Dear God,

I want to believe you have plans for me... Ever since the video came out of Kyle's song, Plans, I have been seeing that verse EVERYWHERE!!!

Literally... When I see a painting somewhere, on my new friends written on her wrist small to remind her everyday, on my wall, in my songs, in my heart now, when I flip through Your words. I see this verse everywhere. My eyes see this word everywhere and my heart is lead back to the verse. It has almost been a year, and not a day has gone by when I stop seeing this word... My heart see this verse. I want to feel this way forever.

I know it is crazy to think about, but I think this is a sign or something. I don't know what to think about it. I thought I had my own plans, but you keep throwing curve balls at me. I feel I keep missing. I am getting frustrated. I want to toss the bat... Toss in the towel. Somehow every time I see that verse I feel a little bit of comfort. I feel you might have plans for me. Can I trust my heart over my head though? Or is it my heart that I am supposed to follow? What am I supposed to do? I can feel you trying to say something, but what is it? Can you just say it?!?!? I am down on my knees broken, feeling hopeless, abandoned, ugly, dumb, alone.

I feel that sometimes, but with the verse somehow I forget everything. I forget even who I am. I feel Your power, but why is it sometimes not working?

I want to feel Your power even when I am weak... When I am too weak to pray or even stand. When I am broken on the inside... Except with this verse it feels like a comforter.

WHY IS MY HEAD SPINNING?!?!?!? I need You! I need to stop for a second chance to think....

You have plans for me I know... You have dreams for me... I can see them just beyond the horizon. I will say this again and again. You have plans for me.

Thank you Kyle for the song and showing me God's verse, but I have to give a giant shout to God for showing me that He DOES have a plan.... Even if I don't hear it once in a while when I am caught in my own life.

Love Your little Princess,
From your Little Light
~Melody❤️~