Feeling like: what's the point?!

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EXCHANGE

I can't forgive myself.
There isn't a lot on my behalf,
I took our love for granted.

Now the sunset has this orange sour color
The waterfalls suddenly became colder
The summer rainy and never hot enough

I can't find new excuses to wake up at 5 am
To go hike
To smile, to dance

Even the pão de queijo doesn't taste as fresh
The farm, the horses, the sertanejo on TV
I can't stand this city

I tried to run away
Far to the sea
But I see you in every pier

Fishing
Having a beer
Getting ready to your next adventure

I learn,
What is given
Is taken,

The price of joy is pain
The price of life is death
The price of having you

Was tricky,
I can't fear life
Even knowing its price.

I've ignored
All the signs
Of the cost of love.

You gave me, my life,
You showed me the joy
I've never experienced before.

You were
given
You were
taken

This pain is the price
Of choosing intensity
Over balance

How to live life
Knowing that everything is a constant
Goodbye?

Then I lock myself in the bedroom
Look for a place where I can be free
Well, Statue of Liberty it is.