowly and him devouring it like a starving wolf that didn't eat for ten years.

My phone abruptly rang and without looking at the caller id I answered it because I just needed to get out of here.

"Excuse me" I politely say to Kai before walking to the far end of the restaurant,near the bathroom and pressed the phone to my ear.

"Hello?"

"Oh God, you actually picked up!" Replied a husky voice filled with anticipation and hope. My heart stopped.

Nat.

How could I not recognise the number.

"Um, hi" I say dejectedly.

"There's so many things we need to talk about"

"Nat, I'm still angry at you."

"For what?" Did he not recall what only happened a few days ago?

"Does punching Kai ring any bells?"

"Coley, I was only protecting you"

"I don't need protecting, I'm 17 years old for goodness sake!" My voice was getting louder but I don't understand why he's being like this. I'm old enough to know what I'm doing.

"You don't know what you're getting yourself into"

"I'm not getting myself into anything"

"Okay, I trust you"

"Is this why you called me?" I don't know why I was being mean to him, he didn't do anything wrong. I don't want to worry anymore, I don't want to be sad about anything anymore.

"I called you because I want to know the reason why you broke up with me"

"You'll find out soon enough" and with that sentence hanging in the air, I hung up on him.
I take a deep breath and make my way back towards our table.

"What was that about?" Kai asks,eating the lasts of his fries.

I fake a innocent smile "What was what all about?"

"Your phone conversation" he replied casually.

"Hey, Mr nosy parker" I hit him playfully.

He held his hands up "Okay okay, but are you going to finish that?" He points to my food, greed in his eyes.

I rolled my eyes at him and passed him the chips willfully.
He gives me a satisfied grin.

"By the way, your hair looks purty"he adds as an afterthought, glancing up at me again through his long thick eyelashes.

"Okay, but don't forget to pick me up at 9"
I laugh and blush a little but my mind still kept going back to Nat.

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My trusty iPod blasts lyrics of I write sins not tragedies by PANIC! AT THE DISCO.
"HAVEN'T YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF CLOSING GODDAMN DOOR!" I sing, dancing around the room like a lunatic on drugs. I was still in my favorite Mickey mouse pyjamas.

Hey, don't judge my dancing skills.

I made sure my curtains were closed; I don't want a repeat of what happened last time.
I heard someone shouting my name but it was muffled.
I put my head outside the door "What!?"

"Turn down your music or I'll come up there and turn it down myself!" I hear my father shouting from the living room. He sounded angry.
As I turn down the music to a reasonable level, I notice a slight tapping on my window, as well as the rain,like pebbles being thrown at glass
Or similar to that anyway.

I glanced at the alarm clock on my bedside table.
7:23
I still have like two hours to get ready.
I walk towards the.window beside my bed, I keep my bed there because when it rains I like to look out of the window and watch the rain fall it helps me sleep.

I look outside the window and realize I was nearly right,instead of pebbles being thrown out of my window it was in fact skittles. Skittles. Skittles was being thrown at my window.I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

But as soon as I saw who the launcher was my laughter died down almost immediately.

"You know I'm not really into this romantic stuff, but I figured it was worth a shot if it helped get you back" he shrugs awkwardly, blushing slightly, water falling unto his brow as the rain hits him he was wearing a sharp black suit that was now nearly completely soaked but black and white converse. He held the dripping roses up for me to see.

"What are you doing here?" I shout to the boy looking shyly up at me from the bottom of my back/front garden, holding a green bag of sour skittles (my favourite) in one hand and red roses in the other.

"I want to apologize" Nat shouts up.

"For what?" I shout back, trying not to give in.

Nat scuffs his shoe on the pavement and looks down. "For whatever I did to upset you enough to break up with me" he seems genuinely sad, I know I shouldn't be dragging him through the mud but I can't let him back in especially with Kai about...
KAI.
No no no Kai is right next door he can't hear this.

"You haven't done anything, yet , it's what your going to do"

"Nicole, you've really got to give me some clues here, we're going around in circles"

"Nat,I-" The opposite window opens and Kai leans through, hair soaking wet,obviously just coming from a shower.
My breath hitches in my throat.
I quickly gesture to a confused looking Nat to hide. He stumbles behind a tree and stays silent, his eyes fill with anger when he sees Kai. Yet he still stays silent.

"What's going on?" He asks, ruffling a white towel through his dark hair.

"What?" I ask playing innocent in the corner of my eye I see Nat watching intently.

"It's just that I thought I heard you talking to someone" My eyes try not to wonder to his bare chest.

"It must've been the music" I wave it off
"I've been practising my singing"

"Aw,what happened to your dancing?" He laughs flashing pearly white teeth.
"So are we still on for Kada's party?, I bought you a surprise"

"Yeah, definitely" I beam falsely at him still fully aware of Nat's presence.

He waves goodbye and shuts his window just as Nat leaves, dropping the skittles and roses onto the wet pavement and stalks off but now instead of anger I see in his eyes it was sorrow and disappointment. The worst combination. . .

Half an hour later and I'm getting ready, topping up on eyeliner and mascara and a pale pink lipstick and tying my black and blonde in a french braid ponytail.
"Man, I really do need to re-dye my blond dip-dye" I say to myself as I admire me in the mirror.

I bring out the new clothes Kai bought and put them on feeling right against my skin, I choose black and white chuck Taylor's to wear. The matching ones Nat and I bought for each other...

I flop down on my duvet and start crying. Yeah I know I shouldn't be the one crying because I was the one who broke up with him. But it was going to happen sooner or later.

 For once I  wanted to be the heart-breaker not the heartbroken.

I think about the way he looked at me when he left, like all hope was gone, like we were a lost cause, like he'd given up.
I wanted him to keep on fighting for me.
I burst out crying again.
I must have been loud 'cause soon I heard a familiar soft knock on my bedroom door.

"Can I come in, honey?" I hear my mum's sweet voice through the door.
I quickly try and wipe my eyes but realize that it was no use my mascara had smudged even more and my eyeliner streaked on my cheeks staining my pillow.

My mother quietly walks in and perches on the edge of my bed.
"What's happened, pet?" She looks at my tear stained face a forlorn look in her eyes. "I thought you were going out tonight?"

I tear my face away from my pillow and look at her "I've messed up mum, I really have" I say salty tears falling on my lips

"What's happened, chicken" her eyes grow worried. "Wait, You're not pregnant ,are you?"
She practically spits the word out.

"No no no it's just-" I tell her everything about Nat and I and how I'm scared of what's going to happen next,I tell her about my feelings for Kai and how not sure if they are actual feelings.
It feels nice to vent to someone other than Tash, and I can't speak to her about it,so mum was kinda my last resort.

Once I was finally finished, my mum raised her eyebrow but then softened her expression "Oh honey, you're growing up so fast, when did you even start liking boys?"
"And I never thought you and Nat would be together, I thought you hated each other"

"I thought that too but I guess it just...happened"

"Well, I say you're 17 years old for goodness sake! You're not meant to be worrying about boys!" She wipes the tears from my eyes with the swipe of a finger.
"You're just meant to enjoy life, party! But absolutely on no circumstances shall you have sex, not until you're 30"

Somehow I feel like we're going to have this conversation again.

"Okay" I say just to make her happy.

"Go to the party" she insists squeezing my hand. I think about how excited Kai was about the party and I sure as hell didn't want to let him down after he bought me all those clothes.

"But. . .my makeup is ruined and I look like a panda" I complain, rubbing my face.

"I can help you" she offers.

"No no no, we both know what happened last time you tried to 'help'" I laugh, shuddering at the memory of blue eyeshadow and bright pink lipstick. Its almost like she wanted me to look awful.

"Okay, well, make sure you're alright and don't come back too late" She says walking out of the door.

"OK, mum"
I begin to do my make-up all over again. 

Winging the eyeliner, glossing the lips, and brushing the eyelashes.

At last I was finished, I grabbed my black cat clutch bag at 8:59 and the door bell rang at 9:00 on the dot.

"Oooh, that must be Kai" Mum coos sipping her tea.

"MUM, its just a party not prom"  I roll my eyes at her.

My dad looks out of the window and murmurs to himself "hmm, seems normal, not a fan of black attire" He then turns to me and says "You know the rules; no drinking, no late nights and keep your virginity intact, ya hear?"

"Yes dad" I open the door and Kai stands in all black with a big box in his palms.

"Hey, we're matching! " he laughs. "Hello Mr and Mrs McKenzie, I'll make sure to take extra special care with your daughter this evening"

"You better" my dad grumbles. I grab Kai's hand and leaves."No alcohol! " Dad screams as I close the door.

Kai leads me towards his black Mercedes coupe.
"Wow" I breathe, admiring his car.

"Yeah, I know ,I got it a when I turned 18" he says sliding into the drivers seat and gesturing for me to enter as well.

"So, whats in the box then?" I ask sitting myself down on the warm leather seats.

"Ah, you'll have to wait and see"
I roll my eyes at him, what's with all this suspense?
"By the way, you look absolutely gorgeous tonight" he says matter-of-factly, looking me up and down.
I all of a sudden feel really shy, why does he always give me compliments?

"Thanks" I say and he starts the engine.

"Wait ,before we go, I need to lay down some ground rules"
He stops the engine and looks at me expectantly "Go on. . ."

"One: don't touch me, ever" I start.

"What, not even hand holding?" He pouts.

"You can't even brush against me" I say sternly. 

"Two:don't let me drink,I repeat do not let me drink" I say this extra carefully and clearly, making sure to accentuate each word. "This rule should not be broken"

"Why?"

"Because whenever I have a alcohol in me, even if it's just one drink mixed with water, 'cause man I take the meaning light weight to a whole different level"
I explain.

"OK, so no touching or drinking got it, now can we go?" He says impatiently.

"Okay" I shrug.

He starts the car and drives.
We ride in a comfortable silence and listen to some head-bopable music.

We finally pull up to a very standard and ordinary house with quite a lot of cars parked in front. It took us forever to find a parking spot but we got one close enough to the house.

From the outside you could still hear American idiot by Greenday being played on full blast.
I knock on the plain white door and it opens almost immediately to reveal an obviously drunk Kada whose neck was being sucked on by some guy.

"Hey guys!" She giggles. I nod and so does Kai.
"Stop it, Ryan!" She squeals pretending to bat his hand away from her ass.
There's only one word for Ryan: fuckboy.

"I thought she had a boyfriend?" Kai whispers to me.

"So did I" I walk inside, as Kada runs after Ryan, with Kai at my back.
He starts jumping about weirdly holding his pee-pee.
"What?"

"I need to pee, I'll be back soon, don't do anything I wouldn't do" he calls running off into the direction of the restroom.

"Is there anything you wouldn't do?" I mutter to myself.
I felt someone staring at me so I went over to the drink table to get some lemonade.

"Nicole..." I stop breathing,I turn around to face a familiar face.
Nicole? He never calls me Nicole. It's always Coley.

"Um, hi" I say looking into his iridescent eyes, he was changed into casual wear, plain black t-shirt

"I understand that you obviously dont want to be with me anymore and I get that but remember this, I will never stop fighting for you" My heart begins to piece back together.

"But there's somethings that you don't know about your little boyfriend Kai " He practically spits out his name. My heart falls apart again.

"Leave me alone!" I reach for what I know is going to be my worst mistake. Vodka.
Adrenaline was taking over every inch of my body and there was nothing I could do about it.
My body is no longer my own,neither are my actions.

"Nicole, I don't think you should be doing that..." he advises trying to take the cup out of my hand.

"And I dont think you should be touching me!" I shout sauntering off and dancing with Tiffany.

By the time Kai came back from peeing, I was in my bra but still in my shorts dancing alone on top of a table.
Kai rushes to try and bring me down, he finds my shirt in the middle of the room and tugs it over my head.

"What are yooooouuu d-doing?" I slur I push him off me and scream "Truth or dare!" Everyone begins to pile into a circle
Kada starts "Truth or dare,Nicole?"

"Truth" I say crossing my legs primary school style.

"Okay, who was the last person you fucked?" She coos raising her eyebrows.

The 15 people in the circle stared at me,waiting for me to answer.

"I'm a virgin" I giggle. BIG MISTAKE . Everyone stares at me for a moment then continues with the game.

I stand up to get another drink but my body gets lifted up
"COOTIES COOTIES COOTIES" I scream. But then everything goes black.
And thats the last thing I remember from last night.

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