I am too good for this cruel world van @LotteHamers

That is what everybody tells me, but why?
Why do I deserve more, I am not so different from anyone else, I am not an angel who can't die.

I just live my life. The only thing that is weird about it, is that I never had a down moment in my life. I have never had a very deep dive.

Everybody who has a problem comes to me and I help them by giving my opinion, but they never ask about me because there is nothing to be said, my life is too perfect or something like that. Those thoughts make me very mad.

Everyone I know has million of problems but me? I don't have any. It feels like I have a heart of ice that only warms if someone I love needs me. That is a hard roll to be.

They all tell me their problems, but if they would ask about mine there will be nothing to be said. Who would walk in to death with nothing to be said? It sounds weird, I know. Everybody wonders right now "I want a life like you" but trust me you don't want that.

I see all my friends with so many emotions and so many thoughts but you know what my thoughts are? I don't even know what those feelings are, they have flown to far.

I think, or no, I actually hope that this world I am living in is beautiful, peaceful and kind and that every person is equal no matter how they look or what they did. That it doesn't matter if you are an adult, a woman or a kid.

I hope this world will be like that, it makes me to positive and naive, I know that, but what would my life be without something to think about, something to hope for? Then I would think everybody is rotten to the core.

I think about how perfect my life is and how much I actually hate that. I want to know how it feels like to be broken, to be sad. I have never known that, I have never know the feeling that everyone should feel.